| Subject: Re: I Am the Contraction Inside My Own Being |
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Gill
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Date Posted: 05:22:00 03/28/01 Wed
In reply to:
Chris
's message, "Re: I Am the Contraction Inside My Own Being" on 04:47:20 03/28/01 Wed
Here Chris - catch - it's yours!
Thank you Cassie, Great Mother, for your message of welcome into this new but familiar world; world turned inside out, rather than upside down. Today I do indeed feel newborn, although I'm not sure and don't even care if this is the "official second birth". As I sit with just the pain and distress of this contraction (felt mainly as physical pain and a kind of "burn") I can't help but cry, partially out of relief for seeing/feeling this at last and partially out of sheer compassion for all I've endured all my life unaware of or in reaction to this primal distress at the Heart of my Being. I sit and hug myself, my poor body; I feel I have literally just given birth to myself and hug my bodymind as if it is the newborn infant. The pain branded in every cell is enormous; a burn, a squeeze.
I think this all came about a) because of allowing myself to breathe deeply and really come into the body - by invoking my body and all of you out there helping me do this. Then b) working on my "core issues" with Ted as an Enneagram No 1, last night I sat in absolute fear then, one by one, I saw that most of my fear and issues were just that - core issues as a RESULT and DEFENCE of something underneath. In a moment of grace, seeing that, those core (mainly emotional and psychological) issues temporarily vanished, my mind went quiet, and all I was left with was this visceral,bodily pain and contraction. I re-read the chapters on the Core Wound near the beginning of White-Hot Yoga. And then - it happened, I saw what I described in my earlier posting. Suddenly Saniel's writing made complete sense; I also remembered Adi Da's clenching and relaxing fist. What a revelation; I'm still blown; what happens now?!
I'll probably post some more later!
You are all "contractions" inside my own Being. I am a "contraction" inside YOUR Being. Yippee!
Tons of love,
Gill xxx
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