Who knows? Maybe my feelings for you are but a figment of my imagination, made false by the non-personal nature of the internet, of words on a screen. The touch you describe I cannot feel, I know neither of its uniqueness nor of its meaning. Distance is cruel to us both; even as I write this I miss you like crazy. How can this happen, you in Colorado, me in New Zealand? I close my eyes and you're holding me, I open them again... you’re hundreds of miles away. And yet I've never really known you. Everything betrays my brain, my common sense. They were only words on a screen, but they were perfect. I try to tell myself to stop doing this, stop falling for you, because it'll just make everything harder. I can't do this, but I so want to. You sign on, and my heart leaps. It hurts to see you go. I don’t want to need you; it isn’t my choice. I feel so helpless, so foolish, so alone.

But they’re just words on a screen.
How can I fall for words on a screen?

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