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Kyla
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Date Posted: 18:52:05 07/09/01 Mon
In reply to:
Cassie
's message, "Re: Hiding in the Absolute" on 18:07:02 07/09/01 Mon
I do not remember where I encountered this part of the Dharma. It was most likely in a phone bridge, probably the Second Life phone bridge. I'm pretty sure that in Incarnation of Mutuality, Saniel talks about how until these initial predilections, which we all have, are balanced in Mutuality, by means of Mutuality and the process of the Shakedown, we are still at the effect of an addictive view, and addictive experience, of Reality, and therefore our expression of Being is colored and to some extent skewed by that predilection. I will try to find it in the text.
My understanding of it at this point is that, for example, the Down point on that triangle, those of us with that predisposition have a kind of excessive bittersweet pleasure we take in plunging into the Shadow side of existence, the dark and the underside of human experience, and we in a basic way hold that set of qualities of experience as more real and valid than qualities of the other two Gateways. A "Mutualite" is so involved in always processing with others that it fills all the space, or most of it, and seems to that person to be inherently more real than either the plunging or the ascending movements of Being as Identity. The "Waker" is familiar to us all as that one who is so in love with the experience of transcendence that everything in some fundamental way seems at best secondary to it. Each of us initially tends to lean in one of those three directions more than the other two. And even after Awakening, the Governing Sentimentalities that created that original predisposition continue to varying extents to operate in us and we are still in a basic way addicted to them as "the way it IS." And so the coming to balance of that initial predisposition is a big part of the process of the Shakedown and that coming to balance depends upon the alchemy of Mutuality. Because the hold these predispositions have on us is an addictive hold that can only be clarified with the mirroring of Awakened and Awakening others, and THEIR history or presence in one of those predispositions.....so eventually in that fire the distortions burn clean.
That's the best I can do. I am a "Downer" with a secondary leaning toward being a "Mutualite." This is why Saniel's insistence with me that my only hope was to Realize Consciousness remains so special to me. I could never have heard that from anyone else, you see, because only Saniel was clearly holding all three Gateways, although they weren't called that at the time. I knew his committment to Down and to Mutuality were real! So the notion of Realizing Consciousness took on a whole new meaning for me.
I don't want to hide in the Absolute either. But I have ALWAYS not wanted that, ever since I first heard of it! Now, I am feeling I would like to enter into that experience, in order to become filled with that Emptiness and Know it intimately and not just by reputation. I am no longer in the position where I feel threatened by the existence of such an experience because I know it does not have the power to invalidate the other directions in which I have invested my life and my integrity. Before I encountered Saniel, the idea of becoming absorbed in the Absolute always came with the price tag of making everything I most deeply valued wrong! (If only subtly so.) Red flags all around that notion! My wanting to encounter it now is a big change for me.
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