Date Posted:22:13:18 04/08/04 Thu Author: Cindy Subject: Ray's last days In reply to:
Blu
's message, "All about Ray Gillen..." on 19:03:21 06/01/03 Sun
Can anybody tell me about Ray's last days...? (Can anybody tell me about him, period? What sort of music did he listen to? Who influenced him vocally?)
Did he die alone? Who was with him? When he first learn of his contracting AIDS? What was his reaction?
You'll have to forgive me. I'm still overwhelmed and somewhat in denial.
Every time I go to ask a question about him, many of them pour out at one time, along with lumps in my throat and tears.
I can't explain why I have such an attachment to someone I never knew personally. But I admire his talents and still swoon over how gorgeous he was physically. I wish I had gotten a chance to see him in person. And sometimes I wish I could trade my life for his just so he would have gotten the chance to accomplish some of what he set out to do. But for some reason that is shockingly inexplicable, God didn't will it so.
I can't imagine why God would take him at such a young age. I CAN'T IMAGINE.
I have my theories, but none are plausible.
Anyway: Was he afraid of death? Did he make peace with himself? Was he spiritual?
And for pete's sake, I just found out as I was reading these messages that he has a daughter (!!!). How is she doing?
I still don't believe he was gay.
Is this true, Mama Gillen, wherever you are? Regardless, it doesn't really matter to me. I still love the legacy he left. I only hope that he's finally at peace in Heaven. And I hope the grief has lessened each year for you, Mama Gillen.
Anything you want to share about Ray will be greatly appreciated. And I'm sure that I speak for everyone on the chat board when I say if you want to ramble or be long-winded, we won't get tired of reading.
