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Date Posted: 09:11:30 02/17/05 Thu
I met my soul mate. I married him 6 months later. We had talked about children and decided that if I do get pregnant then it would be happy thing. This talk was before the month of our wedding. Hubby lost his job right after the talk and we began arguing every day after the wedding, due to adjustments and new house and new life journey ect. January 1st, I found out I was pregnant. I never thought that I would make it through all those nights I cried. I thought my hubby would be happy , I thought I would be happy, but with the way we were angry and the we had no money and we couldn't even take care of ourselves, we had talked about the abortion. We agreed that we would work on our marriage and counseling and also learn to care for each other so that we could have a child in a home of love. Also, we would find a way to save money for the future. I was so sick for 5 weeks. My belly grew and I became attached, and each day we argued. I knew in my heart that I couldn't keep it this time because I am a sick person and was so sick and we didn't have insurance and I had just started a new job, I physically and emotionally wouldnt of been able to handle it. I know this. BUt it doesn't mean I am okay. My hubby told me later that he too was so very sorry and that he wanted the baby, he said I could keep it but it would be a rough road. January 22nd was the worst day of my life, and every time I see a kid I burst into tears. I never wanted kids. But that was because I hadn't met someone I wanted to have kids with. Now I do. now I know how bad it hurts. When two people are in love, married and are soul mates, there is no reason they shouldn't keep their blessing. I learned from this. And I will never forget it.
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