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Subject: Please help me Author: Anonymous-G [ Next Thread | Previous Thread | Next Message | Previous Message ] Date Posted: 15:22:48 03/23/04 Tue i was in my relationship with my current boyfriend for 5 monthes and 6 days when we found out i was 6 weeks pregnent on february 19th,2004...it was accident..i was on the pill for the first time since september and they didn't tell me antibiotics would supress the pill...i was on antibiotics from the end of december on and thats when i got pregnent...when i was at the hospital they told me the baby had a heart beat and i saw it on the ultrasound...i wanted to keep it so badly...and so did my boyfriend...but we had to carefully consider our options..i'm 18 and a freshmen in college with no job and my boyfriend is 20 going to college and working fulltime we felt it wouldn't be right to bring a child into this world that we couldn't provide for financially....but i still wanted to keep it...i didn't care about the struggle i wanted the baby but i talked myself into getting the abortion because i didn't want to ruin our chances chances for the future...i want to graduate on time and i want to marry him and have a big house filled with kids and i thought having the baby would ruin that...so on march 5th i had the abortion at 8 weeks....and i haven't been the same since...all i do is cry i cant stand seeing or dealing with anything to do with babies i didn't even go home for my baby cousins first birthday party because i didn't want to be around babies...i hate myself.i'm so angry with myself for going through with it and i blame myself for the pain me and my boyfriend are going through right now..all i do i sleep all the time and sometimes i wish i could sleep forever if it would make the pain go away and i feel bad because i think my boyfriend blames himself for being so unhappy when he has nothing to do with it...he has been great,..he's there for me when i need him...he's my shoulder to cry on...but yet even talking and crying it out is not making it better...i feel like i'm sinking into depression more and more everyday and i want it to go away...i wish everything was back to normal again...i'm afraid he'll leave me because i'm always upset even though he promises me that he wont but i still worry about pur future more than ever...i wish i could take back the abortion and be pregnent again i would have made three monthes this thursday...but i wont...and i hate myself so much....and what makes it worse the baby would have been born right around my birthday in october....is there anything anyone can do to help me please....i wanna get better so badly...i want help i just dont know where to go for it... [ Next Thread | Previous Thread | Next Message | Previous Message ]

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[> Subject: Re: Please help me Author: shellie [Edit] Date Posted: 23:22:01 03/25/04 Thu G~ I'm sorry you are having to go through this. Please consider going to your local crisis pregnancy center to seek post abortion counseling. It's important that you are able to talk about this as often as you need to. Feel free to post on this board when you are feeling low. Also, you can e-mail me any time. Sincerely, Shellie