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Subject: Update


Author:
Mary
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Date Posted: 12/12/06 4:57pm

Hello everyone! Thank you so much for all your responses! I can tell that you all are very passionately pro-life but also that you are very loving individuals. It warms my heart when I think that there are virtual strangers out there that care so intensly about other people, even the unborn.

I cannot say that I have changed my position on abortion. I continue to be adamently in favor of womens rights and the pro-choice movement. I will never begrudge another women her right to decide under any circumstances. Parenthood itself is a choice, and one that only the parents can make. Choose to abstain, choose protected sex, choose abortion, choose adoption, or choose parenthood.

As for myself I also have made a choice. Yesterday, I made an appointment at a womens clinic, knowing that when the time came I could simply not go if I didn't want to. But as the hours went by I knew that I would never make that appoinment. I think about my baby; I think about the father that loves the baby and its mother; I think about not having a child inside me anymore and it insites panic; An abortion would make me free of obligation but I would be crippled. I do not understand what it is inside of me that connects me to this baby. It doesn't make sense to me but I can no longer deny it. Perhaps it is the same force that connects all living beings. Maybe its just love itself, beyond all comprehension, human love.

I have let go, I guess. I cant be in complete control of my life. I am a mommy (maybe it tooks 11 weeks of pregnancy to realize that). Really, I'm relieved. I can stop thinking the negative, painful thoughts and start thinking about my new life and my new child. That is so scary! But now I have a hope. I feel like I can start finally start moving forward again. It feels so good to put abortion (and its sidekick: self doubt) behind me. Thank you all for the support!!!!!! I will surely keep you posted!
~ Mary ~

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[> Subject: Re: Update


Author:
Pat
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Date Posted: 12/12/06 6:12pm

Mary, your message brought me tears of joy!

You are absolutely right. We are NOT in control of our own lives, no matter how much we want to be. This is a challenge to be mastered, and there will be others in your life.

I think having to think about The Decision robs women of their joy, and that's wrong.

We're not here to change your political views. That's up to you. We're here to reach out to you in your time of need.

You have realized that you are connected to your baby, and that will never change, even if you were to have an abortion. This is a relationship which we will probably never fully understand, but it's a relationship that is deeper and more profound than any other a woman can experience, including with her significant other. I'm not saying that you won't struggle with feelings and contradictions. You probably will. But at this point, I just want to say, congratulations, mom! :) And you are so right about the self-doubt. Congratulations on conquering that one, too. It doesn't mean you won't ever experience it again, but you will grow immensely from conquering it this time around. And you won't have all the emotional baggage that would just get in the way of your own self-respect.

We will be here for you any time, whether you have questions, or need to vent, or whatever you need to do. I look forward to your reports.

Hugs,
Pat
[> Subject: Re: Update


Author:
Heather
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Date Posted: 12/12/06 7:31pm

Well what a great post to read! Congratulations, Mary. I'm really happy for you, not just because you're about to start an indescribably wonderful journey, but because of the peace you now have to 'look forward' as you put it.

I really do think that's the hardest part for women conflicted about whether or not to abort the life inside of them. Once the decision has been made to rule it out, the largest and most vexing hurdle seems to be behind them.

No doubt you'll have more coming up along the way, but I don't think they'll be anywhere near as difficult as the one you just cleared.

As a mother myself, I can testify that the the hurdles and work are more than worth it. I know you won't know what to do with the intense joy and wonder that wells up in you when you hold your little son or daughter for the first time.

I think you'll make a great mom, and I'm happy for you as a woman that you're at peace with this unexpected yet joyful event. May the grace of God go before you and bless both you and your little one in your pregnancy and beyond!

I hope you'll stay plugged in here. There is such a great group of women here with a lot of collective wisdom and practical advice on pregnancy, childbirth, and childhood.

For my two cents, I'd recommend that you get yourself three things right away: 1) a great prenatal vitamin (natural not synthetic ones) 2) A copy of "What to Expect When You're Expecting (because it's a wonderful book, simply a must have for every first time mom) and 3) As much rest as you can possibly get!

Remember to take good care of yourself. You're every bit as unique and precious as the new life that is now being wonderously woven together in you.

With Kindness,

Heather
[> Subject: Re: Update


Author:
Melanie
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Date Posted: 12/13/06 2:41am

Hi Mary,

I bet it is a relief to finally have made a decision. I think you are right that this will give you the opportunity to move forward, to make plans and to see where you can go from here.

I think you are miles ahead of many people once you realize you cannot control every aspect of life. Life will always throw new curves and new challenges at you.
I also think you'll find that once you realize you can't control everything it will enable you to relax a little and concentrate on those things that you can. I hope that makes sense.

At any rate, if you need anything, I'll do what I can to help. There is a place called "The Nurturing Network" that is geared towards assisting career/college-oriented women. Their website is located here:
http://www.nurturingnetwork.org/needhelp.html
And the phone number is
1-800-TNN-4MOM

--Melanie
[> [> Subject: Re: Update


Author:
Tracey
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Date Posted: 12/13/06 5:37am

Mary~
I can not tell you how happy I am for you! I'm so glad you decided not to go to that appointment. You listened to your heart! I will tell you right now that this isn't going to be easy, but when you first see those little eyes looking back at you for the first time and feel those little fingers grasp yours, you will know for sure you did the right thing. There is nothing in this world like holding that sweet little life in your arms for the first time. Parenthood is a HUGE responsibilty...but you can do this! You sound like a very intelligent, strong woman. Congrats on your news!
And by the way, you are right...I am pro-life, but I'm also pro-woman. You see, abortion does something terrible to the very core of a woman. I know MANY women who have been through the horrors of abortion and live with the constant regret of choosing to terminate. Abortion goes against everything in our beings...our instincts to protect our young, the amazing blessing and priveledge to carry life and raise them in love. It robs women each and every day that it happens. So, yes, I am pro-life...but I am also pro-woman. I want you to know that we don't judge you in any way for being pro-choice and we never will. We promise to help guide and support you in any way we can. You have found a safe, supportive place, Mary! Please let us know if you need any resources in your area. We can help you find centers in your area who offer many resources. Just let us know! Mary, I will continue to pray for you and your little one! Please continue to come back and keep us posted!
God bless,
Tracey
[> Subject: Re: Update


Author:
Sharon
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Date Posted: 12/13/06 8:36am

Mary,

What an incredibly eloquent post...you captured so much in just a few words. You're right - there is something that we can't understand that truly does bind us to the life growing inside us. And it is powerful. AND...it brings joy.

May God richly bless you as you embark on this journey.

Sharon
[> [> Subject: Re: Update


Author:
luka
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Date Posted: 12/13/06 1:11pm

Congratulations! Now you no longer have to fight back any feelings of love towards your baby. You'll find that you are less confused than you were before because youre not pushing anything away or trying to deny something. I don't expect that you won't have some conflicting feelings from time to time but boy are you in for something wonderful. I hope to hear how you feel after having your first sonogram and when you first feel your baby kicking. I have only a few weeks untill i have my baby and i am very excited :)I had a 3D ultrasound yesterday and it took my breath away. My situation from the outset was pretty horrrible and stressful but it has in alot of ways resolved itself so i can attest to most of lifes difficulties being temporary even the ones that seemed impossible to get past in the begining.



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