| Subject: Honoring Being however She manifests is the most wonderful thing I know... |
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Cassie
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Date Posted: 15:07:14 05/29/01 Tue
In reply to:
Deidra
's message, "Whats Going On For Me" on 23:59:52 05/28/01 Mon
Do you remember how Saniel talks about falling through the floor, over and over as we descend into our shadow. Well, I know I've reached a new floor, or a new place of resistance, when I notice myself doing addictive and compulsive behaviors. Overeating, playing computer solitaire, picking zits up the kazoo etc. etc. I'm frantically avoiding feeling this new depth. Eventually I come around to just being with it (this may take years by the way) and fall through to whatever lies beneath. (Sounds like the name of a movie.) Like, below boredom I found anger and below anger, terror and below terror, grief; below grief, apathy...until the descent I've taken here has finally reached a place that feels like dying. Utter resignation to death...no sign of hope or help, just this awful heavy nothingness...and I've been trying to claw my way out of here for let's see...at least two weeks I would say...but now...laying in bed before getting up...I just relaxed into it, slipped down below the surface of this floor and felt...this HUGE opening...I've seen this opening before...it's an opening into wonder...mystery...into, dare I say it...UP! Well naturally I scrambled away from that opening as fast as possible and I'm in a sort of limbo of avoidance once again. But...there it was...hmmmmm...scary!
So my hat's off to all who fall in the direction of up...wow...amazing bravery...tell me more...
Deidra, Hyena woman! Thank you so MUCH for bringing your self here in the incredible truth of your Being. The mothering voice, that discerning intelligence, the voice of Being Herself, what could be more valuable than this...what could be more welcome...so to be honored...thank you for bringing Her here...
I get that there is a sense in which we always remain the uncertain, fearful, the timid, the shy...while at the SAME TIME we are this new and bold and fearlessly loving absolutely HUGE Being able to hold all others as easily as a mother bird clucking softly and settling her wings around her brood. It seems so strange, this simultaneity of poles of identity...but somehow...I think it can be done...
You are so welcome here, just as you are...as Being, as human as whatever comes forth from your fingertips as you write. There is a way that daring to be seen here in this forumroom translates into a daring to come forward in life. At least I've found it to be so.
It's a kind of forumtherapy I guess. So carry on...and on and on and on...as much and as long as it pleases you...and then we'll see what happens next...Wheeeew!
So much love, Cassie
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