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Date Posted: 11:07:39 06/07/06 Wed
Author: Justin "Skeeter" Mallenock
Subject:

Well I've heard there was a secret chord
That David played, and he pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do you?
Well, it goes like this, the fourth, the fifth
The minor fall and the major lift
The baffled king composing hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah

Well your faith was strong, but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty in the moonlight overthrew you
And she tied you to her kitchen chair
And she broke your throne, and she cut your hair
And from your lips you drew the hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah

He had made his way down to the lobby and was sitting at the end of the large, long, pine bar. A full beer was in front of him along with a half empty pitcher that had obviously recently been drained. His eyes were half closed, his fingers absently tapping against the wood as he let out a soft breath and his brow furrowed. He looked the typical heartbroke man who was drowning his troubles in his beer, though much more handsome them most. He was drawing more then one glance from people around him, men wondering if he was stable and women wondering if he was desperate. His hand occasionally lifted to run through his hair but even if it wasn't doing that it was never still. His ADD was sending his nerves into overdrive and he just couldn't sit still, no matter his drunken stupor. The opposite hand lifted, waving the barkeep over and informing him he would be needing another pitcher of beer as soon as possible.

Well baby I've been here before
I've seen this room and I've walked this floor, you know,
I used to live alone before I knew you
And I've seen your flag on the marble arch
And love is not a victory march
It's a cold, it's a broken hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah

He couldn't believe that she hadn't even once said thank you for coming for her. Hadn't once asked about anyone besides herself. She had been totally emersed in her and her problems but yet she was still to damn proud to ask for help before this got so out of hand. If she had just told them all what was going on she could have gotten help without ever having to shoot up herself, after that first hit they could have gotten her into rehab, it would have been easy to get her off of it. She wouldn't have probably even needed the rehab, they could have just gotten her some sort of pro-active drug to offset the affects and she would have been fine but no, she had been to damn selfish and self reliant to let anyone help her. Not to mention, there was now Courtney. Sweet, innocent, hopeful Courtney. She tried to put on such a front but it wasn't a bitter one like Gia had, it was just tough. She was a good agent and she knew it, that was damn attractive. She was so warm and soft in his bed, so willing to let him have control and care for her. So sweet about letting him coddle her when she was hurt and he loved that, he was a nuturer by nature, he just liked to coddle women but Gia hadn't wanted that, hadn't let him do that. Now he was going to hurt Courtney in the process because he was just as fucked up in the head as Gia was. God, why did his heart hurt so much? It was an actual physical pain and it was threatening to suffocate him.

Well there was a time when you let me know
What's really going on below
But now you never show that to me, do you?
I remember when I moved in you
And the Holy Dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah
Hallelujah, hallelujah

Maybe there is a God above
But all I've ever learned from love
Was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you
And it's not a cry that you hear at night
It's not somebody who's seen the light
It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah

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Inside -- Courtney, 12:02:36 06/07/06 Wed
- inside -- Justin, 12:12:37 06/07/06 Wed
  - Inside -- Courtney, 12:21:06 06/07/06 Wed
    - inside -- Justin, 12:33:02 06/07/06 Wed
      - Inside -- Courtney, 12:56:38 06/07/06 Wed
        inside -- Justin, 13:07:38 06/07/06 Wed
        Inside -- Courtney, 13:13:24 06/07/06 Wed
        inside -- Skeeter, 14:23:04 06/07/06 Wed
        Inside -- Courtney, 21:02:22 06/07/06 Wed
        inside -- Skeeter, 21:09:46 06/07/06 Wed
        Inside -- Courtney, 21:28:12 06/07/06 Wed
        inside -- Skeeter, 22:31:41 06/07/06 Wed
        Inside -- Courtney, 21:00:17 06/08/06 Thu
He looked over to her with concern as he headed up to the door, intent - even in his drunken state - on getting her tucked in and comfortable. "Do you need a pill or anything?" He slurred out, his brow furrowed as he managed to open the door and headed over to the nightstand, flipping on the dim lamp as he looked over to her. He had managed to not stumble over everything, just hitting the bed a couple of times on the way. A yawn escaped his own lips before he looked back to her again. "Do you want to take a shower before bed? Might make you feel better...I can start the bath for you.." He would give her the privacy she needed, he wouldn't force anything on her, he was more concerned with her being comfortable, warm and free of pain. Shifting a touch, he pulled off his shirt and tossed it over to the corner, he'd clean up in the morning before they all headed home...ah..home...a word never sounded so beautiful to him. (NT) -- Skeeter, 21:11:48 06/08/06 Thu
Inside -- Courtney, 21:26:07 06/08/06 Thu
- inside -- Skeeter, 21:36:41 06/08/06 Thu
  - Inside -- Courtney, 21:45:25 06/08/06 Thu
    - inside -- Skeeter, 22:01:54 06/08/06 Thu
      - Inside -- Courtney, 22:12:07 06/08/06 Thu
        inside -- Skeeter, 22:16:06 06/08/06 Thu
        Inside -- Courtney, 22:27:12 06/08/06 Thu
All he could do was hold her close, it wasn't fair to either of them what was going on but there wasn't a damn thing that he could do to change it and that infuriated him. He wanted to break something and comfort her all at the same time and it pissed him off that he couldn't really do either one. "Don't cry..please...don't cry Courtney." He nearly begged, his brow furrowed as he looked down at her. He just didn't want to hurt anyone else, he had already failed Gia and now he was hurting Courtney...he was just a useless human being apperantly. "Please...." He just didn't know what else to do with himself or her, he just needed her to not hurt because of him... (NT) -- Skeeter, 09:11:21 06/09/06 Fri
(She shook her head as she heard the begging tone to his voice, looking up at him through slightly reddened eyes, her expression sad and upset.) It's not your fault, Justin.. don't you ever think that. (She knew he blamed himself and now that she was crying she had a feeling he was only under the impression he had hurt her as well. She was hurt, yes, but not by him.. Gia had caused all of this and if anyone was to blame for what a heart felt it was her.) I knew what I was getting into and still I let this happen.. and Gia.. well.. she is the one that put you in the position you're in.. you can't blame yourself. (She closed her eyes, squeezing out a few more tears that had been welling up, taking a couple of deep breaths to gain control of herself before lowering her head to the pillow and merely staring at his shoulder there.) Ugh.. I came up here to comfort you when you were upset.. and here I am the one getting the comforting.. I'm sorry. (NT) -- Courtney, 09:39:28 06/09/06 Fri
He just shook his head, letting out a soft troubled breath before he pulled her gently into his arms, resting his cheek on the top of her head. He was tired and had a headache working it's way at his skull already and all he wanted was to just go to sleep but he had to make sure she was ok first. "Wanna go to sleep?" He questioned softly, brushing her hair back as he leaned down to press a kiss to her forehead again. She was so pretty, so sweet and he wanted to be able to coddle her, to take care of her and cherish her. "The sooner we go to sleep the sooner we'll wake up and it will be tomorrow and we'll be on our way home..." He wanted her to meet Bambi, wanted to see how she was when she wasn't on a mission, he just wanted to be home. (NT) -- Skeeter, 10:04:10 06/09/06 Fri
Inside -- Courtney, 10:21:29 06/09/06 Fri
- He nodded a little, leaning down to press a kiss to her cheek before he shifted and laid on his back, allowing her to get comfortable anyway she pleased. Once she was settled, he ran his hand up her back and then rested his other one behind his head. "Goodnight Courtney.." He murmured just as softly as he closed his eyes and yawned softly. "Sleep well." He wanted her to get some rest so she would be ok to deal with Gia the next day and he needed to do the same. With a soft sigh, he let himself drift off into a slow slumber, he needed to get awake as soon as possible because he needed to be able to be in control of the rest of this mission and he needed to be able to give Remy a full report the next day... (NT) -- Justin, 11:08:09 06/09/06 Fri
(She shifted as he did, watching as he got himself comfortable before curling up against his side and resting her head in the crook of his shoulder. She stifled a yawn after he did, moaning a little as she exhaled, she was sore and tired and wanted to go home. Tomorrow was going to be a rough day, a long day.. and she wasn't looking forward to the debriefing.. there had been some big mistakes and a couple of the team members could be court marshalled.. would have been if not for Remy being their commander. Within moments of her head touching his shoulder and her hand resting on his side, she had nodded off and was deeply asleep.. it would take a nuclear bomb to wake her once she was out.) (NT) -- Courtney, 11:17:08 06/09/06 Fri