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[> Subject: Re: Heart broken
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Author:
Anna
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Date Posted: 20:33:05 08/14/07 Tue
Like you Lisa I fell pregnant and wanted desperately to keep my baby, I was 18. When my mother found out she became abusive and made me doubt that I would be able to cope with everything, and threatened to turn all my family against me. Despite all my fears and knowing it was not what I or my partner wanted, I had an abortion at 7 weeks.
Unfortuneately they showed me the ultrasound at the clinic after they had given be the drugs, there was no turning back.
2 years on I am now 6 months pregnant and have had to have another scan for this pregnancy. However my body just cant accept that I am having another child. That little blob of my first child has haunted my every night since the abortion, and I have no bond with this pregnancy like I thought I should have.
I dont know what to do as the pain and guilt I felt afterwards is still just as strong today and it's stopping me from being able to love the beautiful child that I thought I would never be able to have.
I had no idea how much of an impact one decision could have on the rest of my life.
If there is any support I can offer you please write to me. I still have no answers on how to make the pain go away but just know your not alone in your grief.
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