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• (They had been on their way down to visit with him anyway, but it was a shock when they had passed a bunch of panicked looking doctors wheeling Karlie down the hall on a gurney, all of them talking in huge words that he couldn't quite understand.) Hes going to be in a fit. (He said under his breath as he watched them enter the OR at the end of the hallway. He pursed his lips as he looked over at Kate, concern in his expression.) He was having a fit earlier and his head was bothering him.. we have to find a way to calm him down and you're the best at that. (He admitted, though that bothered him now that he knew what it was like to be the one who was there for his kids. He put his arm around Kate as they walked down to the waiting room and right over to where Nick was pacing.) Nicky.. (He called to him softly, putting a hand on his arm to stop his pacing.) What's going on? (NT) -- Quin, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 6:48pm PDT

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• He nearly jumped out of his skin when his dad touched him, his eyes narrowing for a touch as if for a second he didn't recognize him. His eyes flitted between Quin and his mom before he let out a deep breath, shaking his head. "Dunno. Didn't understand." He spoke shortly, his lip tucking between his teeth as his brow furrowed and he tried to focus on his words, tried to be able to tell them what was going through his head and what was going on his with his girlfriend but nothing sounded right in his mind so he knew it wouldn't if he opened his mouth. With a growl, he turned away from them, a furious kick sending a plastic chair into the nurses work station and catching the attention of pretty much everyone anywhere near them. (NT) -- Nick, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 6:55pm PDT

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• (He knew as soon as Nick opened his mouth that he had stressed himself to what was probably a breaking point now that he was so dangerously close to further brain damage.) Nick.. calm down. (He said after cringing at the loud echoing bang in the waiting room. He held up a hand when a nurse went to call a security guard, smiling apologetically as he walked over to put his hands on Nick's shoulders.) Whatever it is we'll get it all worked out.. I am sure they will be fine and you need to calm down right now. (He looked over his shoulder at Kate, pleading with her for some help.. he didnt have much experience with this sort of thing.) (NT) -- Quin, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 7:00pm PDT

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• inside -- Nick/Kate, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 7:12pm PDT
  • (Unlike earlier, when he had been so calm and collected and had been able to help Nick through his episode, he wasn't sure what to do now. He knew that his son would need more than just a brave face and calm words.. he needed his mother to hold him and tell him it would be alright. He chewed the corner of his lip in an unconscious and rare display of his confusion before walking over to the nurses station and getting some water for Nick. He came over to the sofa and sat down on Kate's other side, letting out a breath and just looking at his son. He had missed out on so much with him and now he ached to know more about this broken man before him.. he wanted to have the arrogant and self-assured Nick back and would move mountains to make it happen for him.) (NT) -- Quin, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 7:23pm PDT

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• His shoulders were shaking as if in sobs but no tears were falling, he was just holding onto his mothers shirt and letting her comfort him. After a few minutes he pulled back, his brow furrowed as he looked over at his mom, lifting his hand to head and tapping his temple. "Messed up." He stated softly, rubbing his temple a touch in hopes of getting the pain in his head to release. He had to calm down a little bit, he had to because he had to be able to communicate with the doctors. "Pills?" He questioned, looking over to his father. He had gotten him pills before...maybe he could again. (NT) -- Nick, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 7:37pm PDT

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• (It broke his heart to see Nick so upset about everything.. though in all actuality, he was one of the few people who could truly understand what Nick was feeling. It was sort of like what he had gone through with his anxieties and the medications he had been on that had made it so that he couldn't properly communicate when he was upset.. He nodded at Nick's words and got to his feet, walking over to the nurses station and having his friend paged down there before filling him in on what was going on and getting some painkillers and a mild depressant for Nick to take, walking back to hand them to him as he took his seat again.) Here, take these. (He said as he held the water out for Nick, then exchanged a look with Kate, shifting his arm around her shoulder.) You should go up later and say hi to your new neice.. it might do you some good to see Brooke and Josh. (NT) -- Quin, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 7:47pm PDT

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• He nodded gratefully to his dad, taking both the pills and then dropping his head between his knee's, taking a few long breaths. Kate just rubbed his back gently, as she looked over at her husband with a heartbroken gaze. "Shay called, she's excited about little Maddie...she said she misses you..." She spoke softly, just trying to soothe Nick. Nick listened to her, focusing on her breath and slowly felt his mind falling back into proper working order, clearing his throat, he lifted his head after about five minutes of silence, speaking softly. "When that happens..I can't..I can't graps onto anything, no words, there's nothing I can..communicate..." He shook his head, running his hand down his face slowly. (NT) -- Nick, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 8:03pm PDT

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• (He watched as Kate soothed Nick, his expression concerned and yet calm as he listened to her voice and then let his eyes search Nick's face when he looked up at last.) You're not supposed to stress yourself this much.. you just had massive surgery, Nick.. it's to be expected. (He said with a bit of a rueful expression taking over his face as he reached over to absently tuck Kate's hair back where it had fallen forward and was in his viewline.) Did they tell you anything about Karlie, or do you want me to go talk to the doctors.. (NT) -- Quin, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 8:23pm PDT

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• He took another low breath, his eyes moving over both his parents before he tried to focus and tell them what he knew. "They were going to wait a few days befoe they induced labor but then the baby's heart monitor started going nuts..." He let out a slow breath, his head cocked to the side as he thought it all out. "They said something was wrong with the baby...it wasn't getting the air it needed or something..and they had to perform a c-section and then they just took away." He bit his lip at that, his eyes moving to his parents again. "I'll never forgive myself if something happens to that baby." (NT) -- Nick, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 8:33pm PDT

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• Inside -- Quin, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 8:52pm PDT
  • inside -- Kate, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 9:02pm PDT
    • Inside -- Quin, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 9:20pm PDT
      • She let out a soft breath as she watched her husband go out of the room and as if feeling that his mom was sad and his dad had left, Nick lifted his head - having caught about ten minutes of sleep which was good enough for him. His hand rose to run over his face as he looked around, looking towards the door before he pressed a kiss to his mothers cheek and stood, heading outside where his father was. Quietly he came up next to him, pulling out his engraved zippo and a cigarette - if a brain malfunction didn't kill him a little bit of nicotine wouldn't either. Lighting up, he offered his dad the pack to see if he wanted one, inhaling deeply and letting the drug calm him. (NT) -- Nick, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 9:30pm PDT
    • (If he was surprised that Nick had shown up at his side just then, he didn't show it.. it was as though he had expected him to be there all along as he looked over and then took one of the offered cigarettes and made use of Nick's lighter. Man and son stood there in silence for a long moment, watching the cars pass in front of the hospital complex, until at last he found his voice and spoke.) Your old man's a fuckup, Nick. (He said in a matter of fact tone, shifting his weight and looking down at his feet for a moment before his gaze shifted to the road again.) I doubt I'll ever be able to make up for all the hurt I've caused all my life.. but at least I can warn you not to do the same. (NT) -- Quin, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 9:43pm PDT

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• He shrugged a little, looking out over the parkingly as he let out a soft breath, exhaling the smoke on it. "Can't say I'll do a whole lot..but I'll stick around." He stated, talking about he times his dad had taken off. His eyes moved back to his dad, clearing his throat a little bit. "Look, I know this is kind of awkward and I am not saying that we are going to have the perfect father son relationship or anything like that, cuz I really don't see that happening." He stated honestly. "But I mean...if we can get some mutual respect going at least, that would probably be a start." He shrugged a little. "It's not for me that I am bitter toward you for..." He smiled ruefully, looking over his shoulder to where his mother was sitting in the waiting room. "Someone's got to be pissed at you for her, you know? Cuz she's not and I never understood that." (NT) -- Nick, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 10:26pm PDT

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• (He had to fight back the defensive spirit that welled up inside him.. the need to fight back and defend himself against the shame and guilt he felt at knowing how his son viewed him. He wanted nothing more than the chance to prove to Nick that he could be a father to him.. a grandfather to the next generation as well.. but he would never be able to escape his past.) I am just as angry wth myself for distancing myself from you as I am for what I did to Kate.. and trust me I dont understand why she stuck with me either, Nick. (He ran a hand back through his hair, for once looking a little less than the impenetrable fortress he usually was.) I have a lot of regrets in my life, but being your father is not, nor will ever be, one of them. (NT) -- Quin, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 10:35pm PDT

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• He let out a soft breath, running his hand through his hair which was now laying shaggy against his head. "It's a lot to let go of in a day." He stated softly before he looked up to his dad. "Wasn't your fault you know, that I got into the accident. Would have happened regardless of what was said between us that day..something would have pissed me off, I was looking for a fight." He shrugged a little, letting out a soft breath before he looked back down to the parking lot, watching the lights from an ambulance as it left the hospital. "I am not saying we can never be close...I am just saying it's a long way to repair some things, you know?" He didn't want his relationship with Quin to be his father's big regret in life either... (NT) -- Nick, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 10:41pm PDT

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• (He nodded, though he wasn't so sure Nick's words would take away the guilt he felt over that day.. he had had a chance to handle the situation better and he hadn;t.) I was so mad that day that I could see myself in you. (He admitted, since it seemed they were both in for admitting things at the moment.) I thought if I got mad enough at you you would want to be different than me.. I'm sorry for that. (He looked up as a streak of lightning flashed across the sky in the distance.. another storm was coming in.) When you were in the hospital I had a lot of time to look back over things.. and now that I have things under control.. with.. (He gestured to his head, meaning the suppressants the army had had him on so that he wouldnt remember the details surrounding his breakdown.) .. I guess what I am trying to say is that things are going to be a lot different between all of us from now on. (NT) -- Quin, Sun, Apr 30 2006, 10:57pm PDT

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• He took another long hit off the smoke before he looked back to his father finally at his last words. "Yeah? Mom's looked kinda happier the past few weeks..." He stated, he obviously had lived being very concerned for his mother for quite some time - he was definitely protective of her to say the least. "Shay's not really getting any better...been trying to get her to go out and make some friends at school, you know? That kid, he screwed her up pretty bad...problem with getting into a relationship so young I guess." He looked back to the doors of the hospital, sighing softly. He just wanted to be home, with Karlie, curled up in his obnoxiously large bed, comfortable and resting. Instead, he was standing outside of a hospital while who knew what was going on with his kid with some cold rain misting over him. Great. (NT) -- Nick, Mon, May 01 2006, 9:14pm PDT

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• (He too took a long drag off the cigarette he had before dropping it and toeing it out on the pavement, watching the orange cherry die on the ground before slowly exhaling and thinking about things.) I think through all of it your mom saw the good in me, even when I didn't... I'm damn lucky to have her, and I intend on spending the rest of my life making it up to her. (He laughed a little.) I couldn't have a prettier ass to spend the rest of my life kissing. (He teased, shoving his hands into his pockets so that his thumbs were the only thing showing.) I don't understand what happened there.. seemed like everything was going so good and then suddenly that McLean kid was gone.. (He looked over at Nick and then back at the cars again.) You're a good brother, she needs that right now. (NT) -- Quin, Mon, May 01 2006, 9:32pm PDT

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• He shrugged a little at his compliment. "She's a good kid...just fell to fast, to hard, to young. I wish she'd just let her herself meet someone else, I think that would help her take her mind off of him." The conversation was good for him, taking his mind off of Karlie and the baby and allowing his brain to just relax from over taxing itself so many times. "I bet Brooke and Josh are going to have a bunch of kids, never thought I would say it but she's the domestic one in this family these days...I can't see Shay ever wanting to settle down with a kid...she's to into all this politics stuff..." (NT) -- Nick, Mon, May 01 2006, 10:01pm PDT

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• Inside -- Quin, Mon, May 01 2006, 10:09pm PDT