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Date Posted: 21:49:44 08/12/03 Tue
Author: Honey
Author Host/IP: h133.129.40.162.ip.alltel.net / 162.40.129.133
Subject: Re: Good news that needs to be shared
In reply to: Lion with pride 's message, "Good news that needs to be shared" on 14:09:34 08/10/03 Sun

Awwwww, shucks!!! You're gonne make me blush, Laf!!! But thankyou dearly for the good wishes.

You know, a year ago, I was in deepest despair. I thought God had forgotten me... or disliked me so much .... I was struggling financially, physically, emotionally... you name it! The weeks leading up to my daughter's wedding were the deepest in depression I had sunk since 1992 when I knew suicide was definitely what I was going to do. In June of 2002, I was about to face my biggest fear.... being alone. My girls had done the most horrible thing a mother can experience... they grew up and didn't need me any more. There was no one at home when I came home from work. No one but the dog to even care... and as long as he was fed, he didn't really care that much. The night of her wedding, I spent alone - drinking and crying.

My life was in deepest despair. My soul yelled at God, cried out to God, questioned God.... WHY??? Why can't I find anyone that will love me??? Am I THAT terrible of a person?? What's wrong with me????? Am I destined to be lonely the rest of my life????

Finally, around Christmas, I came to grips with it. Ok, Lord, I prayed.... I give up. I am not even going to look. I will teach myself to be content where I am and with who I am.

In January, Gary dropped into my life. He was everything I'd ever told God I wanted... including the hairy chest! He was, in fact, too good to be true. So, I did what any self-respecting red-blooded American woman would do. I had him checked out! LOL Turned out he and I had a mutual friend where he worked. I emailed my friend (who knew my history) and asked him "Whats up with this guy?" He'd worked with Gary for 7 years and quickly responded that I would never find anyone as good as Gary.... he was an honest, stand up guy.

Ok... thats one vote. A good friend of mine also happened to have a friend who worked where Gary works, and he emailed his friend. His friend turned out to be Gary's boss of 10 years, and echoed the same thing... Gary is a great guy and is his what he says he is.....

Somehow... somewhere... it was looking like my ship had come in! But, knowing how the other shoe has always fallen, I was very hesitant to trust. So, I did. I waited... I tested him... I challenged everything... I turned from him and then turned back to him. He was so constant and so loving and so sure that we were destinged to grow old together.

So, I accepted his ring with limitations. I kept the rear door open for me to flee thru if I needed to... and several times, I came very close to doing just that.

I cannot ever begin to tell you what it's like to have a man love you so steadily, so constantly, so assuredly. I've certainly never known this before, but somehow (I'm pinching myself again!) I seem to be married to that man.

Now, I'm wondering if I'm good enough for him instead of wondering if he is good enough for me.

A year ago, I never could have imagined such happiness and contentment. I'm so glad I can't see into the future!

Gary has no children of his own, so this year will be an amazing one for him as well. Not only will he acquire two wonderful daughters (perfect in my eyes at least! LOL) but he'll be a grandfather in a few more weeks!

Thank you, sweet Laf and Sage, for the wonderfully kind wishes. I treasure them (and you both) deeply).

Now, I'm back to packing up my house. It sucks to decide what to keep, what to sell, and what to throw away!!! YIPPEE!!!

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Re: Good news that needs to be shared -- Z, 19:39:34 08/14/03 Thu
- Re: Good news that needs to be shared -- Honey, 18:00:07 08/22/03 Fri