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Date Posted: 06/27/06 4:59am
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Dad
's message, "Re: Coah Renark?" on 06/26/06 1:39am
>It's so great to hear from you, Dam. I'm so thrilled,
>really. lol Hey, that was so great having coffe with
>you this morning. I'm going to stick around here in
>NY for another week. Carrie, that's my gf, she's
>going to drop in for a few days to see her best
>friend, so we'll be at the penthouse. I'd love for
>her to meet you. She's probably as close to a
>step-mom as you'll ever get from me. lol
She sounds really nice - but Dad I really DON'T need to here about the *winking*. Lol.
>
>Ah, she's beautiful, Dam. You'll like her. She's a
>real brain and did I mention,s he's beautiful? lol
>Great legs, great body, gorgeous eyes. sometimes, I
>look at her and think, Damn, someone up there must
>reallylike me, cuz I sure don't deserve someone as
>wonderful as her in my life, you know? lol She's
>really fun and funny, too. I mean, really funny. She
>can make me laugh for hours, no joke. She can also
>make me cry, cuz she's so damn hot in bed, but that's
>all I'll say about that. I mean, that's not what I
>want you to be thinking about when you meet her. lol
I'm really glad you found someone. I know it took you awhile.
>
>So, let's double date. We could go to dinner and a
>movie or Oh! I know, we could take the CAT out on the
>River. Yeah, let's go sailing. HOw bout it? She's
>supposed to get her Tomorrow and I know she'll want to
>see Bri first, so I probly won't see her until Tuesday
>night. Maybe we could sail on Wednesday.
Okay - sure. It sounds good :)
>
>So, how's it feel to be a multi-millionaire, dude? lol
> In other words, did you like your Birthday present
>from your old man? I figured, a bank account with a
>nifty few mil would be the gift that keeps on giving,
>you know? And I really want you to go to college.
>That's a must, so you pick the school and I'll pay for
>all of it, school, books, dorm/housing, whatever. K?
>That's real important.
I'm really close to Columbia so I don't need a dorm I can take the subway. I should be good on everything but books and school. Lol.
>LOL Yeah, well, after Cody and his boys died and Hav
>was with them, too, btw, um, I dunno. I just lost it
>for a long time. I think if it wasn't for CT (Carrie)
>and you, I dunno, I probly would've killed myself.
>So, I knew I just had to do something to stay busy. I
>retired from Music. Just lost the will, ya know? i
>wanted to just float for awhile, I guess. Be
>purposeless, but after awhile, that just got too dull.
> Then, I found out that the gov't needed a celebrity
>to catch this really evil criminal. He was real
>blu-blood, so they needed someone who could swing in
>that kind of circle. The only thing was I had to kind
>of drop off the grid for awhile, cuz I didn't want the
>bad guys to be able to find and kill you if something
>went wrong. But, it was pretty fun and kept me busy
>while I was trying to heal. And, as long as CT was
>with me, it was all good. *g*
It sounds fun - in a weird sort of way. I probably needed something like that a few months ago. lol.
>
>Will she go with you to Columbia if you go? That
>seems like an exciting place to live. I can't wait to
>meet Kate. What's she look like? Do you think you'll
>lose her if you say no to the whole marriage thing?
>You could always say "yes" and just plan for the
>wedding to happen in 5-10 years. lol jk
No - she won't. She's actually at NYU right now. I'm technically done with 3 years of college (through online courses) so I'd actually only need one year of full college. Which is good.
She's model thin (which is kind of gross) actually no she's heroin thin. That's a better description. lol. And she's tall - about 5'10. And she has black long indie hair. Uhm she has long legs - not much at the top if you know what I mean. She also has an accent - which is really cute.
>So, is she your only gf or do you take after me with
>the ladies?
Yeah she's my only girlfriend. I don't take after you. lol. I've always had one girlfriend after another. But only ONE girlfriend at a time.
>Ah, yes, the simple life. I did it for awhile. Me
>and Carrie. It was wonderful. We decided to be
>monogamous for awhile and we were planning to get
>pregnant. So, we just lived on my boat for a few
>years. it was really fun. Just the two of us, the
>captain and only one maid (I didn't want to do the
>laundry and you know me, I suck at cleaning. I didn't
>want CT to clean up after me either. That would've
>been doom to the relationship. Besides, I had other
>ideas about how we should be spending our time. *wink*
>lol) So, yeah, the simple life has alot of perks. :)
>Another good choice, Son.
You at CT sound like you really love eachother... That's good dad.
>Oh, wow. If I'd known, I would've been there for you,
>Dam. I'm so sorry you had to go through that alone.
>But, I'm so proud of you for kickin' it. What'd you
>do? The steps or did you go in a clinic or what?
>How're you doin' now with that? Is there any way I
>can help you? Just let me know, ok?
I was sick as hell trying to quit. Like I had at 105 degree tempature one time. And I was shaking and shit. It was horrible. And only one hit of smack was needed to make me feel better - but I couldn't have it.
I'm still sick alot and I want smack so badly. I see my dealer on the street and I just want to buy a stash so much - that usually I end up buying it and throwing it away on the way home. I'm really close to using again - but I'm not willing to go back into rehab. Because it sucked. I'm honestly starting to think - is it really THAT bad for you? I've even tried to do pot and acid to give my self that good feeling. But it didn't work. Smack's my thing.
>Yeah, me too. After Cody and Have and my grandsons
>died, I really flipped out and went on a really long
>bender. Scared Carrie half out of her mind, poor
>woman. She helped me out of that. She had this
>really unique technique to get me to stop drinking too
>much. lol When I'd head over to the bar, she'd strip
>and head to the bedroom. So, I had this choice, but
>it was a real no brainer, righ? I mean, yeah, I'm
>really gonna take a drink over fucking my woman,
>right? I was grieving, but I wasn't insane. lol
Hey does alcholism run in the family? I'm serious - because Cody was like that right after his wife or whoever died. He drank himself almost death. That's what I've been doing.
>Well, jsut don't drive when you drink, ok? I'm gonna
>hire a guy to drive you around until you're doing
>better with this, oK? We don't want anything to
>happen to you or Kate. To be honest, I dont' think my
>heart could take losing you, too, Dam.
Oh - don't worry. I'm not a social drinker. I never go out to drink. I'm embarssed by it. I drink - home alone. I never go anywhere.
>
>If you want to go through rehab for the drinking, too,
>just let me know. I'll go with you. :) Seriously, I
>will. And it'll be on me. MY treat. Ha!
Seriously - I'll drop you off. Lol. I hate rehab. But it would be a good bonding expirence. Lol.
>LOL Yeah, I guess that is kinda obvious, huh? You're
>a good lookin' kid, but yeah, we're not exactly twins.
> I should've told you sooner, I guess, but it's really
>not the nicest thing to talk about and I really didn't
>want you to look at your mom any differently, either.
>I loved her Dam. I really did. And, man, did I ever
>want her. She's the only gf I've ever had who
>wouldn't sleep with me. Drove me crazy! I did talk
>her into sleeping in my bed with me, but it was the
>most frustrating night of my life. Damn, still
>couldn't talk her into any more than that that night.
>lol It really sucked. lmao! I had a lot of respect
>for her, though. And I guess she wanted that more
>than romance or something. I dunno. She was funny
>that way. Good girl, though. Gotta love her.
Hah - I love my mom. She was amazing.
>
>Hey, your gf's not like that is she? Holding out for
>marriage and all that. If she is, run the other way,
>Man. lol
No - not by any means. We did wait awhile though. Until our first anniversary. Which was honestly good because she was just 18 and I was 19 going on 20. It would have been weird any other way.
>You were, with all my heart I adopted you. :)
>Couldn't ahve been happier about it, either. The only
>thing I wished I could've changed was how often I got
>to see you, but your mom didn't want you to travel
>with me. I mean, the times I got to take you one the
>road with me, I think it was about one week a year!
>lol I had to beg on my knees for it. She thought I'd
>be a bad influence on you, or forget you or something.
> She wasn't the biggest fan of my lifestyle. lol
>That's ok, though. I understood. She was really
>protective. I had some worries for awhile that she'd
>turn you into a mama's boy, cuz she was so
>overprotective, but you had ot understand--she'd been
>kidnapped and terrorized, so she couldn't help being
>so careful about you, you know? That's why I was so
>shocked when she told me that she was goin to let you
>go on the road with your troupe. I really was
>stunned--and relieved! lol You needed that
>independence. You were always so responsible, even
>when you were a kid. And you needed to get away from
>all those brothers and sisters. Damn! I remember when
>you ran away. Remember that? They were driving you
>crazy. I told her, you gotta let up on the kid, Em.
>He's a little man and needs some space away from all
>those girls! sisters! lol She actually listened to
>me. Probably the only time. lol jk
Honestly - I never liked my home life. But my mom did let me have a lot more freedom after I turned 15. Seriously ALOT more. She let me drink in the house (mistake) she let me go out at 2am to do who knows what (mistake) and I was aloud to have girls over when my mom wasn't home (ah - not a mistake lol) My mom was just over it. She wanted to get us out of the house. Lol.
Yeah - you know I don't even know my sisters or brothers anymore? I haven't talked to them in 3 years. I don't know where they are even. And I don't care to know.
>Yeah, I think he was too. I mean, Em didn't talk
>about him to me too much, understandably. He might've
>had some asian in him, too, I think. Cuz, like your
>eyes look sort of asian to me. Dont' you think? At
>least, when you were a teen and in TS1 you did. But,
>maybe you're different now that you're in TS2? My
>looks changed big time when I got here. I hated it,
>but now I'm used to is. Just really miss my
>dreadlocks. lol Remember my hair? It was so long.
>CArrie loved it. I thought she'd think I was
>butt-ugly without them. Made me so nervous, but she
>doesn't seem to miss them too badly.
I look alot different now. I actually look really - I don't know French almost Jewish. It's crazy. My mom was supposedly black. But I dunno - she could've been white somewhere. Lol. I have a huge fucking nose - and I have green eyes. And I don't have black hair anymore either. I have flippy emo hiar. Lol. That's really dark brown. But I used to look more asian and black. (Odd combination) So I like my new looks a little bit better.
>I've got tears in my eyes now. See what you did to
>me? lol Seriously, though. I'm really touched. I
>always thought we had a good connection,t oo. I was
>always really scared that if you found out the truth,
>you'd hate me, or you jsut wouldn't want me around
>anymore after you found out. Your mom wanted to tell
>you when you were like 14 or so and you were having
>all those problems. I begged her not to tell you. I
>hope you won't be mad at me, because I was a selfish
>bastard. I still am, though. IF it wasn't your mom's
>dying wish, I wouldn't ahve ever told you, Bud. It
>would've killed me if you'd rejected me as your dad.
>Seriously, it would've. I just, ugh, I just was so
>scared. I'm not scared of shit, too, but THAT scared
>me.
Awh. I made you cry. How sweet. Hah. You know - you could have told me honestly. I know why you didn't - but It would've been alright. I'm glad I know now though. It explains alot.
>
>Oh, wrong answer, Dude. lol If a billionaire says name
>it and claim it, you gotta name somethin'! lol jk I
>know, we can go look at cars this week if you want. I
>need to get one for myself. I'm thinking about
>getting Mazerati Spyder. Think I'd look good in that?
>lol Listen, if you cut down, significatnly on the
>drinking, I'll get you a Hog. :) You'd look good on a
>Harley, don't ya think? And, man, it's such a rush to
>drive around your gf on one of those. You can sit
>there with her arms squeezing you tight and the wind
>wipping through her hair. Hot. :) Until then, we'll
>hook you up with a nice Rolls and a driver this week.
>Sound good?
Hah - Dad. Seriously I live in New York City. No driving necessary. But thank you :)
Damien.
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