Author: Sunny [ Edit | View ]
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Date Posted: 05:16:46 01/04/04 Sun
Wow, you guys! I just listened to part of the Christmas Eve show that can be downloaded from the site! FOOD...Roy speaks anew about it & I encourage everyone to listen to that show. I didn't even finish the hour show, but will do so, of course. I just had to share about it, it is wonderful.
He also fascinated me, once again, & for the umpteenth time, he gave me some validation for things I have suspectecd and wondered about. I have felt so unworthy to post many of my insights because I felt like a hypocrite at times, for I open my mouth, or most often I type online, and things flow and do NOT think I am bragging, PLEASE...but sometimes things flow so beautifully that I am amazed when I read my own words the next day. I know, I know...to some I must sound proud but PLEASE...give me the benefit of the doubt on this.
My point is that I often have written insights and thoughts of mine that were about things I have not mastered, about things that may seem no big deal, but that I can't yet DO...yet I understand them very well, and see so clearly on many things. I then have felt like I was a breathing contradiction that I share with others about them, when I am not yet DOING them. Well, this was the first time I have personally heard Roy say that he has written many things that he couldn't yet DO. He said it better than I am, now. What a relief it was to hear him say it, in context, and understand that I am not a hypocrite for seeing things, and sharing them when I have not succeeded in them yet.
Roy has apparently just recently, in the past month, solved his own personal salvation puzzle piece concerning food. That is how it sounds. He says he has lost about thirty pounds this past month, without trying to lose weight, of course, it sounds like he has finally become totally objective to his own appetites, and finally has seen how little food he needs, and can function, without. This is a big deal because Roy has never apologized for liking food, and for the way his family appreciates good food, etc. Roy has never been a food tyrant, either, and allowed his family their appetites and weaknesses in this area, so it sounds.
I just can't do his words justice about food. If any of you have not listened to the show that is available online now, DO SO! what a treat it is. I have listened to this man since around '77, and just tonight, on this one show, something clicked about food. Nope, I don't mean I will have overcome this LAST piece of my own salvation yet...it simply means I see more than I ever did before, about what food is and is not, and about how we utterly CANNOT control our own appetites, nor know or see how much we individually need. The food thing will be solved after just about, if not, EVERY resentment and subtle wrong feeling is dealt with properly, first. Anyone that truly isn't just about walking on water spiritually, and claims to not have a problem with food...is probably a smoker, or has some other vice, or is possibly dishonest.
I am talking too much, I think, and it is midnight here, I best get some sleep. I hope to hear from some of you soon, on this.
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