Seth had been holding himself back for most of the morning, quieter than he normally was as he battled the whirlwind in his head. He didn't want to make this any harder than it already was, for either of them. He knew this thing between them had gotten out of control, had known it from that first week. Her decision to spend a few more day with him, to go through the trouble of shipping her car back to NY and booking a flight... That had only confirmed just how out of control things had gotten. He knew he hadn't kept the emotional distance that he should have, he'd let himself develop genuine affliction for the woman. He knew it was a risk, he was just one of those guys who craved emotion, no matter what emotion it may be. It hadn't helped that she was a raging inferno compared to every icy encounter he'd ever had in bed. Hell, some of the best memories he'd had of sex had been ground to dust in that first passionate night together.
They had even managed to keep the town from talking, much. They had't given the locals a single scrap of good gossip. Keeping a professional cool in public had almost become a game between them, some sick sort of tease. And it worried him that he'd miss that just as much as he'd miss the wild, sleepless nights with her in his bed. He knew from that simple little thing, that one thought, he knew.... He'd fallen for this woman. Fallen Hard.
But there wasn't a damn thing he could do about it. She had a career, a life in NY. Who was he to ask her to leave that world? To come live in a sleepy mountain town with him? This wasn't her world, it would only be a matter of time before she got fed up with the quiet, with the open spaces, with everyone knowing who you are... She lived in the city, in New Fucking York, where you were just another face in the crowd, just another body on the subway. Where you didn't have to worry about people talking about what you did, what you said... And he knew he couldn't survive in a city like that, it would drive him crazy. Like luring a wolf from the wilds to keep him locked in a crate, taken out just long enough to stretch before being forced back into his box... He knew it would never work.
His pale gaze flicked to her as he felt her eyes on him, a half smirk pulling at his lips as he continued watching the road. His fingers twined with hers automatically, his large hand giving a light squeeze before he spoke "Likely the last rain we'll get this year... Next storm'll be snow and ice" He traced his thumb along the side of her hand, content in the moment. So long as he didn't think about where they were headed, or what that meant.
Her words had him turning his head fully to look at her, a slight pain flaring in his chest as it was all brought back to reality "Its no trouble... Its been a while since i'v been able to just drive through here..." He usually did his large purchases in the valley, rather than over the mountains. But he'd always loved this drive. It spoke to something deep within him, something primal and feral stirred only in the depths of the mountain forests... He might have to stop on the way home, clear his head before he faced his deputy. The woman had an intuition that was unnatural... She had known about this little thing with Nev right away, had admitted that she approved and mentioned several times how much better he looked with the feisty brunette in his bed.
I'm not strong enough to stay away
Can't run from you
I just run back to you
Like a moth I'm drawn in to your flame
Say my name, but it's not the same
You look in my eyes I'm stripped of my pride
And my soul surrenders and you bring my heart to its knees
And it's killin' me when you're away, I wanna leave and I wanna stay
I'm so confused,So hard to choose
Between the pleasure and the pain
And I know it's wrong, and I know it's right
Even if I try to win the fight, my heart would overrule my mind
And I'm not strong enough to stay away |
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