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Author: Sage |
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Date Posted: 15:59:57 10/06/04 Wed In reply to: Mael 's message, ""Breaking The Habit"" on 10:28:25 10/06/04 Wed "Because I work now to make the rest of my life enjoyable I am happy now, because I see a happy future, not an uncertain one. With spending my time on video games, I can't even see my future. The video game is my future, and my happiness only lives untill the game ends, and then uncertainty comes after that. Video games are like an addictive drug where happiness only last the duration of the high and you can only see into the future as far as your next high. Like a drug, the future I see in playing video games is only untill the next level, or the next monster, or the next game....there is always something to fill the void with but im going to fill it with something useful, something that takes it away, not something that hides it for awhile." About two weeks ago I probably would have agreed with that. IFor me I don't really feel it's all that pointless. I don't really feel like I'm wasting time, except for not being out in the world finding a girl, but I will someday. I get to live an existance in a world that isn't so dull. Where I can be a hero. Even if the people arn't real, they are for me, at least for a time. It's like being a story that you read, only you control it, make the decisions. I can find a group of people just like me, and band together, to accomplish a goal. I know it won't last forever, but nothing does. So I move on and go on to the next story. I can honestly say I don't feel it's a waste of time anymore. The past 5 years I look back, and I remember I had some fun times with my friend. All the online games we played I look back and I don't regret a day of it. I'm sorry if you do. We lived our own stories in other worlds. Plenty of them. I look back and I think, those were good times, and I enjoyed myself having them. I feel I expand my imagination as I play each game. So I guess you could say I'm studying creativity and imagination. Playing them expands my own while I experience that of others. I also do other things I enjoy, I bowl alot, hang out with my family alot, and go to school. Eventually I'll find a girl to spend my life with, and eventually I'll find a job I enjoy. I'll also always be looking for new things to like. When I'm old and ready to die, I'll look back and think that I did what I enjoyed. If I spent my whole life doing what I enjoyed, I can't ask for anything better. I've found what I love to do in this world, and I'm not letting go. I'm also happy for you, that you found what has made you happy, although it's no longer the common interest we used to share. "You shouldn't take life so seriously. It isn't permanent." Now I realize why I like that so much. I used to strive for permanence. If I do this, I want it forever. But I realized nothing is forever, and it's ok, because I've accepted that. My future is somewhat uncertain, but time reveals all. I'm losing the pointless feeling I have had, and I'm happy again, more and more each day. BTW When I get the pics from the party at Joey's house last weekend developed I wanna scan and put on the site so u can see me getting a lap dance from 2 girls, one girl on each leg, was so funny, lol. Hot girls at that. I had so much fun at that party, was great. [ Next Thread | Previous Thread | Next Message | Previous Message ] |
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| Re: "Breaking The Habit" | mael | 17:17:10 10/06/04 Wed |