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Date Posted: 01:16:46 07/25/03 Fri
Alex Band *~I believe in you~*
I looked around the empty room warm tears falling from my eyes It was strange how you could fit your entire life into a few small boxes, This room wasn’t mine, This wasn’t my home and I felt like I was drowning In my own tears as the sun quickly rose above the San Fernando Valley.
A few weeks ago everything had been fine then my parents split up and here I was on the other side of the world as far from London as you could possibly get…
Chapter 2~
I rubbed my eyes I hadn’t slept all night Just went through boxes wrote a few lines in my diary and watched the world from my bedroom window, The Oakwood School brochure sat un touched on my bed like some foreboding evil I just cried and cried till I could barely breathe.
The school had a comforting scent of Floor polish and bleach as I walked along the packed hallways raising the odd look from people, A man In a sweater two times too big for him caught my attention by waving his arms “Aah Miss Payne…I’ve been looking for you” He handed me a crushed piece of paper “I’m Mr Mackenzie I’m your new Music teacher” I shook his hand “Nice to meet you” He grinned “You look so scared I know what you need, Someone to show you around today!” I went to stop him as he called to a boy walking down the corridor “Aah Alex this Is Gemma she’s new you wouldn’t mind showing her around today would you?” The boy grinned “No Its fine sir” and with that the teacher disappeared.
Chapter 3~
He stood looking at me for a few minutes then nodded “What?” I mumbled suddenly feeling self conscious he grinned “No, You live on my street, I saw you unpacking on Sunday with your mom” I nodded “Yeah I can’t really remember,” He nodded “Are you any good at Science?” I raised an eyebrow “Why?” He opened a door and let me go first “Cause first lesson’s double science”.
I watched him from the corner of my eye as he fiddled with test tubes of liquid “Here you do it” He said I had no idea what it was as I poured it in I just heard a large “Bang!” and looked up at a charcoal coloured ceiling I knew that I was gonna get a serious screaming at from the teacher “ALEX BAND!” He screamed across the room making my ears hurt “Yeah” He replied softly obviously unflustered “This is the third time you’ve done something like this!” He nodded “Yeah well accidents will happen” He grinned the teacher “So will your two hour detention tonight” He laughed.”
Chapter 4~
I sat watching him across the table, as he ate “Why didn’t you just tell him it was me?” I questioned he swallowed “It doesn’t really matter does it? I’m not going back their any way” We hadn’t actually spoken since Science that morning “So what’s England like?” He asked as we took a walk round outside I grinned “Its grey and it rains a lot…I love it” He laughed, “Did you have a lot of friends there?” I nodded “A few close one’s…” As I saw his face I realised all day we’d been together and nobody had said one word to him except me “Who are you friends with then?” He smiled “I don’t do the whole friends thing” He said turning his first two fingers on both hand into inverted comma signs “So you just walk around all day on your own?” He nodded “Why do you think everyone keeps looking at me funny? They’ve never seen me with another person in the four years I’ve been here” It seemed strange that this incredibly beautiful looking boy with the mind of a rebel genius had no one to share it with “Do you choose to be alone or just don’t mix well with other people” He grinned “They class me as eccentric cause I don’t dress like them or worry about which cheerleader I’m dating this week…God its just so…Stupid” He spat then looked at me still smiling “Doe’s that worry you” I raised my eyebrow “What exactly that your eccentric or that you don’t like cheerleaders?” He Laughed “I like the way you think…you think how they should…I like that” He added with a slight grin playing across his lips.
Chapter 5~
I held the diary across my lap writing about my day, About Alex Band and I knew everything about him on the way home we’d walked together and had talked about our families.
“My dad’s a director my baby brothers are just like the coolest…Harlan and Zalman and my sister Taryn and Debbie she a cool step ma” I almost didn’t want to ask, “Where’s your mother?” He wrinkled his nose “In Germany she left when I was eight, I’d only just left hospital for this a week before” He said softly showing me a scar that ran deeply across his cheek “My neighbours dog…three days before Christmas, Nice present eh?” from then on I had a feeling Alex’s sarcastic outlook had been adopted as a defence mechanism from his weird and wonderful upbringing…His house was like him weird and wonderful the floor was scattered with bit of bike his two brothers sat trying to take it more apart “What gives guys?…Broke something else?” They both shook their head’s “Dad wont buy us a new one each so we took his apart till his coughs up.” His room was covered from floor to ceiling in posters of u2 on one wall a film poster hung above his bed “One of dad’s best…I was in it of course” He just echoed “Free spirit” His clothes, Long blond hair And attitude.
An electric guitar stood in the corner “How long have you been playing?” He smiled “since my mom left it took my mind of things my sisters boyfriend Aaron’s better than me though.” He lifted it and started to play a tune then he started to sing “If I give up on you, I give up on me, If we fight what’s true will we ever be,” I listened entranced He opened his eyes and stared straight at me “I believe In you even if no one understands, I believe in you and I don’t really give a damn” a spasm filled my body and a warm pain hit my chest…and I didn’t want it to stop.
Chapter 6~
Alex and me sat together for hours every day I’d promised to give him a hand with his homework if he’d sing for me I finally met His sisters boyfriend and the rest of Alex’s band “Do you actually have a name?” I said to Alex “Well we were Generation Gap once the bassist was forty and the drummer was fifty eight” I just laughed “It sound like something you’d be part of” He sighed setting down his guitar “Than it was “Next door” cause my next door neighbour used to work for RCA and we’d constantly post tapes through his letter box” He laughed almost as if he could picture it now “So you’ve always been a freak for music then?” He smiled still looking away “Yeah guess so you could say it’s always been the calling for me” He suddenly leapt up “The calling” He repeated” It was safe to say that sometimes Alex was not of sane mind and never on the same planet as everyone else but that was the good bit.
Chapter 7-
“Your getting far too cosy” My mum stated wrinkling her nose “Mum you’d love him his funny, Smart, talented and beautiful” I sighed taking a gulp from my bottle of water “You’ve really fell for him haven’t you?” I nodded she knew me and knew if she told me to leave him alone that I’d just go out of my way so she just said “Be careful not to get hurt you’ve only known him four months…Its not exactly a long friendship is it?”
It was too late I was so in Love with Alex he was the last thing on my mind at night before I went to sleep and when I woke up and the hours in between if he would have me I would have surrendered to him gladly.
The garage door was wide open he was sitting Jamming “Hey!” I hollered over the music he stopped “Hey” he seemed off something was on his mind I didn’t have a chance to ask him as a girl I knew from school walked out from the house and handed him a coke “Gem…this is Selina” I nodded “I know who she is Al” She sat on his lap and suddenly I felt sick I had to move or I’d have thrown up on his lap all over her I made my excuses and ran along the block straight past my house I had no idea where I was going I’d know when I got there my feet took over as the pain in my chest got worse and worse I thought I was dying finally my legs gave up on me and I fell onto the wet grass.
I hadn’t noticed it had been raining heavily while I ran, I just sat crying wet warm tears mingling with those that fell from the now dark sky above me I had no idea where I was or how long I’d been running.
Chapter 8~
My mother banged on Alex’s door frantically He opened it quickly worried “Mrs Payne what’s the matter? Where’s Gemma? She was sobbing he hugged her “She’s gone Alex…And I don’t know where” He looked up a Selina standing at the top of the stairs “I have to go” He said and ran out the door leaving her there in one of his shirts and her underwear.
I lay on the wet grass watching the stars I knew by now He’d know I was gone but what would he do? Come looking for me like I hoped He would or would it just be my mother searching Los Angele’s frantically for me alone…?
Alex went into the bathroom and rested his head against the sink, He felt guilty he had no idea why he did, but He had a feeling that this was because of him in some way.
Out of the corner of his eye a tiny blue book sat on the side by the bath he picked it up and looked at the first page he’d read a few lines before realising it was a diary his goodness persuaded him to put it back but he wanted to know if this book held the reason why she’d disappeared He flipped through till the most recent page it read “My angel my Alex, Well who knows if he’s mine after all that bitch is constantly looking at us together…What will I do if she gets him…I’d die.
I need him, I have to have him more than the air that circulates through out my lungs…could it be any harder…?
He showed the diary to Mrs Payne “Do you think she mean’s it?” He asked she looked at the words “That she’d die…if I know Gemma She doesn’t make threats” He ran from the house he’d look everywhere if it took him all night he ran and ran till he met a secluded park He knew she didn’t know LA well and would be lost if she’d got this far not far ahead he saw a shape on the grass as he got closers “Gem!” He hollered.
I looked up when I saw it was Alex I stumbled to my feet and tried to run but he caught up with me we both slipped on the grass and came crashing back down “Thank god your okay…?” I looked at him trying not to cry, “Why wouldn’t I be ok?” He didn’t realise what he was saying, “It said you’d die for me…” Then he realised “You read my diary didn’t you?” He nodded My hand lashed out and slapped him in the face his bottom lip began to bleed I instantly wanted to take it back but it was too late as he stood looking wounded “How could you?” I whispered, “I had to know you were ok…” He said in a tone barely above a whisper “So now you know” I said he nodded tears stinging his eyes He gathered me into a tight hug “I’m sorry” He sobbed pulling me closer I sobbed into his jacket “I never meant to hurt you…I never would” He whispered I looked up at him “I love you too much,” I whispered he leant forwards and softly his lips brushed mine he winced but I could taste his blood on my lips it was over too soon…
Chapter 9~
I sat in my bed sniffling into tissues I had a terrible flu, and everyone In School thought I’d made a suicide bid thanks to Selina, It was the night of the Prom not that I could go anyway Alex was in the running for prom king or so I’d heard through other people, I tried on the dress I should have been wearing a light blue versace number that had cost a mint .I felt tears in my eyes Alex obviously hadn’t been round after I’d probably scared the life out of him that night.
A tapping on the window made me jump Aaron was hanging from the guttering I pulled him in “What are you doing here you should be at prom” He grabbed my hand “So should you” I shook my head “No I won’t go the entire school will be looking at me…” He leant forwards “Cause their Jealous…That dress looks hot.” I laughed, “Flattery will get you no where” He grinned “Please…for Alex” I looked at my shoes it’d be a waste not to wear them at least once…
The school was alive with music and drunken teenagers.
I felt eyes on me as Aaron led me in by the hand “Just keep your head high, fuck them who cares?” I knew he was right and did as he said as a few hundred eyes fell on me then the room went black “Al, What’s happening” He didn’t answer me as two thrones were revealed on stage the principal stood in between them “Hi everybody would like to know who the New prom King and Queen are?” A loud cheer went through the school “Well In second place with thirty two percent of the votes is Amber Mills, and in firstly place with sixty eight percent of the vote is Selina Willis!” I felt Ill as she took her crown and sceptre like she actually thought her plastic crown somehow made her better than the rest of the world.
“Our second place male with thirty four percent of the votes is Aaron Kamin!” Aaron grinned at me as he ran on stage and stood behind the king’s throne “And in the first place with sixty six percent of the votes is Alex Band!” Alex appeared and took the throne and sceptre beside Selina I bit my lip the familiar chest pain rearing its head again.
As the principal leant over to crown Alex he leapt up “Everyone Hi, I don’t want this, This shit mean’s nothing to me there’s only one thing that I care about and that’s you” He started walking down the stairs towards me Suddenly Aaron had his guitar and was playing a familiar song I knew as Alex began to sing I couldn’t hold back the tears “If I give up on you, Then I give up on me, If we fight what’s true will we ever see, Even god himself in the faith I knew, shouldn’t hold me back shouldn’t keep me from you.”
The tears ran down my face as he knelt on both knees taking my hand and placing it to his chest as the song finished he lifted the microphone to his mouth again “Can you forgive me…I’ve been stupid…I never meant to hurt you…I swear”
I took the microphone from him and threw it to the floor and helped him to his feet kissing him when we finally broke apart he whispered “Is this a yes then?” I nodded kissing him again,
I whispered in his ear “How could I give up on you, If I gave up on you I’d give up on me” He smiled recognising his lyrics maybe after all this he was right I did believe in him even if nobody else did…and I still didn’t give a damn.
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