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Subject: Constant Pain Author: Callie [ Next Thread | Previous Thread | Next Message | Previous Message ] Date Posted: 00:14:47 02/16/05 Wed Last summer i had my abortion. I was 2 months and 8 days. Im crying as i type this because i feel so empty and so hurt. I remember going to the clinic and there were a whole bunch of protesters outside of it. They started yelling at me and telling me not to make a stupid choice and that i shouldnt do that to my baby its murder. They were yelling at my mom "i cant wait to be a grandmother why are u making her do this!" What kind of people are u! i just closed my eyes and walked into the clinic. I wanted to start balling because it was true...deep inside i knew i was doing the wrong thing. So i sat down with my mom and i waited 4 about a 1/2 hour then they switched me into a differnt room idk why but it was a smaller waiting room where there were less women. I started crying softly to my mom telling her i wanted to go it wasnt right i needed to leave that sickning palce but my mom shook her head and told me"youre this far ur doing it okay?" nicely though. When i got into the actual room the nurses had me take off my pants and sit on the damn table they did it on. I remeber waiting 4 the doctor and jsut being so cold in the room and looking around it. i started to cry softly and told myself.." i cantt do this..." i stood up but then right as i almost had the COURAGE to walk out the doctor came in. and i sat back down. I couldnt be awake for it so they put me to sleep. I woke up in a daze and i swear on everything i asked the nurse at LEAST 7 times "im not pregnant anymore?" to this day im trying to get pregnant because counsiling nothing will help but another pregnancy. im only 16.. but i have no other goals in my life that to have another baby. it may not be the right decition money wise in the far future but ill manage im willing to except EVERY responsibility. I loved my baby even tho i killed it...i remember crying the WHOLE night b4 my abortion..laying on my back holding my stomach.. and reapeating myself im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry forgive me... [ Next Thread | Previous Thread | Next Message | Previous Message ]

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[> Subject: Re: Constant Pain Author: Vickie [Edit] Date Posted: 09:28:50 02/16/05 Wed Callie, I am so sorry to hear what you have had to endure at such a young age. You are just a baby yourself. I want to encourage you, that is if I read the post right, I want to encourag you to NOT have another child right now. Another child is not going to heal you, it is a replacement baby and the reasoning for a replacement baby will do more harm then good. You said counseling didn't help? What kind of counseling have you had, post abortive recovery group? or private counseling. I am here if you want to talk, I will do what I can to help you Vickie

[> Subject: Please email me-important! Author: Diane Cheryl [Edit] Date Posted: 22:48:15 03/01/05 Tue Please email me--it's important and I need to talk to you. Thanks..