| Subject: Delusional Parasite...Stabbing deep into my livelihoods heart |
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Date Posted: 10:09:16 04/06/02 Sat
(((As You read this Poem concentrate on another Life that centers deep into the minds of Those whom suffer from "Borderline Personality Disorder". Its UnRealistic view actually does happen as it causes havoc within Me, {a survivor of this Borderline illness))).
~}~} You delusional Parasite, stabbing depp into the Heart of My Livelihood ! {~{~
Realistically felt delusions of heated paranoia do strike the brain, as if another were to throw dirt into one's vision, while you shadow a thick fogging grey matter of illusional psychotic feelings and thoughts to deceive Me into actually being convinced that these falsehoods are just as Realistic as the confusion in everyone's eyes around Me.
Oh My God, how totally alone I become as it captures Me on up inside this DarkNess that's cruelly kept.
Due to all these simultaneous explotions all around, blasting Me far away from a HopeFull Realitiy's grip, such conjured SelfHatred does OverWhelm within, and, the very Company you keep, with NO-Mercy, revolves into your hostage of choice, forever making sure that I'm the One suffering this HELL that you hold throughout My Life.
But I'll be truelly damned as you also react to those inclinations of your's feeling abliged to showering that unfortunate ability of saturating an essence of Pure Kaos within My Own World. And sure-nough it "IS" all mixed with a spirited being of such an emotional murderous nature.
Oh, I can't see just why you will NOT let me be from that soul of PainFilled saturations you DO bare ! ! Those countless delusions that tend to burst at the seams of your HurtFull spirit does ever so completely blind My consciousness of what's actually taking place all around within My Own moving World. And, ....of what type of Reality that's Genuinely filling up inside of Me???--->>"I'm perfectly ~Blind~Deaf,-N-DumbFounded~to while you Nonchalantly inflict such hopeless cruelties!"
I can't seem to help but to give in as I'm just spewing a few decisive actions deeply into this willing, desecrated flesh of mine alone, for ever more plagueing My desolate bodice with infected injuries of such suicidal nature at hand. Why and the HELL will this come right out of the center of that crude Kaos you activate with humorous jeers against My Soul??!!! And thru all of this I actually make My World your truthful victom, your undieing hostage, your butchery of cold heartedness, ....all of My Life Journey's circumstances.
You are that non-existant witness to My slow-burning Death. Infinitely have you sealed your illusion's mysteries from Me and this World I have to live within and throughout unbaringly embracing My PainFilled existance on this foreign Planet of NightMares.
My incalculable distroying acts upon My inanimate flesh, so easily turning to gore, has destined names of pergatory to hold within. Their names are such the Abyss of an engraving into the core of this Soul you victomize so anxiously....
--> "Borderline Personality Disorder"
--> "Bipolar Affective Disorder"
--> "Post Traumatic Stress Disorder"
and the ever infamous:
--> "Dissociative Identity Disorder"
Well, You Hard-Ass of a diseased World, for now on I will NOT give-in to that sick twisted game you spit-out into My mind's strife of a survival ! I shall OverCome this disgusting Life with mere words that do expell straight from My Soul's emotional despare....
>>> "I Must Live On ! And I "WILL" Live On ! ! You just wait and SEE ! ! !"
Now, Thoroughly A Life Of:
Mary-Ellen Matthews
Mary-EllenMatthews/CopyRight2002
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