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Date Posted: 19:24:08 08/11/01 Sat
11th day of Auotien
Entry One
I was coerced into buying this today, and was told I should write my thoughts in it and keep it forever sacred. That, I think I shall do. I've never heard of keeping one's own journal, though my tribe used to keep a running record of everyone and important events. I shall use the language often in this journal, to be able to see it and be reminded.
I thought alot about Ahkil today. The encounter the other day with "Majidah" reminded me of the stories he used to tell. I sometimes think I hear him laughing, and I know he is proud. Even though I have left the tribe, I have made something of myself. I should be dead, but instead I am respected by many. I wish I could see him again, and sometimes I think I'd rather have Cricket meet him than selfishly keep his time to myself. I think his wisdom would heal her. I can only say what I think he'd say and hope it is enough to ease her silent suffering. I don't care for many, such is a known fact. But Cricket is like tribe to me. I know she can't fully understand that, but I believe she comes close to comprehending the meaning. She is the only one since Ahkil I've allowed to call me Faizah. And I like to think it was Ahkil himself who told me to give her that privilege. I had a dream last week that she was I those many years ago, and that Ahkil welcomed her. Welcomed her white skin just as surely as her amazing spirit. A sign. I truly think that he would have. I know.. I try to see Ahkil in everything. It is a habit that will not, nor do I want to, go away. My greatest fear is that his memory will dissapear within me, and that I'll not be able to recall his face. Sometimes its hard to do so, and I panic. But for now I must go and see the idiot in town. He wants me to continue teaching his disgusting, uppidy son to hunt. I hear them when they whisper behind my back.. the way they talk about my skin, and the plots among the son and his friends to tie me down and force me to comply with their lust. They'd never succeed, but their plans disconcert me.. I'd never show it though. They have Ramheis in them, that's what Ahkil would say. If the money wasn't so good, I would send an arrow into his tainted heart. Ta'kienta.
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