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Date Posted: 22:58:15 11/06/01 Tue
Author: sara
Subject: faceless jane

i dont know why i have no words for you im so blank my mind my heart i have nothing at all and im sleeping every moment i feel like im alive so i guess im dead every moment im not dreaming this is so dumb what am i thinking its just gunna keep coming and not mean anything but i dont care i dont care who reads these words and takes them to mean something to them anyway just another thing thats all thats all my words have become to me and that tells me im dying. im here allone telling myself that im not like everyone else and its ok to feel so allone. you tell me this is what its like im telling you that this is my life. i dont know what to say to you. yer friends are not yer friends if they dont realize what lousy friends they are. yer not allone, yer not invisible if yer all i can see. its ok to have dreams that may never come true becuz thats what keeps you alive, its what keeps you going and gives you something to love, something to live for. so give me these dreams too. every breath you take affects me, cant you see? i dont kno if i can do this any more and i dont mean us and i dont mean this. its something else. this writing that wont take away my emotion anymore. what purpose has it if theres no release from anger or sadness or hate, or love? i dont think im crazy. i dont know what to think. today is just day that is like one of those old days and all i wanna do is sleep and forget about it. forget this hole thats growing in my stomach. forget this anticipation built up in my mind. i cant describe this and its killing me. this faceless death. and who understands? does it make a difference? prolly not. doesnt matter tho cuz maybe this will help me sleep with out waking a thousand times. then again i might just sit here and stare at this screen becuz i have come to realize that this page has become my life. my connection to something even if no one reads it atleast its there and its not inside me. so this is it.

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