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Date Posted: 14:33:39 07/13/04 Tue
Author: Amber
Subject: If I could say what I wanted to say....

The final week had gone by too quickly... she was all packed and had said all her goodbyes and tomorrow they would be flying 8 hours to Italy. And she was terrified of planes. She'd promised Ky they could spend the last night here... so she was here with all there bags, ready for tomorrow. She tugs a few in while Dante went to get the rest, trying not to look to hard at ehr son who was putting on a brave face.

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He was bogged down with bags as he made his way up the stairs - it wasn't the wisest thing to live on the third floor and ever ever ever travel. He huffed a little as he dropped the bags carefully inside the door. "That's the last of them, I think." (NT) -- Dante, 14:58:20 07/13/04 Tue
She offered him a slight grin as Ky ran off to his room to make sure he had everything he wanted out of there "Thanks for this Dante..." (NT) -- Amber, 15:07:25 07/13/04 Tue
He shook his head. "No need to thank me - what else would i have done? Besides, I want the two of you here." (NT) -- Dante, 15:11:15 07/13/04 Tue
She watches him easily, a smile flickering over her lips. He had treated them all to dinner before hand... and it was about time Ky was heading for bed. "But still.. thanks... I'm gonna go get him ready... you wanna tuck him in later?" (NT) -- Amber, 15:16:18 07/13/04 Tue
He watched her for a moment - he'd done his best to smile and to be sociable, but still, all he felt like doing was crawling under the bed. "Sure, I'm just gonna tidy up here a bit." (NT) -- Dante, 05:07:58 07/14/04 Wed
She nods gently and wander after Ky to his room, getting him ready for bed and talkign to him for a while while she waited for Dante to come through. (NT) -- Amber, 05:10:34 07/14/04 Wed
He stacked their cases in an empty corner and picked up a couple of things that had fallen to the floor in the confusion of getting everything in here. He was sinking, or his heart was anyways, but the rest of him felt the same way - like he didn't know how he was going to keep going after this. Finally, he wandered into the bedroom, and offered the two of them a smile. (NT) -- Dante, 05:15:56 07/14/04 Wed
She smiles in return and bends over her son to drop a kiss to his forhead "Love you bubs... see you in the morning" She stood quietly and offered Dante as strong a smile as she could manage , though her heart was breaking. She closed the door behind her and went to open the bottle of wine they had picked up on the way home, pouring out a couple of glasses, taking one for herself, swallowing back tears as she took a mouthful. (NT) -- Amber, 05:24:23 07/14/04 Wed
He chewed his lip idly, but didn't take any of his wine - the last night he'd tuck in his son in a long time. He let out a long breath. "This is torture, Amber." It was the most he would say though - he didn't want her feeling guilty. (NT) -- Dante, 05:26:23 07/14/04 Wed
She glanced up as he returned from their sons room, biting her lips together softly and nodding, tears bright in her dark eyes. It was just as hard for her. (NT) -- AMber, 05:28:34 07/14/04 Wed
He frowned at her tears and set his glass aside, pulling her, whether she wanted to be or not, into his arms for a warm hug. "Hey, we've done this before." Of course, before it had been because they hated each other... (NT) -- Dante, 06:40:56 07/14/04 Wed
Her arms snaked up around his neck, holding him tightly , her face burried in his neck, taking in his never forgotten scent, fingers curling into his shirt gently (NT) -- Amber, 06:46:17 07/14/04 Wed
One hand rubbed lightly against her back as he let out a long breath of his own, murmuring softly to her. (NT) -- Dante (Your mailbox is full and I cant send you anything), 06:48:01 07/14/04 Wed
She dipped her face gently, her forhead brushing his jaw gently, swallowing softly at his murmering, trying to still the feelings rising inside her (NT) -- Amber, 06:54:53 07/14/04 Wed
- (NT) -- (i know...sucks), 06:55:11 07/14/04 Wed
He dipped his face to brush his cheek against hers, still holding her tightly. "We'll be alright... this is the opportunity of a lifetime, you'd be a fool not to go." Or that's what he kept telling himself anyways, to justify it. (NT) -- Dante (Well empty it out so I can email you!), 06:57:42 07/14/04 Wed
She nodded slightly, opening her dark gaze to him with a soft breath, ,biting her lip softly, murmering gently "I'll miss you so much..." (NT) -- Amber, 07:00:25 07/14/04 Wed
- - (NT) -- (i have now- keep forgetting to message whgile i post, 07:00:47 07/14/04 Wed
He swallowed, and gave her a more insistent squeeze, resting his lips against her hair easily. The familliar scent of her clung to his nostrils - he couldn't imagine what it would be like without it. "And I'll miss you too.." (NT) -- Dante, 07:02:28 07/14/04 Wed
She tips her face up slightly, watching him gently, fingers curling softly at his neck, voice soft "I never wanted to hurt you Dante... " Not now... and not all those years ago when she had cheated on him... she had regretted it every second of every day from that day to this. (NT) -- Amber, 07:10:38 07/14/04 Wed
He shook his head and swallowed hard, letting a long breath out through his nose. "There's not time for apologies and what ifs... what's in the past is in the past.." (NT) -- Dante, 07:13:36 07/14/04 Wed
Her hands moved to cup his face with the softness she was blessed with, struggling with her emotions and her feelings, gaze playing over his features (NT) -- Amber, 07:16:54 07/14/04 Wed
He closed his eyes and his jaw tightened a little bit, his lips pressed into a thin line like if he let go, if he just let himself go, he'd cry too. "We had such a good chance to start over new.." (NT) -- Dante (shift starting soon, sounds busy :P), 07:20:08 07/14/04 Wed
She rested her forhead against his, closing her own eyes softly, a breath escaping her parted lips, murmering gently "You think so?" (NT) -- Amber, 07:22:05 07/14/04 Wed
He shrugged a little bit but the touch of her smooth skin against his own was distracting. "Yes.. I guess I liked to think that maybe we would wake up from this whole divorce thing and realize that we still loved each other. I guess I was holding out for that." (NT) -- Dante, 07:23:18 07/14/04 Wed
She swallowed softly, her lips brushing the corner of his gently, tears shining in her eyes, whispering softly "I did wake up Dante...." (NT) -- Amber, 07:25:54 07/14/04 Wed
He was surprised to say the least, and one hand went to rest lightly on the small of her back, tugging her toward him. "Amber.." He frowned, but before he could put out another word, he brought his lips down on hers lightly. (NT) -- Dante, 07:27:21 07/14/04 Wed
She closed her eyes against the tears and return his kiss with a soft tenderness that was almost painful, her heart arching as her fingers dropped to his chest, curling in his shirtq (NT) -- Amber, 07:30:05 07/14/04 Wed
It was too late - they'd wasted time and now it was too late for them, he thought - at the same time that he regretted it, he was glad that they'd taken the time to build the fundamentals, but this was going to be hard - every second that he spent with her was only making this harder, making it hurt more. (NT) -- Dante, 07:45:54 07/14/04 Wed
Her tongue brushed his lips tenderly her arms snaking back up around his neck, finally feeling right at home back where she should be (NT) -- Amber, 07:49:42 07/14/04 Wed
He brushed a hand through her hair lightly, pulling her close- it was bittersweet, it was - knowing that she would be leaving in the morning, bright and early. (NT) -- Dante, 08:11:10 07/14/04 Wed
She sighed against his lips, fingers curling at the back of his neck tenderly, forsing herself not to think of the morning... (NT) -- Amber, 08:14:11 07/14/04 Wed
he finally pulled away - and that was almost physically painful to do. He shifted toward the couch, dropping back onto it and wiping a hand over his face. "We're just killing ourselves, you know." (NT) -- Dante, 08:43:15 07/14/04 Wed
She wrapped her arms around her waist , biting back tears, turning away from him and closing her eyes... she felt like she'd but everything of herself back intot his and he hadn't even tried... just pulled away. " I think maybe it's best I left... I'll come by in the morning to pick Ky up..." She grabbed her bag, setting her jaw lightly, making for the door. (NT) -- Amber, 04:18:04 07/15/04 Thu
She had taken it entirely the wrong way and he got up immediately and beat her to the door. "No... no, you're staying here." He frowned, dark lines forming in his cocoa skin. "No, I want you to stay." (NT) -- Dante, 04:36:36 07/15/04 Thu
She didn't meet his gaze, tears bright in her own, jaw set stubbornly "No you don't you just don't want to be the bad guy. You want to be able to say 'well at least I tried' but its fine... because I'm the one thats walking out on this, not you, so I'm the bad guy. You're off the hook" (NT) -- Amber, 04:43:00 07/15/04 Thu
"Amber.." He took her, holding her gently at the arms. She'd always been one to escalate something far more than it was. "You're not the bad guy. I don't blame you at all for taking this opportunity... it's just awful timing, and that's noone's fault." (NT) -- Dante, 04:51:18 07/15/04 Thu
She frowns at him, almost a glare but it wasn't fueled by the anger it used to be, more just hurt. (NT) -- Amber, 04:55:20 07/15/04 Thu
He reached up to brush the back of his knuckles gently against her cheek, against a tear that had escaped. He tipped his head a little bit, and shook his head. "We'll make this work across the ocean if we have to." (NT) -- Dan, 05:05:28 07/15/04 Thu
The frown eased, staring softly at him as she tipped her face to touch, voice quiet "Make what work?" She wasn't clueless as to what he meant but she wanted it out level, so she knew what exactly was going on between them (NT) -- Amber, 05:07:51 07/15/04 Thu
He gestured vaguely with his hand. "This.. the rebuilding of our relationship..." He didn't know if her feelings would stick when she got halfway across the world, but he damn well didn't want to cut anything off yet. "If you want to hold off on a romantic relationship while you're over there, at least a friendship, and if you don't, we'll work something out." (NT) -- Dante, 05:10:38 07/15/04 Thu
She swallows softly and nods, feeling seventeen again, feeling awkward, hopeful, broken and lost all in one. (NT) -- Amber, 05:13:31 07/15/04 Thu
"Come here." He tugged her into his arms and held her tightly, pressing his face gently against her hair to take in the scent of her, slowly inching her back into the apartment. (NT) -- Dante, 05:14:47 07/15/04 Thu
She let him lead her, though sahe wasn't too sure on how good an idea it was for her to stay, if he felt that way. She was reluctant in returning any kind of contact , once burnt and all that. (NT) -- Amber, 05:19:24 07/15/04 Thu
He leaned back a little to look at her, brushing his fingers through her hair. "Now.. if you don't want to spend the night, you don't have to, but I don't want you to run out of here angry is all." (NT) -- Dante, 05:24:18 07/15/04 Thu
She sighs a touch, gaze dropping, pursing her lips slightly "I'm not angry.." She was just hurt and a little embarrased. (NT) -- Amber, 05:26:26 07/15/04 Thu
"Then what's this all about?" So noone could claim he had much for intuition, but he tried. He tipped her chin up a little bit, his fingers resting against her soft skin lightly. (NT) -- Dante, 14:13:44 07/15/04 Thu
She shrugged softly, brow furrowed, taking her jaw from his hold gently "Forget it... " she wasn't going to spell it out... or draw attention to it (NT) -- Amber, 14:21:07 07/15/04 Thu
Maybe that was what had destroyed their relationship to begin with - the fact that he just didn't know sometimes, that he couldn't read her mind. He was starting to grow aggitated - this was exactly what happened to them the first time around. "No." (NT) -- Dante, 14:22:44 07/15/04 Thu
She was just too stubborn to admit her hurt, like she always had been. Talking about her feelings and problems was an issue, as she she stared at him with her large dark eyes she realised ... "This was why..." (NT) -- aMBER, 14:32:50 07/15/04 Thu
His brow wrinkled - he was beginning to think maybe this wasn't meant to be, that their bodies and hormones were just telling them things right now because they didn't want to be alone, and they were panicking. "What?" He was too confused. (NT) -- Dante, 14:43:55 07/15/04 Thu
"Why we argued all the time... I didn't tell you what was going on and you couldn't figure it out..." She glances away, folding her arms around herself.. this had to stop ... being so proud and stubborn.... "I wasn't angry... I was just hurt... and that counts for pretty much every other arguement we;ve had too..." (NT) -- Amber, 14:46:41 07/15/04 Thu
He pursed his lips, and continued to frown a little - that was exactly it, he hadn't been able to put his finger on it. "I want you to share everything about how you're feeling... not leave me in the dark." (NT) -- Dante, 14:48:16 07/15/04 Thu
She chews on her lips, letting out a long breath, watching him quietly a moment (NT) -- Amber, 14:59:17 07/15/04 Thu
He flopped down onto the couch, wiping his hands over his eyes. "So tell me, Amber.. tell me what's going on and what you're feeling right now and what you want to do about this, so that I can know.. and so that I can do what I can to make this work." (NT) -- Dant, 15:04:17 07/15/04 Thu
After a moments hesitation she went to join him, settling almost nervously beside him, staring at the floor before glancing to him gently "I told you what I'm feeling" (NT) -- Amber, 15:16:26 07/15/04 Thu
He turned to face her, not touching her quite yet. "You want to keep trying with this then?" (NT) -- Dante, 17:22:05 07/15/04 Thu
She lifted her gaze to his, lips pursed softly as she shrugged, her whole hearted wanted to but he common sense told her different (NT) -- Amber, 16:51:40 07/18/04 Sun
he was insistent that they should both be totally certain about it before they put Ky and themselves through anything else, and he reached out for her, brushing his fingers across her face lightly, though he didn't have much to say. (NT) -- Dante, 17:00:34 07/18/04 Sun
She sighs gently and closes her eyes, resting her forehead against his gently, her fingers curling around his wrist tenderly... she dind't know what to say or what they should do for the best (NT) -- Amber, 17:08:24 07/18/04 Sun
He pressed his palm against her cheek, cupping it lightly, and then brought his lips to hers easily, his other hand moving to rest on her hip. As soon as they touched, his mind immediately moved from the future to the present, the here and now. (NT) -- Dante, 17:10:14 07/18/04 Sun
A soft sound escaped her lips at the taste and feel of him, her hands lifting up to his neck softly, almost desperately, ignoring her common sense (NT) -- Amber, 17:18:23 07/18/04 Sun
He shifted her right into his lap with little effort at all, his hands moving down across her back easily. He sighed easily against her lips as he reaquainted herself with him. (NT) -- Dante, 17:22:35 07/18/04 Sun
She sat in his lap easily, an arm loosely winding around his neck and her lips lingured on his before kissing him more intensely (NT) -- Amber, 17:29:36 07/18/04 Sun
His fingers played along her spine gently, pushing the hem of her shirt up, so he could slide his fingers along her mahogany skin, lips dipping down to catch her neck easily. (NT) -- Dante, 09:14:21 07/21/04 Wed
She sucked gently on his lower lip as her own fingers drop tot he hem of his shirt, drawing it up over his head easily, tossing it aside, her fingers trailing down his muscled sides (NT) -- Amber, 09:26:50 07/21/04 Wed
He shifted her onto her back gently, moving over her, a hand coming up her side gently, his lips never leaving hers. Any thoughts about consequences and that sort of thing were ignored - they both deserved this tonight, no matter what happened in the morning. (NT) -- Dante, 03:22:05 07/22/04 Thu
Those thoughts were as from from her mind as his, and her lithe form pressed to him at his touch, fingers curling at his sides as she kissed him hungrily, a soft, quiet sound escaping her lips (NT) -- Amber, 03:25:48 07/22/04 Thu
He stopped abruptly and got off of her, "This isn't right at all.." And he took her hand, pulling her up off of the couch and heading down the hall toward the bedroom. (NT) -- Dante, 03:31:55 07/22/04 Thu
She couldn't help but smirk slightly, following him along and closing the door quietly behind her, so many memories flooding her mind at the sight of this room, her hands resting on his sides, brushing a kiss to his shoulder and shifting to the bed (NT) -- Amber, 03:37:46 07/22/04 Thu
He again moved over her, but not before he'd peeled her own shirt over her head, his lips finding the soft skin where her collarbone was, leaving a trail of damp kisses there and lower, until he made his way to her navel. (NT) -- Dante, 03:40:38 07/22/04 Thu
She bit her lip slightly, her hands shifting to run over his muscled back, closing her eyes with a soft sound (NT) -- Amber, 03:42:41 07/22/04 Thu
His lips worked their way back up, pausing briefly at her throat to suck and nip lightly at the throbbing pulse there, his warm breath tickling over the damp spots he'd left on her skin, and then he finally met her lips once more. (NT) -- Dante, 03:46:13 07/22/04 Thu
Her thoughts were blurred and intoxicated with him, with his taste and his smell, so missed and so desired now. One hand comes to curl around his cheek gently as she tipped her face to meet his kiss heatedly, the other dropping to the buckle of his pants, hot heavy breaths brushing his lips between kisses (NT) -- Amber, 03:49:37 07/22/04 Thu
He sighed restlessly, and continued to engage in something that would only hurt them in the morning. He buried his face in her neck for a brief moment, murmuring her name softly. (NT) -- Dante, 03:54:17 07/22/04 Thu
She swallowed softly, closing her dark eyes as she unfastened his jeans, lips brushing his ear tenderly as he ducked his head to her neck, murmering gently to him "I've thought about this so many times baby..." (NT) -- Amber, 03:58:42 07/22/04 Thu
He knew exactly what it was like - because since she'd resurfaced in his life, all he could think about was a happy family scenario... His hands slid down her sides, to her hips and to the waistband of her own pants. "Mhm.." (NT) -- Dante, 04:16:44 07/22/04 Thu
her hips brush his at his touch, responsive to him as always, easing the jeans over his hips slowly, lips trailing down his neck lightly (NT) -- AMber, 04:21:20 07/22/04 Thu
He set to work at her own pants, his lips once again meeting hers with a renewed fervor, his breath becoming a little raggedy now - he needed her like he needed air to breathe, he knew. (NT) -- Dante, 04:24:29 07/22/04 Thu
She helps him remove them, an old familiar fluttering awakening in her stomach as she felt his skin against hers, drawing a soft breath and biting his lower lip gently , hands kneading slightly at his hips before removing his boxers without reservations (NT) -- Amber, 04:27:33 07/22/04 Thu
Any other scraps of cothing were discarded at this point as he shifted over her, hesitating for one moment as he covered her mouth with his, then moved into her, shifting slowly to reacquaint her with the feel of him. (NT) -- Dante, 04:30:43 07/22/04 Thu
Her brow furrows softly, a soft sound muffled into his kiss as her long legs ease up either side of him, lifting herself up against him and holding herself there a moment, dark eyes fixing on his with undoutful love and passion (NT) -- Amber, 04:33:18 07/22/04 Thu
He sighed again, his dark eyes sliding shut as the feel of her enveloped him, the familiar, addictive taste and touch of her. He rested still for a moment before finally, he began to move. (NT) -- Dante, 04:40:59 07/22/04 Thu
Her deep brown eyes closed gently as her heavy breaths met his lips, legs wrapping around him easily , her hands clutched at the muscled of his back, moving with him with blissful perfection, every touch and feeling once almost forgotten now alive again (NT) -- Amber, 04:44:42 07/22/04 Thu
Every part of him tingled as he moved with her, one hand sliding down to rest on her hip, the other supporting himself easily, his lips claimed hers, tugging gently on her lower lip. (NT) -- Dante, 04:49:05 07/22/04 Thu
She smiled a touch at that, fingers pressing on his muscles gently, snapping her teeth at his lips playfully, before kissing him again (NT) -- Amber, 04:53:22 07/22/04 Thu
Their joining was so gentle, so subtle, but he felt a pressing need growing in him and he shifted a little bit faster, rocking lightly against her, again nipping her lips lightly, the hand on her hip sliding up her thigh, words of soft encouragement coming from his lips. (NT) -- Dante, 05:00:46 07/22/04 Thu
Her head tilted back gently , lips parting gently as her eyes slid shut again, trying her hardest to remain quiet, soft sounds floting on her heavy breaths as she matched his pace and movements, her legs tightening around him (NT) -- Amber, 05:04:13 07/22/04 Thu
She had always been a perfect match for him and this was no different - He buried his face in her neck and sighed heavily, murmuring her name softly as he lingered dangerously close to his peak. (NT) -- Dante, 05:10:03 07/22/04 Thu
She bit her lip, hands trailing up his back to his broad muscled shoulders, fingers curling there, meeting his eyes move and murmering right back, her voice high and breathless, almost pleading with soft moans as he lifted her higher, drawing near to her peak (NT) -- Amber, 05:16:19 07/22/04 Thu
He groaned, and shuddered a little as he teetered on the brink, waiting for her to find her pleasure in all of this - he was determined to satisfy her before he let himself take anything out of this, and he pressed against her heavily, encouraging her. (NT) -- Dante, 05:19:56 07/22/04 Thu
Her teeth nip at his neck before she sucks gently , fingers pressed heavily at his muscles, clinging to him as a soft muffled cry was muffled against his hot skin, leg tightening to draw him deeper, hips bucking to his heavily and holding there a moment each time, finding her release with a shuddering breth, hips rocking softly with his as she did "I love you baby..." (NT) -- Amber, 05:23:58 07/22/04 Thu
He finally let himself go, losing himself completely in her, his face buried in her neck, nipping and sucking, leaving a bruise there - he shuddered again, and then had to do a double take at her words. He didn't hesitate too long though, and soon, "I love you too.." (NT) -- Dante, 05:29:46 07/22/04 Thu
She bit her lips softly as they stilled save for their heavily laboured breaths, her hand moving to cup his jaw tenderly, closing her eyes as her lips brush his shaved head, her legs easing from his hips to tangle with his (NT) -- Amber, 05:32:30 07/22/04 Thu