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Date Posted: 11/12/05 12:39pm
In reply to:
Sara
's message, "Re: Sara, ba-by!" on 11/11/05 7:59pm
>Why not?
Because I might believe what you're telling me. If I do go back with my hopes high, you'll crush them with four words "I don't love you". The last time you did that it left a pretty big scar. That's why.
>So, that's a no. *sigh* Okay, I deserve that, but I'm
>not the one who cheated on me, remember that. I'm
>trying to be nice and I'm trying to figure a lot of
>things out Blake! I've lost everything and I have to
>start over. I'm still trying to figure out this single
>mom thing. I'm trying to stay a singer. I'm TRYING to
>be with you, but I'm scared that if I do you'll hurt
>me again. Do I not deserve you now? I mean, I'm scared
>so I don't deserve you. Thanks.
Sara, I hate the fact that I hurt you so badly when we dated. I know I didn't hurt as badly AS you did, but it was still awful. I understand that you're starting from scratch and have a lot of new things to deal with in your life. Why bother with me? If I'm going to "hurt you" like you say I am, why take the chance of me ruining it all and you having to start from nothing all over again?
>If you're not willing to wait, then you don't love me.
>It's just a simple case of infatuation. And with that
>additude, I'm rethinking what I just said. You're
>always this way when I tell you I want you back.
>Before that you're begging me. Blake, you're an
>immature baby. You don't act your age. Hell, I act
>older than you and good god I act immature sometimes.
>Just forget what I said, ok?
I can't forget what you said, Sar. By the way, you always make a big deal about the small things. So, I don't feel that us dating will do anything but hurt us both. Now, you're bringing up the past. You always bring up the past. You always talk about you and what YOUR going through. I know I'm acting like an ass, but I don't want you to do this because I made you feel safe. You lost your boyfriend, Sara. Of course having a male around for two months is going to make you think certain feelings are real because you haven't felt them in so long. You don't love me, Sar. You just want someone to be close to you again.
>p.s. I did love Cody, so don't start acting like those
>DAMN tabloids saying that I didn't just because I find
>myself a bit confused right now okay? The last thing I
>need is someone actually believing that I didn't. If
>you didn't notice I didn't fall for you UNTIL you were
>around me after he died. I didn't realize I loved you
>until you left. But, don't worry about it now. I'm
>used to losing things I love these days. It happens
>almost daily.
Sara, I'm sorry about saying that. It was spur of the moment and very rude. I'm deeply sorry, SC.
-Blake
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