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Author: Janel |
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Date Posted: 13:30:09 01/27/08 Sun It's almost been two weeks since I discovered the truth, since everything came crashing down upon my heart, and still I sit here struggling with this betrayal played upon me. It literally feels as if my soul was victimized, as if everything that made me me was taken and ripped to shreds, and when I stood up for myself, confronting the issues at hand, I was made to feel worse. Everything was turned around and suddenly I was to blame, somehow it was my fault that this wrong doing was performed on me, and so I apologized when I know I didn't have to. My questions were not answered, and an explanation was not given, I guess I just don't matter, not like I thought I did, my feelings and emotions don't count at all, if they did this would not have happened, but unfortunately it did. I just don't understand how anyone could do such a thing, What happened to honesty? What happened to sincerity? What happened to trust? What on earth did I do to deserve to be treated this way? Every time I think about it, it pierces my heart, as if the knife was twisted deeper beneath my skin, within the depths of me. I try not to think about it but it's hard to ignore the thoughts, no matter what I do it's on my mind, it's in my dreams, it's everywhere. I feel so used and betrayed. broken and hurt, and I can't even do anything about it, if I speak out my words will be turned around, I will be made the villian and I'm not sure I can handle the stress that I'd end up facing. For now, all I can do is cry, letting the tears fall, because it hurts, plain and simple, it hurts. © jah 12-16-07 . [ Next Thread | Previous Thread | Next Message | Previous Message ] |