Thank you, Draggie-doll for your well wishes. As most of you know by now, the cancer has spread to three locations in my brain and I am having increasingly difficult cognitive disorders as well as overwhelming illness as a result. Simple vocubulary and communication skills are being affected, making it difficult for me to communicate even simple thoughts. In fact, I remained in bed all day yesterday (Sunday) unable to rise, communicationg with Sage by sign language. There is also a chance that they wil discover next week that the cancer has spread (metastisized) to my abdomen as well. The pains I have been experiencing and teh diaphragm pain from forced breathing, even on heavy doses of O² there would indicate this to be the possible case.

I apologize to all who wish to hear more from me. I will attempt to do what I can, as I can and when I can for as long as I am able. However, I don't really have a lot of control over these matters any more. Some days it is all I can do to just read my e-mail and the posts here. I simply ask for your understanding and continued support and as much support for Secretary Sage as you can muster.I worried about wwho would care for Ayo after I am no longer here. Sage has won his heart, if not his feeding schedule and he adores her. That worry is gone for me now, but the big one remains inresolved. Who will take care of Sage when I am no longer here? I am counting on you folks to be there for her. She will need a lot of support and I know you folks will come through for her.

Please know that, while I regret and mourn my imminent death, I do not fear it. It is, after all, ust a transfiguration, a simple passage through an immutable veil from which I will not return.It is as natural a part of living as birth, to my thinking.Yes, I ahve many regrets: that I did not tell more peopel how important they are to me while I had the chance; that I did not have the chance to let those who have wronged me know that I harbor no ill well or hatred for them or their actions; regrets that I did not have the strength or ability to share more of me and this area of the world with Sage and others. I regret the debilitating condition that prevented me from keeping up pmy musical efforts and writing as I wished. I have much more to share, but may not be abel to do so.

I do have some things in my life that I do not regret. Most important ws my time with Sage. She has been a friend, a caregiver, a vital part of my life and I can never thank her enough for coming through for me when others turned their backs on me, even denying my illness. Another is the group of people who have gathered here to read and sometimes post, adding a bit of joy to what could be a bleak time for me. When you post, you are better for my state of mind than any nostrum dispensed by any pharmacy anywhere. Thank you!