The reason I was in such trouble wasn't because of drinking. It was how I was drinking and what I did while doing it. I don't normally drink. Maybe a few to feel silly. But after midterms and all the pressure I'm going through and depression it was parties everywhere this weekend. I don't always feel accepted. So I let loose and kind of lost control. I neglrcted my chores and well being for 3 days and on sunday I was dead. I did some things without going into details I'm not proud of and probably a lot of things I don't even remember.
Date Posted:05:05:41 03/18/25 Tue
To make things even worse I was late to my first class. I was sick in my classes, not like I was the only one, not just because of the toxins in my body but worrying about the night. I had to write the letter to my mom. I didn't have to tell her what Shelby was going to do to me, but I had to tell her about my partying exploits this weekend and that I was ashamed and very sorry and I had to add that I would be even sorrier tonight. Fortunately my mom responded that she was glad I understood that my behavior was inappropriate and that I learn from it. Today I have to visit my professor friend and confess everything to her.
But I did have a lot of fun and in a way I'm glad I did. Although if being accepted means drinking yourself to death, showing your boobs, pulling down your pants getting sexed by women I barely know and humiliating myself, I'm not so sure I want to be accepted.
Date Posted:05:16:19 03/18/25 Tue
The whoopin was horrible and went on forever. Her hand, hairbrush and bathbrush with humiliating corner time. I can't even talk about the enema. On my hands and knees, my butt on fire getting that tube up my ass and the soap and water just coming and coming and had to hold it, getting smack on my bottom with the bathbrush, getting told how bad I was. Then having to sit on my sore, sore bottom and it just kept coming out and coming out and Shelby's watching me do it with her arms folded. And it stunk sooooo bad. I was allowed to smoke a cigarette though. I sure don't want this to be a regular routine.
