Date Posted:00:30:41 08/10/02 Sat Author: Lori Subject: Thank you
I would like to thank everyone that has given me encouragement through one of my lowest points in my life. Things are getting a bit better. I will be graduating from nursing school (LPN) on Aug. 15,'02 and I am very excited. I have lost 27 pounds and that hasn't changed me one bit. I am still Lori no matter what. I am learning to love every part of me, slowly but surely. I am learning to smile more often now. Sometimes it is hard. I have gave up on seeking my soul mate. I am just waiting for him to find me. I don't have to settle for anything because I am so much worthy than that. I know that one day my turn will come when God sends the right man. Until then, I am trying to stay focused (especially on these state boards). I am reading my bible more often, watching christian television shows, and attending church more often. It is a comfort to know that God is near when no one else can be. I feel safety and strength. Sometimes I pray until I fall asleep. I talk to him all the time. It is a building process. I still make my mistakes, but who doesn't?
God has a purpose for me and I have to be patient (although that can be tiresome at times) for what it is he wants me to do.
For other FF women, keep on going. I know what is like to cry and question God, and make my body vunerable to a man for a moment, but God loves you and cares for you and He will send the love of your life, just wait and don't force things to happen.
He will send that man who will love you regardless. God see us on the inner, unlike man they see us on the outter. That is the difference between man and God. He can see what man can't see. God can see the good in you.
Don't let yourself go, glorify your own world and it will show up on the outside. This is the key to drawing the curious to you and make them wonder why you just won't settle for less.
God Bless
