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Aisling (hi)
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Date Posted: 18:40:13 12/21/07 Fri
Hi,
I had my abortion a year ago: Well I found out I was pregnant this time last year. I had my abortion in January last year. I know alot of babies that are the age that mine would have been, I find that really hard. This may seem irrelevant; but I am writing it to try and say that I understand the idea of what it is like to think of 'the baby', or what age your baby would have been, when your baby would have been born, or where you would be now if you still had your baby.
I made my decision to protect our lives as well. I struggled my way up. I didn't want to let it all go, and make another little person do the same thing. I was wrapping my depty generals christmas presents this morning (I am not a PA, she is not a bully, she is nice and I do it as much to be helpful as anyhitng else)and I thought to myself; why did I do it; couldn't it have worked as well, if not better with my little baby.
I could not be sure. I could not clearly see a way to mind baby and me, and my boyfriend.
The decision was mainly mine. However, I did what I did for us.
I am not religious, so I cannot guide you towards God. I cannot tell you to get counselling: that would be hypocracy, because not only would my boyfriend kill me if I suggested that as an option, I couldn't bear the concept myself.
My boyfriend doesn't talk to me, never mind a 'stranger'.
I talk to my girlfriends, but it feels like a monologe... and as such, I am just thinking it out in my head... hence my being on this site.
Listen, all I am saying is, you aren't alone. I hear what you are saying, and I just wanted to say hi
hang on: hang onto your marraige, and your original reasons, and a belief that you were right. you did it for both of you; you were not trying to hurt anyone.
and totally outside of your life, and not knowing your husband. If he bacame your husband despite what has now become a problem, he made a commitment after the fact, he must be willing to work through it
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