Date Posted:16:56:31 11/16/02 Sat Author:Kinyun Subject: Re: me too. ATTENTION ALL BBWS!!!!!! In reply to:
alicia l
's message, "me too" on 00:24:06 07/22/01 Sun
You should stop looking at yourself the way society sees you. Just stop for a minute. Society sees us as a list of physical traits and possessions. Our worth doesn't stem from that, but from inside. Though it is good to have a lot of good things and to look good on the outside, one can still be empty if one doesn't have one's inside straigtened out. When I was younger, as a dark-skinned brotha, people used to rag on me for being dark-skinned. I was left with feelings of self-hatred. Then after I realized my worth through reading history and through seeing my hard work and Godly values paying off, I began to realize how great God made me. Now I wouldn't change for the world. My problem wasn't the way I look, but what was influencing my perception. The truth is, people like to see beautiful women with low self-confidence, because they will use you. I notice this often with those men who call themselves thugs and with a lot of whites who date Black women. They like to use them because the Black woman is such a beautiful women, yet in a racist society she's underrated. You don't see them in movies and videos. It is similar, though not as brutal, with the dark-skinned man. The very core of exploitation is for the oppressed to have low self-confidence. Some men will deliberately keep you ignorant of your beauty so you'll tolerate any negative behavior they direct at you. This is part of the colonialist mentality.
>for so long i too settled for less. and actually, i
>still do. writing this is sort of a therapy for me. i
>am 24, weigh 255 pounds and am 5'2. i dont get a lot
>of offers for dates. and when i do, of course they
>only want to use me. and (as i write this with tears
>rolling down) i usually let them. and maybe some of
>you know the routine- they only call just to have
>their way with me. and i let them. its the only way i
>get attention. and usually i feel so low and so dirty
>afterwards. but it seems to be a repeated cycle. how
>does one get to the point that everyone spoke about?
>of feeling love for me?
