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Cassie
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Date Posted: 23:50:11 02/21/01 Wed
In reply to:
Gill
's message, "Re: Holding ourselves gently" on 05:25:20 02/21/01 Wed
Dearest Gill,
Thank you so much for your response to my “stuff”. Yes, my inner critic is this humoungous JUDGE who has erected a slide that shoots me down into hell at the slightest hint of anything amiss. Its quite the trip! I take it often and lately I’ve just been staying down here to save time and energy.
Somehow I have come to believe that this stay will be auspicious, and in this perversity I find myself wanting to be here as fully as possible. I’ve been trying to avoid this place all my life (unsuccessfully, by the way), what would it be like to just hang out here indefinitely with no agenda? To just feel the shame, the terror and the trepidation; to roll in it, wallow through it, muck about in it and best of all, to just plop myself down in the midst of it. Experiencing the worst the judge can hand out without resistence or any effort to escape, this is what I call fun! [Nowhere else but in Waking Down down down... can you say things like this and not get locked up.] And think of the effect this wallowing must be having on the Judge! He hasn’t a clue as to what is going on. But I suspect he’s next. Then I’ll probably get to hang around as HIM. That should be even more fun.
By the way, I've tried stomping on him, ignoring him, transforming him, dialoguing with him, positive thinking him away and all manner of things and that sucker keeps on coming back. While I’m absolutely delighted that you have found a way to oust him, just think, you could be down here wallowing with me instead!
By the way I love your accent! (I hear it in my mind whenever I read your postings.)
Great gobs of goopy love, Cassie
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