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• No matter where my reckless soul takes me, baby, you save me -- Bianca, 09:53:54 09/25/06 Mon

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• He closed his eyes at the sound of her voice - like until he heard the confirmation he hadn't actually expected her to be there - and inhaled a slow breath before reaching out to turn the handle. He was feeling a little apprehensive - but paused a moment to appreciate the fact that at least he was feeling something - and still couldn't help but smile a little at the familiarity of her apartment. It even smelled like Bianca. Clearing his throat softly, he dropped his bag and then carefully set his guitar down leaning against the wall before calling out to her in a low, soft voice, shoving his hands in to the pocket of his jeans, and venturing in to find her. "You should really keep that door locked..." (NT) -- Gavin, 10:00:06 09/25/06 Mon

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• A part of her wanted to ask him why...how...he could have just left her like that with no warning, another part of her wanted to tell him how proud she was of him and yet another part of her wanted to just throw herself into his arms. She was kind of debating which she wanted to do verse what she should do and because of that internal discussion going on it was several long moments before she reacted at all to his voice behind her. Achilles didn't get up from where he was laying but he didn't manage a semi-excited 'woof' for a greeting and his tail thumped the floor a few times which was more activity than the pup usually indulged in. "I'm to lazy to get up everytime someone wants to come in." She stated, slowly shifting to stand up, turning around to finally look at him. He looked good, so much better than he had when he left.... (NT) -- Bianca, 10:04:32 09/25/06 Mon

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• "You'd be wishing you weren't so lazy the first time a psycho-stalker let himself in for a visit..." He muttered half-heartedly because his warnings had always been lost on her - there were just some things that she always, quietly, stubbornly did her own way. He smiled a little, just briefly at Achilles - the pup had grown quite a lot. When she finally got to her feet and was standing in front of him, he exhaled slowly and stood up a little straighter, trying desperately but unsuccessfully to read her thoughts. "Hey sweetie..." He noted the few pounds she had dropped - he always noticed the slightest fluctuations - but otherwise she looked okay, just as beautiful as ever, and he could only hope that it was maybe stress and not relapse that effected her. (NT) -- Gavin, 10:13:29 09/25/06 Mon

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• "Hey..." Her eyes took him in slowly, noting the way his face had filled out so he didn't have that sunken in look anymore and he just looked healthier over all, even his hair was shinier than it had been, it had gotten to look a little lack luster from the drug use and lack of nutrients and all that. "You look good..." She was still hanging back from throwing herself into his arms, she was a little hurt over not hearing from him though she wasn't in the least bit mad. He had to do what he felt he needed to do but that didn't mean it didn't cause a little bit of hurt in her. Her tongue peeked out to run across her lips, looking down at Achilles as the dog groaned audiably and stood up slowly, as if it was a great effort, only to walk the foot and a half to Gavin and plop down on his feet. (NT) -- Bianca, 10:17:31 09/25/06 Mon

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• "Thanks... So do you..." He murmured gently because even if she had lost a couple of pounds, she always looked amazing to him. As Achilles dragged himself over to say hello, his gaze dropped and a hand fell to pet the pup's head for a moment. Finally, he gave in to his urges and looked back to her, and reached out to hook one arm around her neck and gently tug her to his chest. "I'm sorry... I know that doesn't make it better, but I am sorry - not for leaving, but for how I did it made you feel..." He whispered the words directly in to her ear, his eyes lightly shut and his lips lightly brushing her lobe as he spoke. He took the opportunity in that moment of closeness to softly inhale a deep breath of her sweet, familiar scent. (NT) -- Gavin, 10:25:32 09/25/06 Mon

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• Previously, in their relationship, it wouldn't have hurt the way it did if he just up and left like that but now that she felt like they were back in love with each other, it really had hurt. She hesitated for only a brief second before she hugged him in return, her arms wrapping around his waist as she let out a slow breath and tipped her head to rest on his chest. She didn't know what to say to his apology, she wasn't sure it was exactly ok so she didn't want to say that, instead she decided to just not say anything as she pulled back from him. "Have you talked to the boys?" She questioned, knowing that his bandmates had been worried about him, as had the record company and all those people who made their money off of his band. (NT) -- Bianca, 10:30:36 09/25/06 Mon

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• As she wrapped her arms around him, a low sound caught in his throat and he just hugged her tightly for as long as she would let him. When she pulled back, he reluctantly let her, and one arm fell back to his side, fingers tucking into his pocket again, but his free hand pushed back her hair and then rested against the side of her face, his eyes slowly opening again. "Yeah..." He had spent two days with them after getting out - he had waited for a record label exec to fly in from the east coast for a meeting because he just wanted to get it over with and didn't want to get home just to have to fly back to LA to get things sorted out. He didn't bother mentioning that though, because he was more interested in her than chatting about the boys. "I missed you..." (NT) -- Gavin, 10:37:50 09/25/06 Mon

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• It was hard maintaining a little bit of distance from him when he looked like he so desperately just wanted to be near her. Her lip tucked between her teeth at his touch on her face and then at his words before she sighed softly and stepped back into his arms, ducking her head underneath his chin as she wrapped her arms around him once more, holding onto him tightly as she closed her eyes. She had missed him desperately, a part of her wondering if he was going to come back to her or if he was just done with her now. He would be clean and maybe he would want a fresh start from his past....which included her. She bit her lip a little as she held onto him quietly, just wanting to be close to him. (NT) -- Bianca, 10:43:00 09/25/06 Mon

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• He sighed quietly again and his arms slipped tightly around her once more, his chin resting on top of his head and his eyes rolling up to the ceiling - many days, it had been thoughts of her and wanting to do right by her that had been part of his motivation not to give in, and he had a feeling that those days would never be completely gone. A hand curled around the base of her neck beneath her hair as he held her tightly - just perfectly content for the long moment to enjoy and appreciate the feeling of her back in his arms. Things didn't seemed all okay, but she wasn't yelling and screaming and throwing things, and she wasn't really even resisting him - so he figured that was a good thing.. (NT) -- Gavin, 10:52:49 09/25/06 Mon

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• She bit her lip a little before she drew back once more and cleared her throat, running her hand through her hair and brushing it back from her face as she cleared her throat. "You'll have to call Em and Ethan and tell them you are back...Emily's pregnant, they are actually getting really excited about it. I think it kind of shook up Ethan's world a touch but...he's getting on board with the whole thing." She wasn't sure if she was making small talk or just trying to fill him on what was going on. Either way, it was kind of a nervous chattering. "I'm supposed to be going to London in ten days for a runway show, haven't done one of those in a long time, it's been all photoshoots since I got back to work but a runway thing will be fun..." (NT) -- Bianca, 11:06:39 09/25/06 Mon

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• He had talked to Ethan twice - to find out how Bianca was - so kind of knew the jist of what was going on, but he liked hearing it from her anything and nodded a little. "I'll call maybe tomorrow..." Right then, for real, he was much more interested in her and what was going on in her world than thinking about their friends or anything else. He had missed her the most and was here because of her. He smiled a little at the mention of her show, and his head tipped back a little as he gazed down at her. "That's exciting, love. Can I come?" He didn't want to be apart from her now, not so soon after getting back - and he could afford to take some more time away from the band. They were really just planning promotional stuff right now anyway. (NT) -- Gavin, 11:15:25 09/25/06 Mon

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• He never really asked to go on these sort of trips with her and so she looked a little surprised but then nodded immediatly. "Yeah, yeah, of course you can..." She murmured, a little confused and a little bit surprised at his request but pleased none the less. If she knew he had talked to Ethan, her hurt would amplify by ten. It was hard to handle thinking that he hadn't talked to anyone but if she knew he just hadn't talked to her...well that would be a painful thing to find out, to say the least. "Are you hungry? I can get you something to eat...there is not a whole lot in the kitchen, I haven't gone shopping in awhile but I think I could find something..." (NT) -- Bianca, 11:19:45 09/25/06 Mon

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• The idea of going away somewhere with her, even if she had to work, was appealing at that moment - besides, he really didn't mind watching her work. You could twist his arm into it... He smiled a little and cupped her face in his hands, finally lowering his lips to catch hers for a brief but sweet and warm kiss, his smile lingering through it. "Yeah, sure. I'm not starving but I could go for a snack, for sure. You know airplane food..." His thumbs softly stroked her cheeks before both hands ran slowly down her arms and then back up to her shoulders again - his hands were rough and calloused from years of playing instruments, but his touch was gentle and loving. He just wanted to touch her in any and every way at that moment. (NT) -- Gavin, 11:28:54 09/25/06 Mon

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• She couldn't help the soft sound that escaped her lips when he finally took the opportunity to kiss her, her hands coming up to run over his hair. She liked his hair long - years ago she had tried to get him to cut into a more fashionable style but these days, now, she loved it. She loved running her fingers through it, she loved fisting her hands in it, she loved the way it felt against her skin...she just really liked it, to say the least. When he pulled back from the kiss to speak, she just nodded mutely, not wanting to leave his embrace. Suddenly, without warning, tears welled up in her eyes and she looked away, blinking rapidly to dispell them before they had a chance to fall. (NT) -- Bianca, 11:37:14 09/25/06 Mon

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• Her response to his kiss was what he had been hoping for - he hated that she had had to be here missing him, but he was also relieved to feel like she had missed him. At her nod and her reluctance to leave him, he gently pulled her closer again - he could wait on the food as long as she was happy to be in his arms. Though she tried to conceal the tears the shined in her eyes, he caught the look anything, and so brushed light kisses just beneath her lashes on either side of her face before catching her lips again - for another soft kiss, but a slow lingering one this time because he would have been content at that moment to spend the next two weeks just holding her and kissing her. (NT) -- Gavin, 11:46:22 09/25/06 Mon

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• She returned the kiss just as slowly, unable to help the way the tears spilled over her lashes and splashed across their lips, making their kiss salty. She just had been so worried, confused, unsure and hurt and now he was back and he was better and she was just overwhelmed with it all. It was times like this she envied Emily who just seemed to always have such a level head about things, seemed to know how to handle everything that occured in her life where as Bianca just felt like a basket case half the time. She tried not to be obvious about the fact that she was crying but it was hard when the evidence of it was coursing down her cheeks. (NT) -- Gavin, 11:50:33 09/25/06 Mon

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• There was no way that he wouldn't have noticed her tears, but he didn't mention it - partly because he was just happy to be kissing her again, and partly because he didn't blame her if she just needed a good cry. He could understand that. One arm slipped around her waist and held her close and his other hand twisted into her hair at the back of her head. His eyes were tightly shut and as the kiss deepened, it lost none of its affection. He was still getting used to the new reality of his life - being an ex-junkie and being conscious of his problem was, in some ways, more difficult than how he had been before. The big difference though was that now he was healthy, and had the potential to be very happy, and didn't have to wake up every morning wondering if he would die that day. (NT) -- Gavin, 11:58:01 09/25/06 Mon

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• With a soft sound of reluctance, she pulled back form him, gently running her hand over his arms as she gazed back at him. "I'm not going to lie to you, Gav, I was a little pissed that you just left for three months without a word..." She murmured, reaching up to brush her hand over her eyes, sniffling a little. "I found out from the papers where you were, that you had checked into the clinic...I thought..I dunno, I thought you had just left or gotten sick of me or..." She shrugged a little. "...and then to not here from you...I didn't even know if you were planning on coming back here or what was going on...it hurt. It hurt really, really bad." She nodded a little before she looked back to him, her eyes shining with tears. "...but I am still so glad you're home..." (NT) -- Bianca, 12:08:06 09/25/06 Mon

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• He had hoped Ethan would tell her before she found out from the papers, but word had traveled faster than he had he had expected, and for that he was sorry and felt bad - but again, he had let go of any regrets because he knew how much better off he was. Frowning gently, he brushed his hands over her cheeks to wipe away the tear tracks and nodded a fraction. "I'm sorry, love. I couldn't call." He didn't clarify whether he actually couldn't have called or whether he chose not to call, because it really didn't matter - to him, it was the same thing. He kissed her forehead softly and then the side of her mouth. "I'm so glad to be home..." (NT) -- Gavin, 12:15:42 09/25/06 Mon

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• She nodded a little, though she knew that wasn't quite true. He could have called before he went in, just saying he was planning on checking himself in but he had chose not to for some reason and that hurt her deeply. Her lip tucked between her teeth for a moment before she took a step back and headed into the kitchen. "Just a sandwich ok? You want soup or something with it?" She questioned, her brow furrowed a little. She was getting better about doing things on her own and not being such a princess but still, there were some things she just didn't excel at and cooking was one of them - much to the chagrin of her nutritionist. She opened the fridge door, digging through it to see what she could find... (NT) -- Bianca, 12:20:06 09/25/06 Mon

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• His jaw tightened a little as she moved away from him and he ran a hand down his face. "Sandwich is fine..." He hadn't expected this to be easy and he repeatedly reminded himself of that before slowly trailing after her into the kitchen. He knew that he had hurt her feelings, but he couldn't let himself dwell on what had happened before. He had apologized multiple times and that was all that he could do. He got himself a bottle of water from the fridge and then slid to the floor to sit leaning back against the cupboards, right next to Achilles. He and the pup had gotten to be good friends when he had left, and it was nice to see that the young dog seemed to remember him. (NT) -- Gavin, 12:26:00 09/25/06 Mon

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• She nodded a little and made up the sandwich for him quickly enough before setting it on the table and getting him a bottle of water also. Once he was all settled, she shifted to hop up on the counter, gazing at him for a moment before she started to speak. "I went with Emily baby shopping the other day to start getting stuff for the nursery...she got this adorable crib with these little tiny sheets with yellow duckies and baby turtles on them because we figured ducks and turtles...well they can go for either a girl or a boy and she says she wants to be surprised. Man, I could never picture Ethan a dad...he just doesn't seem the type to me..." She shrugged a little, shifting to tug a paper towel into her grasp, absently shredding it just to give herself something to do with her hands. (NT) -- Bianca, 12:48:07 09/25/06 Mon

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• He murmured a thanks and then listened wordlessly to her - munching on his sandwich as she talked. He swallowed and smiled a little then spoke with a slight nod. "I think he's got it in him..." Ethan seemed to take joy in surprising everyone - just when they thought they may have found something that Ethan couldn't do, he turned out to be really good at it, thus causing everyone to start the search all over again. Ethan got what he wanted - if he wanted to be a good father, he would be a good father. He glanced down again as he finished off the sandwich and then looked back up to her again - still not too sure where he stood. (NT) -- Gavin, 12:53:12 09/25/06 Mon

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• "Are you full? Do you want another one?" She questioned, still sitting up on her perch on the counter as she gazed at him for a moment and then busied herself by hopping off the counter onto to start straightening it up. Some of his bills had come in when he was gone, cell phone, car insurance, that sort of thing but she had just paid them and tossed them - it wasn't like either of them was lacking in money so that wasn't a big deal in the least. She sifted through some old mail before she swallowed a little. She had missed him, so much, and she was glad that he was home but she felt a little unsure to, a little off center with him like things had changed just a little bit from the easy going relationship they had developed before he left. (NT) -- Bianca, 12:57:27 09/25/06 Mon

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• "Yeah sweetie, I'm okay... Thanks." He stood slowly to take his plate over to the counter and put it away before turning to face her again."So have you got anything going on tonight?" He didn't want to just come in here and take over her life if she had other things happening... But he wanted the most to just hang out with her if she was planning on being around. He had missed her so much, and was so happy to be back - just a little upset that things seemed a little up in the air, but he had been expecting it and really couldn't blame her. He just wanted the chance to show her that he was different and that now he could be the type of guy that she deserved. (NT) -- Gavin, 08:47:53 09/26/06 Tue

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• She didn't answer his question, instead she just gazed at him intently as if in deep thought, contemplating something. Suddenly, she looked almost nervous and then she held her high with that princess attitude she had perfected so well, the one that screamed that she was used to people doing exactly what she wanted them to do but he, of all people, knew that was merely a defense, a shell to keep the little insecure girl inside of her sade. "I want us to move in together, permanently. Neither one of us having another apartment. It doesn't have to be in this apartment, if you don't feel comfortable with that, we could get something else, wherever you wanted." There, she had spit it out and it was just..out there now. On the table. A little of the fear of rejection she was feeling shined in the depths of her eyes but her chin was still up and her gaze leveled on him... (NT) -- Bianca, 08:56:52 09/26/06 Tue

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• "Okay." He didn't even hesitate with his response, just nodded a little and reached out to place his hands on his arms, his face dipping a little to press a kiss to the tip of her nose. "Sure. I like it here, but we can go do a little shopping around just to see what's out there..." Officially living with her had been one thing on his mind for the past few months and she just made things easier by suggesting it herself. He couldn't go back to his place anyway, and he was here with her pretty much all of the time anyway. Again, it was part of his intentions of being a better boyfriend - and a better person - more commitment to the important things in life. (NT) -- Gavin, 09:24:47 09/26/06 Tue