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Date Posted: 12:01:53 02/25/01 Sun
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Hi, My name is Cherie Dawson. I`m 16 years old and go to Compton H.S. My mama say I`m now officially grown because I got Imani. I know it`s like dat becuz dats my baby. No one will ever be able to take her away from me. NO ONE. I mean, she got everythang of mine: fingers, legs, slanted eyes, nose, lips, and skin color. Yea, she high yella like her mama. Only thing she probably DONT have of mine is my hair, which is tangled and thick, hers all pretty, thick, and curly. Which she probably got from her damn daddy. Sometimes, I get scared becuz when I see her, its like Im lookin at my own reflection in da mirror. Mama even treats me like Im grown tellin me she dont wanna hear no baby cryin all in her ear. But see, Anita got it easy. She gettin to have twins and her momma supportin her like she runnin da L.A marathon. 110% but my mama wanna act like she aint even know me but you know wut? Dats all gravy.
Lemme tell you about my best friend, Anita. She barely 7 months but lookin like she got a big azz beachball in her stomach. I remember when we was little we used to be puttin stuff under our shirts tryna act like mamas, and look where we are now. Nita and me be in da same class at school. We got a class about motherhood, our teacha name is Ms. Robinson. Her breath be on hum cuz I be wantin to give her some gum. I mean it. But Nita been dere wit from day 1, when I first thought I was pregnant. Dis how it went down:
One Friday night, My cousins J`niece and Nafeesa called and asked if I wanted to go to da skating rink wit em. I said yea and dey said call and ask Nita if she wanted to go. She couldn`t becuz her mama picked up da tele and told me she was on punishment just when Nita did. It was funny cuz dey started arguin on da tele. I was dyin and told her I call her later. I got dressed and and left wit my cuzzins in dere Lexus thinkin dey was tight. We drove out all da way to Cerritos at Skate Depo. Dats when we went in and Niece and Ni Ni left me to skate cuz dey was skatin too. I met dis fine boy, I refuse to say his name, but he had caramel skin, curly, pretty hair, green eyes, and nicely built. We decided to go outside and talk becuz da music was boomin all in our ears and ish. We went to da back but he kept walkin I was wonderin where he was goin but I followed him anyway. We was sittin on top of a hill where we could see da lights just talkin. He smelled like smoke and all of a sudden he started kissin me. Pushed me down and got on top of me rippin my sweats, but I helped em becuz i didnt wanna go home wit ripped sweats and mama be on my case. He forced his way inside me and I let everything happen. When he was done, he say Tell everybody you stupid bitc* I dont care and he left.
When I got home I jumped in da shower and went straight to bed. Mama didnt even wonder wut was wrong. Usually she would hear me bumpin my Memphis Bleek but not tonite.
I will never forget dat nite. A month later I was waitin for my 3rd period but it never came. Dats when I started worryin. Nita and me was just talkin in Mr. Williams Eng. class and I told her. Anita, I think Im pregnant. At first, she act like she aint hear me right and I told her again. She told me dat after school we would go to da store and get a test. And we did dat. It was positive. From den on, I had to figure out a way to tell mama.
Months passed, my tummy was big, everything got bigger. Every morning I would always wonder how I would tell mama, until one day she found out on her own. I was gettin ready for Ms. Robinson class and she barged in my room like it was hers!!! Mama looked at me and started takin off. Only thing I could do was protect my baby. She socked me in da chest. I fell on my bed turned over and protected my stomach. All she did was look at me, Your`e a disgrace. and mama left da room.
In October, Imani was born. Just 5 days after my b day. Mine is Oct 2. and her was Oct 7. We celebrated our b days at da same time. I remember da day I shook Imani cuz she made me mad. Ms. Robinson told me not to beccuz she could get Shaken Baby Syndrone. I couldve killed her. We was goin to a b day party Nita and me homegirl kid was havin and Imani was cooperatin cuz she was sick. She started cryin and I kissed her sayin I was sorry and I sung her to sleep.
Every once in a while dey be shootin cuz dey want ou next door neighbor Ms. Jenkin`s son, Dragonfly. Everybody knows he sells drugs.
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