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Subject: Majidah's Musings

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Date Posted: 12:49:14 10/03/01 Wed

3rd day of Ont'kan
Entry Eleven

Work has been keeping me fairly busy recently, many people think it best to stock up on meats now and use my services to do so. I suppose I don't need the money as much as I tell myself I do.. I just don't want to rely upon anyone but myself in those matters. Besides, I feel too caged in when I'm at the Roost. Its not that I displike the place, the Roost is now my home.. but before that my entire life was spent outside in nearly all conditions. It is seeming to become more unbearable each passing month. I fear soon I'll be sleeping in the yard. At the same time though, I'm very worried about Cricket. I haven't seen her as much as I'd like to, and I have no ne to blame for it but myself. She is strong though, I know I need not watch her every minute even though I'd like to. She brought up my feelings for Tarek not long ago and proposed the three of us together. Of course then I was upset with it, but now.. I don't accept it anymore, but it doesn't anger me. I actually find it amusing now. What I feel for him is but a phase, of that I'm fairly certain. He and I aren't at all right for eachother, even if it could be made to seem that way. Besides, he gives Cricket comfort that I cannot.. and even If I don't care to see it, I wouldn't want to change it. I found him at a tavern yesterday, and I was the first to bring it up. He seemed more embarrased than I, but I suppose that's because I find it more ironic than anything else. Of all people.. him. The tavern was so crowded we could hardly hear ourselves think, so we went back to the roost. Like I expected, he didn't much care for Cricket's idea.. and looked relieved when I told him it was out of the question. I gave him a pair of those boots, and then he went back home. I had hoped Cricket might be around, but Indigo said she was out. I couldn't wait around.. duty called, as it does right now. Ta'kienta.

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