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Fred4
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Date Posted: 17:39:38 10/01/09 Thu
Richard, I don't know whether your psychoanalyst was or wasn't taking the easy road out by giving you medication. Like any field, I guess psychoanalysis has some really good people and some of various ordinary skills.
It's certainly normal for you to feel sexual attraction to attractive people. Usually that leads to a person wanting to have any of a number of ways of regular sex with them. Desiring to give them enemas is a bit unusual, but not so given what happened to you as a kid.
It may not be bad for you to break apart the source of those feelings.
One possibility is that you feel you were raped as a child by getting the enemas. You may feel great that someone you view as attractive wants them given by you, and not in a forcing or unpleasant way to them. It is a non-rape processing of a previous rape situation.
Another possibility is that as a result of your childhood enemas (and if anything else in your life), you have a low level of self-esteem. Here an attractive person enhances your self-esteem by agreeing to let you give them enemas.
Another is that you feel that your anus is a particularly vulnerable part of you, and that the highest compliment you could get from someone is to let you explore with their anus.
Maybe the whole process not of taking enemas as I had described but giving them as well for which I mentioned five considerations might have some of those considerations here as well.
It could be one or more, or all of these considerations, or maybe of others that causes you to have the attraction you have. There might be some value of your taking apart which of these is applicable and what the implications of that may be, to get closer to your underlying feelings.
One thought that may pass your mind was that after giving them an enema, they took it fine, while you didn't when you were a kid. The more appropriate reaction is their age when you gave them, and the way you gave them, compared to your reaction when taking them at that age and the same manner. It may be surprising that the reactions are not too different. If some seem to handle it better than others, that could be just differences in the size of people's colons. I don't think you would find much difference in how the bathroom smells after you eliminate your enemas than how it smells after they eliminate theirs; if there are, everyone experiences less and more smelly times.
It is not my intention, nor do I want to know, if these feelings you get are when you have not had any sexual release for some time. Virtually all people have libidos which have to be released from time to time. If you don't have any regular sexual outlets, then it would seem perfectly normal for you to masturbate at those times. That might help relieve (but obviously not eliminate) those strong desires.
There are a lot of ways you can look at your reactions that I think medication may just dull and not eliminate.
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