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Subject: AND IT'S ON


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 08:02:45 08/23/05 Tue

AND THE HAIR LOSS BEGINS.... I woke up this morning and discovered that my hair is ready to start coming out. It's not in clumps yet but when I run my fingers through my hair, LOTS of strands are coming out.

Welp, BIG BRO, doesn't look like I'll defy those odds like you were hoping. I didn't expect to but it would have been nice....

[> Subject: WHAT A MESS!


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 17:16:00 06/24/05 Fri

It's really thinning now! Still no patches but VERY VERY thin. I imagine it will all be gone by the end of this weekend.
[> Subject: Hi


Author:
Bonnie
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Date Posted: 22:00:31 06/24/05 Fri

Hi Stacey, We were away when the news came about the brain tumors. We were so sorry to read about your recent battle. Please know that we continue to pray for your full recovery--we pray loudly daily!! We believe you will win this battle---you are so strong Stacey, and there are so many prayers being offered on your behalf. In the meantime we will be happy to hear that the radiation is over, and that you are getting some relief from the side effects of the meds. I want you to know that I do understand some the feeling about the hair loss, however I can't know fully the sadness it brings. My friend is going through that right now for the second time, and she feels just like you. I tell her to think of it as a sign that the treatment is helping her body fight the cancer. I know though that I would feel just like you and my friend if it were happening to me. Please know that I am sorry that you must experience it again also. Your God message is good and so true. You can stand tall, as I know from your web site you have and are still helping family, friends and stranges cope with cancer and their battles. Wishing you a good day tomorrow. Love and prayers. Bonnie
[> [> Subject: There you are


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 00:48:10 06/25/05 Sat

Hi Bonnie!! I'm so happy to hear from you. I've been hoping to get a post from you. You're so inspirational for me. I thought maybe you were having a tough time wrapping your mind around it so I didn't want to email you and bug you. But I'm relieved to hear you were away.

The hair loss is okay. I guess I'm getting used to it. It's not gone yet but I expect it will be by the end of the weekend. It doesn't really bring me sadness. At least this time my hair didn't get a chance to get long. That may have bothered me more if it had. I'm sorry for your friend though. I know it's so tough on a lot of people to lose it. I keep all my hair. This will be my third bag from the three rounds. My dogs just sit there and watch me while I put hair in the bag. I think my dogs are getting used to watching me pull out my hair. They probably think I shed every few years.

I can't believe day 13 is already over. I ONLY have seven more treatments to go. Can you believe that??? The staff at my radiation office is absolutely a joy to be around. They have a lot of fun back in the control room and while I'm sitting there waiting, we just sit there and lough and cut up. I have so much fun when I get there. I sometimes wonder if they aren't used to having patients that are having a good time while they are there. I did tell them today that I actually will miss coming there everyday and seeing them. They said to visit anytime I want.

As for God, I had a discussion with him the other night... out loud. Not that he needs me to remind Him, but I told him that there are plenty of people out there that don't want to live and there are a lot of people out there that don't have what it takes to fight their battles and they want to give up. GO AFTER THEM. I'm not going anywhere, I don't plan on going anywhere, I will be here, I love my love, I have a lot of life to live, I have a lot of educating to do, I have a lot of loving of my family and friends to do, I have my babies, I adore my life and I plan on living it. The harder I get kicked the harder I am kicking back. All I ask from Him is to continue to give me all I need to fight this battle and just go after the ones that don't want to be here.

Thanks so much for checking in. I look forward to hearing from you.

[> [> [> Subject: Inspiritional


Author:
Bonnie
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Date Posted: 23:15:27 06/27/05 Mon

Me again Stacy! Thanks for the compliment, but you are the one that is an inspiration!! Really, your zest for living is always the best under most difficult times!! I know that I have told you before that I believe that attitude has so much to do with battling cancer or any disease. Also,I am glad that you were talking out loud to God. I remember too, about the sermon I shared with you that I learned that God wants to know exactly what we want. I am not shy when it comes to telling him. I many times speak out loud to God on your behalf and also my friends. I tell him about your spirit for living and helping people which is invaluable in today's world, and also I tell him you are too young to be leaving us. So I am glad that we are on the same page with that! So you keep up the good fight and attitude, and I will continue to let God know what we want!

My friend is a hairdresser, and I think that makes it a little harder for her to have the hair come out. It is a struggle for her, but I understand that too. I laughed when I read that your dogs must think that you shed every few years!!! Aren't the dogs just the best! We kept our grandchildren's dog, Sarah over the weekend. Jack and I love dogs, but we don't have our own anymore since we like to travel. So we are always happy to sit one of the kid's dogs.

It was good to hear from you. I hope that tomorrow is a good day for you, and that the last 12 treatments go quickly. Love and prayers, Bonnie
[> Subject: It's me


Author:
Roy
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Date Posted: 00:06:06 06/25/05 Sat

Stacy,
Been thinking alot about you lately and just know I've been praying for you. I so admire your courage and strength - it's wonderful you have a great attitude with all you've been through. Well, I bought a 69 442 - nothing quite like the power in Mark's car. One of these days, I'm going to bring it up to Terry's.
Hope all is well with your Mom, Dad, and Mark.
GET WELL - Love you, Roy
[> [> Subject: GREAT FOR YOU!!


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 00:55:08 06/25/05 Sat

Hey Roy!! Is the 442 a Buick? I love the 442's. They kind of remind me of the super sport Monte Carlo's. You know if you do ever bring it out to Terry's... you HAVE to bring it by here!!

How is the baby these days?

Thank you so much for your good thoughts and prayers. They are everything to me. Admiration is not necessary. I just have a condition that I don't plan on giving into. I don't even want to hear anyone say that "I'm ill". In my mind, no I am not. I just have something that needs to be addressed and I'm addressing it.

Mom, Dad, and Mark seem to be holding up pretty good. At least to my face they are. I really believe they "bounce" off of me. If I'm doing and feeling well then they can feel well. I'm just being me and I naturally have a positive attitude so I'm hoping they are getting that too. Thanks for mentioning them. They have absolutely wonderful to me through everything. My Aunt Nancy has been a God send also. Did you ever meet her? She's Mom's sister that lived in North Carolina. They other sister is Jo.

[> [> [> Subject: UPDATE


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 16:21:03 06/25/05 Sat

ALMOST ALL GONE.
[> [> [> [> Subject: Saving money on shampoo


Author:
Cliff
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Date Posted: 20:27:48 06/25/05 Sat

Hi Stacy!

Hope you're having a good weekend, other than the fact that your hair is falling out! Wow, it sure goes quick once it starts! My dad lost his hair last year, when he was on Taxol, but he really didn't have much to lose! (He didn't lose all of his mustache--but he didn't have to shave very often!) Look at it this way: you won't have to worry about waking up with "bed head" for a while!

Yesterday was Patrick's birthday--my kid is 16 now! Since yesterday was a work day, I made his traditional birthday dinner tonight: london broil on the grill, potato salad, and corn on the cob--and, of course, a cake. Everything turned out great, and he had to admit that his old dad did a great job.
[> [> [> [> [> Subject: ADVANTAGES!


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 22:01:07 06/25/05 Sat

Believe it or not, there are advantages to losing your hair! A nice cool shower feels awesome on the head!! Save money on shampoo and conditioner, less of an electric bill since there's no blow drying, can leave your comb or brush at home, no time or money spent on styling or haircuts, like you said - no bed head, and when it grows back in... you get to try all kinds of new hair styles without having to cut it short to find out what it will look like.

Tell Patrick happy birthday for me. I know his Daddy's is coming up also very soon. Sounds like he had an awesome dinner.

[> [> [> [> [> [> Subject: 442 is an Oldsmobile


Author:
Mark
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Date Posted: 10:28:44 06/26/05 Sun

Well dag on it,I thought for sure you'd be the rule to the exception this time & keep your hair.7 more to go..your getting closer!It was good hanging out at your place the other day! Sorry I fell asleep on your couch...LOL!

Hey Mr.Forson,hows it going? Glad you stopped in to check on my baby sister!I remember you talking about wanting 68 or 69 Olds,glad you finally got one!
[> [> [> [> [> [> [> Subject: I KNEW THAT


Author:
Lil Sis
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Date Posted: 17:43:59 06/26/05 Sun

I actually knew that. I don't know why I was saying Buick. Brain fart I guess. I love those things. I remember when I was going out with John, his room-mate Harry drove a car carrier. One time he had the truck parked out front in Churchville with ALL 442's on it. I was in Heaven checking them all out.

I loved having you here the other day. Not a problem that you fell asleep. It gave me a chance to kick back in the recliner. Thanks for taking me over to Ruby's and driving my truck.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> Subject: What was she thinking?


Author:
Roy
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Date Posted: 00:53:06 08/23/05 Tue

Hey Mark, it's been a long time - too long. I was just thumbing down the list of messages and saw your car was in Car Craft - that's just too cool. I well remember the time you took me for a spin.
Hope all is going well for you. Take care.
[> [> [> Subject: Buick?


Author:
Roy
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Date Posted: 00:40:46 08/23/05 Tue

You messing with me? I can't believe it's taken me this long to write back - where does the time go. The baby is doing great - 20 months and looks just like her daddy - poor child - she's marked for life. I see your Mom's birthday is Thursday - hope you have a great time eating crabs - I sure miss those days.
Yes, I met both your Aunts - wonderful people. Well, it's 12:45 AM and I'm going to bed. Take care - talk to you soon. Roy
[> Subject: Hello


Author:
Bonnie
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Date Posted: 08:02:45 08/23/05 Tue

Hi Stacy, How are you doing? Your site has been quiet, and when I get on the older messages appear. I have been thinking of you and hoping that your stength and appetite have returned. My friend always has problems with both after a chemo treatment.
I saw a post from Jenny and Rodney. They are close friends of our oldest son, and their children are friends of our grandchildren---a lovely, lovely family. I did not realize that you had worked with Rodney.
I am praying that you are feeling better. Love and prayers, Bonnie

Subject: CRABS.at Bills..Moms Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!


Author:
Mark
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Date Posted: 20:57:37 08/22/05 Mon

Stacy,are you ready for the 25th? Moms's birthday & crabs at Bills Terrace Inn??!!!
[> Subject: YOU BETCHA!


Author:
Lil Sis
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Date Posted: 20:57:37 08/22/05 Mon

Tell Dad I need him to come pick me and Aunt Nancy up early. Or you can. Whichever works for you two.

I sure hope they agree with me!!


Subject: Morning Stacy


Author:
Al R
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Date Posted: 23:40:28 08/21/05 Sun

Just wanted to check in and see how the week of Chemo went, still thinkin of ya.......
[> Subject: HI AL


Author:
Lil Sis
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Date Posted: 22:59:23 08/19/05 Fri

Thanks for checking on me. I guess the chemo is going well. My white blood cell count dropped but not to a level that concerned them so I did get the second treatment. I haven't been as achy this week but my stomach is still a little funny. I can't eat very much.

Every night I go through about an hour where my temperature rises so I watch it very closely. I'm supposed to call the doctor if it get's above 100.5. But when it does get that high, it goes right back down. I'm always in the 99 range in the evenings and mornings. I will tell my doctor about it when I see him again. UNLESS, it stays at or above 100.5 for a continuous time.

I don't have much energy and my stamina is practically nill. I guess when I'm able to eat more and get more nutrition that will improve. I may have to start drinking "Boost" or "Ensure".

Again, thanks for checking on me!! Boy I miss the car cruises!!

[> [> Subject: Hi Stacy


Author:
Cliff
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Date Posted: 23:15:24 08/19/05 Fri

Hi Stacy!

So you're having the typical Navelbine white cell reduction? That's to be expected, and it will go back up shortly. At least it didn't drop too low, and you were able to get your treatment. I hope it works well for you. I hope you're able to eat more soon!

Patrick and I just got back from OC today. Weather was GREAT the past 2 days. We had fun, though I didn't get to go parasailing! I did that last year, and wanted to do it again. Maybe I could get you up there with me!
[> [> [> Subject: OC


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 22:49:41 08/21/05 Sun

Do you think your visit to OC was beneficial where Patrick is concerned??
[> [> [> [> Subject: Beach


Author:
Cliff
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Date Posted: 23:40:28 08/21/05 Sun

I think it went well. We had a couple days of peace--no chores, no arguing--and we had fun. He still has a long way to go--he still didn't want to get any pictures of us together!

Subject: Hi Cuz


Author:
Terri
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Date Posted: 22:09:41 08/17/05 Wed

Hey Stace,

Glad to hear the chemo is going well. A couple of weeks ago I had to catch one of our patients from going down when she had her first seizure from a brain tumor. She is currently doing much better now that she is on dilantin.

Keep your chin up and your friends and family close. Your positive attitude and their care are the best medicine out there. Love to you, Mark, Uncle Buddy and Aunt Barbara.

Terri

Subject: NEW NEWS


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 16:21:42 08/13/05 Sat

I saw an "aura" again last night like I did before the seizure in June. As soon as it went away I felt light headed and couldn't even think straight enough to tell my Dad my Mom's phone number. My Dad happened to unexpectly drop in last night about an hour before the aura. I got on the couch just in case I would have another seizure. Thank GOD I didn't. I did take one of those steroid pills hoping it would take away any possible swelling causing that aura. Then I laid down and just rested.

I called the doctor this morning and told him what happened. He wasn't surprised and said that I may have "localized seizures" from time to time from the electric impulses in my brain. I said "even though I didn't lose consciousness?" He said yes. He said that the Depakote (anti-seizure) drug detects that there is a problem and kicks in. That's why I didn't lose consciousness, the drug did exactly what it was supposed to.

I told him I took the steroid drug for the swelling. He told me NOT to do that.

Since my temperature last night only went up to 99.5, he said I can come in today and get chemo.

My Mom's boss knew what was going on because she always asks my Mom how I'm doing. Mom told her and Wendy (her boss) told her to go home. So Mom is here and she will be taking me to chemo today.

My doctor made me feel a lot better about having that aura. It takes away some of my paranoia.

The Man Upstairs is really looking after me. Both times I've had problems... someone was here with me when normally I would have been alone at those times in the day. Thank you LORD!!! And thank You for having my Dad with me!!

[> Subject: SPECIAL THANKS


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 10:50:18 08/12/05 Fri

I just wanted to send a SPECIAL THANKS to Mom's boss, WENDY, for sending Mom home. I really really really appreciate it!!!! And of course it's always comforting to have your Mom with you when you could really use her. Thanks again!
Stacy

[> Subject: Hey Stacy


Author:
Cliff
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Date Posted: 16:21:42 08/13/05 Sat

Sounds like it must have been a bit of a frightening experience. BUT I'm sure you were happy to find out from the doc that it was nothing unexpected, and that the drug was really doing its job. That's good to know! What's the latest on your chemo?

Subject: pictures of your old crew


Author:
Gene
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Date Posted: 10:23:50 08/12/05 Fri

Yo stacy, I see yr hanging in there. your a wonderfull child of God. Don't forget to pray for your self.
[> Subject: HEY GENE


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 10:23:50 08/12/05 Fri

Great to see you on here, Gene!! I couldn't help but laugh from the irony when I read the wonderful child of God part. Although you know how deep my faith is... right before I read your post I was having my Mother listen to a song you introduced to me by Sir Mix-a-Lot. You should remember which one that was. LOL!!!

Thank you so much for the pictures of Jae B. She looks happy. What is her husbands name??


Subject: THURSDAY


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 10:15:58 08/12/05 Fri

Well, if all goes well, I start my chemo tomorrow. I also find out the results of my CT scan tomorrow. Sure could use some prayers.

I haven't been feeling all that great today. I feel like I'm right on the verge of getting something. I took my temperature at 7:30 this evening and it was 99.59. At 9:00 this evening it was 100 even. And I feel slightly achy. I hope it's nothing. If I have a temperature, I'm sure my doctor won't start the chemo yet. I hope I haven't caught a bug.

[> Subject: Good luck!


Author:
Cliff
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Date Posted: 22:54:40 08/10/05 Wed

I hope all goes well. If you have some kind of infection, the doc probably won't start you on Navelbine. My dad had to skip a week when he had a fever. Obviously you wouldn't want to reduce your white cell count when you're trying to fight an infection. Hopefully you'll feel better, the scan results will be as expected, and you'll get back to kicking some tumor a**!
[> [> Subject: NO FEVER


Author:
cautious2day
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Date Posted: 09:36:31 08/11/05 Thu

I don't have a fever this morning, thank GOD. But I am feeling a little nervous about today. You would think I'd approach it like it's "old hat" but for some reason I'm nervous about finding out the results of my scan. And I don't feel 100% yet from everything I've been through since I had the seizure and that concerns me with going on chemo. I'm trying to be upbeat about it but it's not easy.

Keep up the encouragement, I need it. And of course the prayers.

[> Subject: REPLY TO STACY


Author:
Jenny (and Rodney) Irons
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Date Posted: 10:02:44 08/12/05 Fri

Dear God, I lift up Stacy to you. I thank you for the example she is to many others, of courage and of hope. I know, though, that she is nervous about today. I ask you to please comfort her and give her YOUR peace. I ask you to help her draw closer and closer to you, under the protection of your love and draw from your strength.
I pray for the doctors that are caring for Stacy, Lord. I ask you to please give them wisdom to treat her specifically. I ask you to please let Stacy hear good news from the results of her cat scan today. If the results are not what she hoped for, I pray that you will give her your
strength and your comfort.
Lord, I pray for Stacy's family and close friends. I can't even imagine how hard this is, to see the suffering she has had to endure. It is so hard to understand the sickness, crime and evil that is prevelant in our world
today...but your word tells us that this world is under the control of Satan and that you WILL return, that you will wipe away every tear. I know that you sent your own son to suffer so that we could have a relationship with you, out of love for us. I don't understand when I see someone as young and vibrant as Stacy suffer so. I pray you will help us to have faith in what the bible says, to
focus on you regardless of the trials we see here.
Lord, I thank you for the sweet strengh I see in Stacy, for the example she is. I pray for her day today, Lord, that you will help her to sense your presence with her as she goes through her doctor visit. I thank you for the encouragement so many have been to Stacy. I ask you to help her family to know her needs, to continue to assist her in whatever needs she many have, for encouragement and support. All these things I ask in Jesus' name....Amen


Stacy, I will continue to lift you up in prayer. Your website inspires me, and breaks my heart. You have gone through so much... With Love, Jenny
[> [> Subject: THANK YOU SO MUCH


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 10:15:58 08/12/05 Fri

Jenny, I THANK YOU SO MUCH for your prayers!!! When someone openly prays for me, it brings tears to my eyes. I have overwhelming gratitude for the compassion that people are giving me. I've only actually met you once when Rodney brought me over to meet you and I thought so much of you. I love how you home school your children and openly show your faith in God.

Although I always could use the prayers, I am so happy you prayed for my family and friends. I always ask for Angels to be sent to sit on their shoulders as well because I know they need them also. I can't imagine being in their shoes. Often I have said that it's easier to be the patient, at least I know I'm doing everything I can. Family and friends often feel helpless and feel they can't do anything. I can't imagine how that feels from their perspective. I too pray for them, but I'm glad you did also.

Thank you for coming to my site and checking it out. I hope you visit again soon. Please tell Rodney hello for me. He was one of my favorite guys at the office, such a sweetheart. I hope your boy is doing well. I guess he's getting close to 3 now??


Subject: CT SCAN RESULTS


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 15:24:47 08/11/05 Thu

I went to the doctor today and received the CT scan results. I found out that I now have masses in both lungs. From what I can tell, I have around 10 masses between the two lungs. Most are small but the main one in the left lung is about 2/3's of an inch now.


I did not receive chemo today because of my 100 degree fever last night. The doctor want me to take my temp four times today then again in the morning.


If all goes well and I don't have a temperature then I will get chemo tomorrow. Otherwise it will be next week.




I added another link in the header section of this web site. The web site is chemocare.com. It is Scott Hamilton's web site. I found a lot of useful information there. Or click the logo below.


Subject: CRABS


Author:
Mark
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Date Posted: 21:10:50 08/10/05 Wed

Hey Little Sister.....are you up for some of Bills Terrace Inn crabs next week??? like tuesday possibly????I think dad is headed to Virginia wednesday.

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Date Posted: 09:20:28 08/05/05 Fri

[> [> Subject: YUMMY!


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 14:13:56 08/05/05 Fri

Heck YEA I'm ready for some Terrace Inn crabs Tuesday works for me! Just let me know for sure.
[> [> [> Subject: OKIE DOKIE


Author:
Mark
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Date Posted: 15:44:50 08/05/05 Fri

tuesday is good for me & dad,now all we have to do is confirm tuesday with mom & Aunt Nancy.
[> [> [> [> Subject: CRABS


Author:
Lil Sis
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Date Posted: 22:08:20 08/05/05 Fri

I'll talk to Mom. Aunt Nancy left to visit her daughters in North Carolina today. I think she's coming back Sunday. I don't know if she'll want to go or not. She doesn't like crabs.
[> [> [> [> [> Subject: CRABS???YUMMY!!!!!TOMORROW?????


Author:
Mark
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Date Posted: 20:16:56 08/08/05 Mon

Well,are we still on for crabs tomorrow night????are mom & Aunt Nancy going?

Guess who has jury duty tomorrow????yep,yours truely!
Maybe I'll get some great interesting fun mysterious case to be on!
[> [> [> [> [> [> Subject: JURY DUTY


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 21:51:12 08/08/05 Mon

Hopefully you'll tet out at a decent time. Yea, we are still on. I know for sure Mom is going. I'm not 100% sure about Aunt Nancy. I told Dad that I'll need to be picked up. But we need to be there early. I will call them tomorrow to make sure they have crabs.
[> [> [> [> [> [> [> Subject: jury duty


Author:
Mark
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Date Posted: 23:01:12 08/08/05 Mon

hopefully I get out at a decent hour...my luck we'll be there till 8PM!!!!

I'm hungry for some good crabs!
[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Subject: jury duty & crabs


Author:
Mark
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Date Posted: 13:16:47 08/10/05 Wed

got out of jury duty fairly early..never served as a jurer..they didn't use any of us,we were there incase they needed us though.

The crabs were delicious! Are we going back for moms birthday in a couple weeks??????????
[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Subject: MOM'S BIRTHDAY


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 21:10:50 08/10/05 Wed

Mom would like to go back so I imagine we will. I know they will be great, as they always are!!

Subject: MONDAY'S DOCTOR UPDATE


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 23:56:49 08/08/05 Mon

Just to update you on my doctor appointment from yesterday:

I have a CT scan this Wednesday to see how the cancer in my chest is doing. He will use these films as a "measuring tool" for future scans.


As of yesterday, he took me off the steroid. I asked him how we will know if I actually should be on it since it reduces swelling. He said I would start feeling just like I did before the seizure.


If all goes well , which we expect it to, I will start chemo again on Thursday, August 11th. If the scans aren't too bad, I will go on a drug called Navelbine. That is the drug I was hoping he would put me on. He did say that if the scans come back and they look like I'm in trouble, then he would put me on something called Carboplatin and either Taxol or Taxotere. But he's expecting the scans to look the same or only a little worse since I have had very little pain.



He's allowing me to go back on the blood thinner. That's great because they haven't been able to get blood from my port in a long time. I'm getting tired of stuck in the arm!! OUCH!


Also if all goes well, I may be able to go off the anti-seizure drug after 6 months.


[> Subject: Navel beans


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Cliff
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Date Posted: 13:17:33 08/07/05 Sun

What? The doctor said you have navel beans? Beans in your navel????? I guess those would be easier to deal with than kidney beans..... You know, Navelbine seemed to be working well for my dad. The doctor saw shrinkage in the tumor after only two treatments. Unfortunately, other complications arose, so we'll never know just how successful that drug would have been. But it seemed to start working pretty quickly. I hope it does the same for you! I know it caused my dad to feel fatigued, and as you already know, it causes a significant drop in the white cell count at first. But he didn't have any real serious side effects.

Good luck!
[> [> Subject: NAVELS


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 09:18:53 08/08/05 Mon

Hopefully my cocktail will be like my fuzzy navels.

I remember that's what you said about your Dad. I have to admit, that is encouraging. This is the drug that I have a good feeling about. I have felt good about it since the first time he mentioned it months ago. I felt good about the Gemcitabine and it worked great for months.

I don't like drugs that have an X in them, they don't seem to work. I've had Taxol, Taxotere, and Xeloda. I like the drugs that remind me of a drink. Gemcitabine = Jim Beam. Navelbine = Fuzzy Navel. It provides entertainment value.

My doctor told me about the blood counts. He doesn't expect it to be much worse than when I was on the Gemcitabine. I just hope he remembers to expect the unexpected with me.

[> [> [> Subject: Fuzzy Navel Beans


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Cliff
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Date Posted: 23:56:49 08/08/05 Mon

I hope it works well for you. Yeah, your white count will drop at first, but even in my dad's case, the count went back up after a week or so.

Hey--maybe you can ask for Navelbine with Grenadine!

Subject: wow..youve been thru alot!


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jeff adamson
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Date Posted: 21:33:48 08/06/05 Sat

stacey, Its been so long since we spoke last. You been thru so much yet still are so strong. Drop me an email when you are feeling up to another motorcycle ride. Alot has happened in my life too but nothing in comparison to you. I still have you on our prayer list at church. God bless you.

Subject: PORT-A-CATH INFO


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 19:30:19 08/03/05 Wed

As you may know, I have a PORT-A-CATH for chemotherapy. I just wanted to post information about ports so there is a better understanding about them.

A "port-a-cath" is surgically inserted in your upper chest wall (the space between your collarbone and your breast) to make chemotherapy easier and more comfortable for you. The port is about the size of a quarter, only thicker, and will show only as a bump underneath the skin. There are several benefits to having a port:

No need to find a vein every time you receive chemo. A special needle fits right into the port, so all you feel is the stick, not the poking, prodding, and false tries in your arm. You can use something called "EMLA" cream to lessen the feeling.

The medication goes right into the main blood supply entering the heart, so it can be sent quickly and efficiently to all parts of the body. The tube on mine goes directly into the subclavian vein. Some types of chemotherapy can be very uncomfortable if injected into a vein just under your skin. The port avoids this potential discomfort.

Getting blood for blood tests can usually be done through the port, decreasing the number of times you need to have a vein "stuck."




Port inserted in vein for chemotherapy

A Port
B Catheter [tubing]
C Subclavian vein
D Superior Vena cava
E Pulmonary vein
F Aorta
G Heart

[> Subject: Thanks again


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Donna
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Date Posted: 23:03:19 08/02/05 Tue

Hey Stacy - thanks for the info about the Port-a-cath -- Mom will have one put in tomorrow. Thank you again for posting all that you have, and your request for prayers for her. She's made it through the surgery, still regaining strength. First chemo treatment will be Thursday or Friday, and then she'll come home this weekend. Please keep her in your prayers, as you are in ours.
[> [> Subject: I'M SO GLAD IT WENT WELL


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 10:34:39 08/03/05 Wed

I'm glad you're Mom is doing well. It does take a while to regain strength.

Wow, I didn't know she was getting a port-a-cath. I'm so glad I put that on there then. It has been a blessing for me. My veins are terrible. If she finds it painful to get stuck in the port, tell her to ask her doctor for a prescription for EMLA cream. She would also need to get "Tegaderm" bandages. She would need to put the cream on the area of the port (she'll be able to feel the lump) about 2 hours before getting stuck. It makes the area completely numb. The doctor may tell her she only needs to put it on an hour before. Trust me from experience, you need 2 to 2 1/2 hours for it to work good.

Do you know what the name of the chemo drug is?

[> [> [> Subject: Chemo


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Donna
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Date Posted: 19:30:19 08/03/05 Wed

Hi Stacy,
Thinking about you today.. hoping the outcome of your CT scan is encouraging. You asked about Mom's chemo -- I don't know the name/names yet. The Dr. told us after surgery that it's a mix of 3 different drugs.... We were pretty tired at that point and trying to take in everything, so we didn't ask about the specifics of chemo. She lost so much blood during surgery, that we were just concerned that she recover from that. Within the next week, I'm sure we'll have that info, and much more. Thanks again for the port info.
[> Subject: Port-A-Cath


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Bonnie
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Date Posted: 09:17:25 08/03/05 Wed

Hi Stacy, It is good to see you looking better, and I am happy that you are also feeling better. I read the information about the port-a-cath as my friend also has one. Like you she finds it so much better than the vein route! However, I was with her yesterday for blood work and for the first time the nurse could not get blood from the port. It seems that sometimes a thin blood film develops that does not let the blood flow. The problem was easily corrected by med inserted to disolve the film. The med had to stay in for 1/2 hour to open the port. It was a painless procedure, and the nurse explained that some ports get the film and some don't. She also explained that a tiny bit of the med was left in the port which was a good thing as it will continue to work until the next blood test. Although it was painless I still hope that you don't have the problem. It was the first for Bernice and she has had the port since early Spring. She had to go the vein route yesterday and was not happy about that. Like you said the port is so much better than the vein.

I finally went back to the garden shop and bought an ornamental pepper plant. I was surprised to learn that they are edible. I think that I told you they were not. I have not tried any yet. I just think that they are pretty in a pot or garden. I bought a purple (my favorite)one like yours, and this time they had a red and yellow one that has hot peppers so I bought one of those too. I am sure that Jack will try one of those as he likes hot peppers. Anyway I wanted you to know that they are edible.

It is good seeing you doing so much better. That was a difficut journey!! I enjoyed my visit with you, and the time went so fast that when I left I felt that I had stayed too long as we talked so much-----please forgive me for that.

We send prayers for a good CAT scan today and your continued improvement. Love and prayers, Bonnie & Jack
[> [> Subject: GREAT TO SEE YOU


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 10:41:56 08/03/05 Wed

Are you kidding???? You definitely did not stay too long!!! No apologies necessary. It was so great to see you. Thank you so much for coming to the hospital. It's been ages since I've seen you. I love both of the plants you gave me, they are doing quite well out on my deck. While I was still in the hospital, another friend of mine named Bonnie took them to her house and nursed them until I got home. She's real good with flowers and kept them in great shape.

I'm not going to eat the peppers, they are too pretty. But I appreciate the information. You'll have to let me know how they taste.

I have to take a blood thinner for my port. I ALWAYS have that problem. If I don't take a thinner it is guaranteed to not give blood. However it always accepts anything that is given. I can get chemo through it. Of course after that it will give blood. But if I'm just having bloodwork done, I have to have the Coumadin. It can be quite a nuisance. I had a port back in 1999 and never had an ounce of trouble with it. I should have kept that one in.

Thank you for the CT scan prayers. I could use them!!


Subject: ME NOW


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 11:47:57 07/30/05 Sat

Here's a picture from just this passed Thursday. It will show that I have done a lot of healing since the hospital. Mark was helping me take care of a lot of odds and ends that day and Dad took a picture of us together.


[> Subject: AND ANOTHER


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 11:47:57 07/30/05 Sat



Subject: MORE PRAYERS NEEDED


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 08:46:03 07/30/05 Sat

I have a request from everyone. Another friend of mine has recently found out she has cancer. She has ovarian cancer. Her name is Betty Lowe and she is the mother of my friends Pam and Donna and we have known each other all our lives. Donna and Pam lost their Dad to brain cancer approximately two years ago.

Donna sent an email to update us. This is part of it:

She will have surgery Saturday, this Saturday the 31st. She tested positive for ovarian cancer, but this dr. says he's not sure if it's ovarian cancer or not. Her surgery is scheduled for 12:30pm and will take from 2 to 6 hours, depending on what they find. This will be done at Sinai by Dr. Abbass. He's gyn/ob oncologist. From what we know, he has an excellent reputation.
Donna

Please put Betty, Donna, Pam and their families in your prayers.

[> Subject: Thank you very much


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Pam
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Date Posted: 18:29:38 07/28/05 Thu

Stacy, Thank you for all your support with Mom. This is in God's hands more than ever. The hardest part is waiting and wondering. Not much we can do at this point but pray. We will keep you updated. Take Care and keep in touch.
[> Subject: Friends


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Donna
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Date Posted: 21:06:38 07/28/05 Thu

Hey Stacy,
Thank you again. We appreciate all prayers and well wishes.
You're always in our thoughts and prayers too, please know that.
[> [> Subject: THE FAMILY


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 12:38:52 07/29/05 Fri

This is a family photo from probably over 20 years ago.


[> [> [> Subject: THAT Picture


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Donna
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Date Posted: 23:06:56 07/29/05 Fri

Cracking up looking at that picture. First time I've laughed today -- thanks Stacy.
[> [> [> [> Subject: I'M THINKING OF YOUR MOM


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 08:46:03 07/30/05 Sat

I think that's the ONLY picture I have of everyone in your family. Actually I have very few of anyone from way back then. I'm glad it made you laugh.

I'm thinking of your Mom today as she goes in for surgery. I am confident all will go well with the surgery and my prayers are with her for the recovery process and when finding out the results. There is so much they can do with Ovarian Cancer. I hope she is willing to try.

It's going to be a long day for you and Pam. Take it easy and I hope it's a good day for you.


Subject: Hi Stacy


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Date Posted: 20:18:28 07/28/05 Thu

Good evening!
Thanks for your expression of sympathy after the passing of my dad. With all the time I've spent out of town this month, I hadn't been able to keep up with this site. I knew you were in the hospital, but I didn't realize how bad that rash was until I saw the pictures. I'm so glad you're recovering from that! And I really appreciate your taking the time in the midst of all this to send me a card. My mom has never met you, but I just talked to her on the phone a few minutes ago, and she asked about you, and wanted me to let you know that she wishes you well. Needless to say, things have been difficult for her--she and my dad were married for 46 years, so losing him is the hardest thing she's ever had to deal with.

I'm going back to work tomorrow--it will be my first day of work all month. It has been quite a month, hasn't it?
[> Subject: HI CLIFF


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 03:27:42 07/27/05 Wed

You're very welcome. I'm just so sorry I had to. I imagine when it's time for your Mom to move here with your sister, it's going to be even harder for a while on her. She's probably going to want to just "go home".

Yes it has been quite a month. For me, it has been quite a ride for two months. I'm ready for all this crap to be done with so I can get back to living my life. Even if that means being on chemo. I just hope my next chemo is gentle enough on me that I can function well and feel well and still work.

[> [> Subject: Good Luck!


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Cliff
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Date Posted: 22:52:50 07/27/05 Wed

Stacy, I hope your next chemo works well. Do you know yet what you'll get? I know you mentioned Navelbine. My dad didn't have a lot of side effects with that, other than some fatigue. And it seemed to be working. The doc saw shrinkage in his tumor after only two treatments.

I got some good news today. My mom got a contract on the house already. And it's a CASH offer, so she doesn't have to wait for the buyer to get a mortgage, and there won't be an appraisal. They want to close by 9/1. The contract is for less than she asked for, but I personally thought the asking price was too high anyway. The realtor agreed to reduce her commission, and my mom will walk away with the money she'd hoped to get. Now, my sister and her husband will put their townhouse in Pasadena up for sale, and look for a single-family home with a mother-in-law apartment for my mom. Mom will contribute to the purchase from the proceeds of her sale. So hopefully she'll be back here very soon. She needs to be close to her family.
[> [> [> Subject: GREAT FOR YOUR MOM!


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 07:28:56 07/28/05 Thu

WOW! That was fast for your Mom.

I don't know yet about the chemo. We had talked about Navelbine a while back ago. But to tell you the truth I don't know if he'd want to go that direction now since it's so hard on the white blood cells since I've been in and out of the hospital. But I really don't know. I see him again on Monday. If I'm well enough from all I've been through, we'll talk about my options. I imagine he'll set me up for another CT scan soon but he hasn't said.

Since I've been home from the hospital, I've been fighting an infection. It's called Clostridium difficile, nicknamed C-Diff. Not that you really want the details but for other possible cancer patients reading this site....

Clostridium difficile or C. difficile is a bacterium that causes diarrhea and more serious intestinal conditions such as colitis. It is the most common cause of infectious diarrhea in hospitalized patients in the industrialized world. It is also one of the most common infections in hospitals and long-term care facilities.

The use of antibiotics increases the chances of developing C. difficile. Treatment with antibiotics alters the normal levels of good bacteria found in the intestines and colon. When there are fewer of these good bacteria, C. difficile can thrive and produce toxins that can cause an infection. The combination of the presence of C. difficile in hospitals and health care settings and the number of people receiving antibiotics in these settings can lead to frequent outbreaks.

Symptoms include:

watery diarrhea (at least three bowel movements per day for two or more days)
fever
loss of appetite
nausea
abdominal pain/tenderness

I had most of the symptoms. One of the unlisted symptoms for me was severe pain in the bathroom and A LOT more frequency. It was probably because of the Steven's Johnson Syndrome and my membranes being so irritated. Anyway, I'm on an antibiotic and I'm a lot better. Not 100% but I'm getting there. I'm still weak but laying in a hospital bed for two weeks then sitting on your butt for two weeks can probably make you weak regardless of what you're going through.

[> [> [> [> Subject: Geez!


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Cliff
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Date Posted: 20:18:28 07/28/05 Thu

The fun just never stops, does it? I hope all this stuff clears up soon, so you can get back to your "mission" of beating that cancer.

I hadn't thought about the white blood cell issue with Navelbine. I know it tends to have a rather strong effect on them when treatment first begins. When my dad was on it, the third treatment was canceled because his white count had dropped too low. It went back up after that. But I guess if your white blood cells have been busy lately, the doc might not want to strain them any more!

My mom knew all along that if anything ever happened to my dad, she'd have to sell the house. She met with the realtor the weekend after Dad passed away. The contract came from the FIRST people to look at the house! It looks like she'll be coming down here over Labor Day weekend. I'll probably go up there with one of my brothers, and my brother-in-law, to help her move. She'll stay with another of my brothers, in Savage, until my sister and her husband find a new house with an apartment for her.

As always, Good Luck! I'm STILL ready for that dinner and car cruise once you feel up to it!

Subject: ADWARES


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 15:13:38 07/27/05 Wed

I have recently been informed that two of my readers have had their computers infected with "adwares" when they log into my site. One told me it is a "VOY" issue and the other isn't sure.

I just wanted to apologize if that has happened to you. I hope you have the appropriate anti-virus/anti-adware and spyware programs on your computers to remove them.

I have sent a report to voy.com asking them to look into this. Hopefully this problem will be taken care of VERY soon.

Sorry for any inconvenience this has caused.

Stacy


Subject: SILENCE ISN'T ALWAYS GOLDEN


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 12:17:09 07/27/05 Wed

It sure got quiet in here. What's going on out there? What's going on in your lives?? Update me!!

Subject: stop by to say hi


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Curtis_Racing
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Date Posted: 15:44:50 07/25/05 Mon

i hope you are feeling better

Subject: BREAST CANCER BREAKTHROUGH DRUG


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 22:52:12 07/21/05 Thu

According to the news stations, there is BREAST CANCER BREAKTHROUGH DRUG, called Herceptin. I just wanted to let you all know ahead of time that this particular drug will NOT work for me. I am HER2 NEGATIVE. This drug is only good for HER2 POSITIVE patients.

Subject: WOW


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 17:41:02 07/21/05 Thu

I didn't scare you all off, did I?

I don't have the rash anymore on my face and the rash on my chest is a lot better. I will heal and my skin will go back to looking normal but there is a healing process that has to happen.

I heard a better description of what the rash actually looks like today. Someone said it appears similar to "shingles" if you've ever heard of that.

As for the hair loss... oh well, been here, done this, I guess I'll do it again.

Anyone out there??

[> Subject: Helloooooooooooooooooooo


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Steve
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Date Posted: 21:08:17 07/20/05 Wed

Hope your feeling better:o)sorry you can't make it to bsr day i will be there to take pics so i will send them to you take care
[> Subject: Didn't scare me off!


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Date Posted: 23:05:26 07/20/05 Wed

Hey Stacey,

I've been keeping tract of your most recent ordeal. My mother went thorugh pretty much the same thing with her treatments as you have(from looking at your pictures), so I can appreciate what you've just gone thorugh. It's strange, while it was all going on, I figured that you would be more worried about your "crittters" than you would be about yourself. I am glad you are feeling better, and will be over to see you shortly. You are in both my and Betty's thoughts often.

Our love and our best
Jack and Betty
[> Subject: Glad Your Home!!


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Jenn
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Date Posted: 13:57:26 07/21/05 Thu

hi Stacy!! Glad to hear you are home! I have been wanting to write you but I haven't had much time my dad has been in the ICU for 3 weeks now & tomorrow he is being moved to Harford Memorial Re-hab to learn to walk & eat again. The Hospital called us in last Thursday & told us he wouldn't make it until Noon but he is a fighter (just like you) & he wants to live & he is here. Thank The Lord!!!!!!
I have been praying for you & my Dad for a fast recovery. you are in my thoughts each & every day. Gotta go for now, when I get more time I will write...
Take Care!!
[> Subject: No-One


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Anthony
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Date Posted: 17:41:02 07/21/05 Thu

Well I am "OUT THERE" Good to see that you are back on-line. It was good to talk with you the other day. I wish I was able to do more, but you are in all my prayers. I am doing ok, had a chicken die today, do not know what caused it. The Roster will be lonely now, but still has the African Geese to keep him company. How is your family? I have a few lizards and frogs hanging around. Lady the dog is chasing the lizards. But she is having fun, her 2 pups are getting big. Goldie is ok also, has been sick but the doctor is working with her. Oh well I miss you and pray for your best. GBY

Subject: Good to hear you are feeling better


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Date Posted: 14:27:08 07/21/05 Thu

Hey Stacy,

I am so glad to hear you are doing better. I am sorry I hadn't asked your mom about you in a while.

I just want you to know how much you change other people's lives. You are such a strong person, I don't know how you do it. But just reading everything here makes me feel so much admiration for you.

I don't know how you do it. GOOD LUCK!! I will keep checking in with your mom!

Take care.

Gillian

Subject: FOR SALE


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 03:18:27 07/21/05 Thu

I have a 70 pound punching bag that I'm looking to sell. It's never been used. It's been out of the box one time to look at it.

I'm looking for$ 50.00 OBO for it.

Here's some details:

Century Vinyl Heavy Training Bag

Durable black vinyl shell, fiber filled. Heavy-duty chains and sewn web straps secure the bag for hanging. FREE Bag Gloves, pull on style with elastic wrist and soft rolled palm grip. Available in Black.

Please email me if you're interested at travistrittjunky@hotmail.com or just post that you're interested here.

Subject: THANK YOU'S


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 10:43:55 07/20/05 Wed



I wanted to send out a special THANK YOU to all the people in my personal life that contributed to making my hospital stay as "painless" as possible. Most of the staff and doctors at the hospital were excellent but I want to MAKE SURE my friends AND family (Mom, Dad, Mark, and Aunt Nancy in particular) know how much I appreciate everything they did for me WITHOUT EVEN ASKING!!

I was in the hospital for a total of 14 days. That's a lot of time to spend in a hospital bed, but for a caregiver that's A LOT of time to be taking care of someone else's obligations. Especially someone with pets. My family stepped right up to the plate in each of their own ways. Everyone was absolutely wonderful!! There were frequent visits to the hospital, many "check-up" phone calls, special food requests met, changes of clothes brought to the hospital, dirty clothes taken home AND washed, my babies were taken care of from all angles (that includes walkings, potty trips, visits, general looking after in the AM and PM, feedings, picking up crickets, cage and litter box cleanings for furry animals and reptiles, and whatever else was needed...), mail deliveries, miscellaneous message deliveries, and EVERYTHING ELSE!!

Thank you to my friends that took care of my house and my babies also. I didn't have to worry about anything about not being home for that amont of time.

Everyone just went into auto pilot and took care of everything.

Thank you so much!!!! I love you all and appreciate you all. God sure blessed me with some good people in my life.





[> Subject: THANK YOU!!


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 10:43:55 07/20/05 Wed



Subject: MORE NEWS


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 20:25:13 07/19/05 Tue

I saw my oncologoist unexpectedly today without an appointment. Since I was in the building for the eye doctor, I went to see him because my feet, legs, and ankles are REALLY swollen. They've never been THIS swollen. Well, it ended up being a really GOOD doctors appointment. He took one look at my face and the lack of rash that is there now and he is very happy with my progress since it was just Friday when I was released from the hospital. I am supposed to see him anyway this coming Monday, the 25th but I saw him a week early. He still wants to see me on the 25th.

Because I am doing SO WELL...

Since I'm not getting radiation anymore, he is ready to start weaning me OFF the steroid. I can cut that dosage in half as of today. And take it that way for a week. I may get to get cut THAT in half when I see him next week.

I do NOT have to continue to "washings" of my ears since they are looking MUCH better. I was using a special powder mixed with water to "wash" my ears with, then use an antibiotic cream to prevent infection. He said my ears look good enough to leave them alone now.

He doesn't think I'll have any scarring from the rashes and the blistering anywhere.

Great, huh?!?!?!?!?!?

As for the swelling in my feet, he thinks some of that is because of the steroid. So, since I'm cutting that in half as of today, that should be starting to relieved just from that. But he is putting me on a fluid pill and potassium to help it along.

I'm telling you what, the Man Upstairs really looks down on me and keeps me in the palm of His Hands. If someone has to go through all this and there is a positive and a negative side to it, He definitely has me on the positive side. He has given me the "best case scenario" it seems with all my bumps in the road. I feel so blessed. It could have been and still could be SO MUCH WORSE and it's NOT!!! I imagine all your prayers are keeping me at the top of his list. I sure hope so!!! Thank you all so much for your prayers and positive thoughts!!


Subject: A TURN FOR THE BETTER!


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 17:24:40 07/19/05 Tue

I went to the eye doctor doctor to follow-up with the blurry vision. He still sees no permanent problems with my eyse. There is still a little inflammation but that is to be expected. They are actually in better shape then he thought they would be. He thinks the blurriness is from the eyedrops I've been using. When the Steven's Johnson Syndrome kicked in, he put me on two different kinds of eyedrops. One to provide moisture and the other to provide protection to the eyes. At this point, my eyes don't need that much moisture and/or protection so I will be decreasing those doses immediately. The blurryness should begin improving quickly. GREAT NEWS!!

Subject: PICTURES


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 09:15:43 07/18/05 Mon

Be prepared. Here are some pictures from my recent stay at Good Samaritan Hospital. This is what I looked like throughout the Steven's Johnson Syndrome.

OFF TO RADIATION THE WEEK BEFORE THE HOSPITAL STAY



FIRST DAY 7-2-05 IN HOSPITAL WITH FEVER



THEN THE RASH BEGINS






BLISTERS BEHIND AND INSIDE MY EARS




BLISTERS POPPING - YOUCH!!!





USING A STERILE WATER RINSE FOR CLEAN UP THEN AN ANTIBIOTIC CREAM!!




DAY 8




At this point I don't have any pictures of what I look like now. They are still in the camera. But I look MUCH better. The hair is gone completely, no blistering although I still have to do the clean-up of my ears real good everyday so an infection doesn't get in there.

At one point early on, I have two biopsies done on my back to make sure the sure the rash was clearly a reaction to the drug. It was. They wanted to make sure it wasn't another kind of reaction including a food reaction or even tissue dying. It proved drug reaction proving Steven's Johnson Syndrome.

I will be taking this week for "recovery" then I will see my doctor sometime next week to see what's next on my list of "things to do".


Thank you all so much for your prayers, well wishes, and concern. Although it was a long stay at the hospital, I felt like I was in the right place. I had some incredible people around me. The nursing staff and doctors were WONDERFUL!! My friends took care of my house and babies and other miscellaneous stuff, and my family gave me incredible support. Thank you so much everyone!! My gratitude is boundless and I can't even begin to tell you how much your support means to me.
[> Subject: ONE MORE PICTURE


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 09:15:43 07/18/05 Mon

ONE MORE I FORGOT TO POST



Subject: STEVENS JOHNSON SYNDROME


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 23:56:25 07/17/05 Sun

Hello everyone. I woke up Saturday morning, July 2nd, with a 101.3 fever and mouth pain. I had been having problems with my mouth since I started the steroid back in June. But since I was now developing a fever, I called my radiation doctor. He told me to go to the ER since my fever was already up that high at 9:30 in the morning. Steroids usually can mask a true fever, it could actually be higher. He turned the case over to Dr. Hahn, my chemo doctor, and sent me to the hospital.

It seems as though I was in the hospital for 14 days being treated for the syndrome called TEVENS JOHNSON SYNDROME. It is from a reaction to the anti-seizure drug the doctor put me on back on June 5th when I had the seizure. Evidently it can take a little while to rear it's ugly little head to show you that you're allergic to it.

Anyway, I found out this can be a fatal syndrome and I'm once again very blessed to be here to tell you about it. I'm not sure how bad my doctor is considering my case on that meter but I still feel very blessed to be here. My intentions of kicking this thing's butt and riding in 4-wheel drive through the pot-holes in streets are still in full gear!!

I am still on a LOT of medications and will be for some time. I am on Morphine (pain killer), Benadryl (allergy), and Ambien (to sleep)to name a few. These drugs here are the ones that keep me pretty loopy now. Hopefully everything is making sense, if not, I'm gonna blame it on the drugs, LOL!!


This is what I could come up with from the internet about my condition:

Stevens-Johnson syndrome (SJS) is a severe disorder of mucous membranes. It can have signs and symptoms similar to a skin condition that causes blistering and erosion of the skin and mucous membranes, especially in the mouth. Doctors believe this disorder is an allergic or hypersensitivity reaction. Signs and symptoms often appear suddenly. These include pain in the affected mucous membranes even before erosions develop.

In some cases, the cause can't be identified. Known causes include:
·certain medications, including sulfonamide antibiotics, penicillins, phenytoin (Dilantin) and valdecoxib (Bextra)
·Viral and bacterial infection, such as the herpes simplex virus and mycoplasma
·Radiation therapy

A doctor may diagnose this condition based on:
·Medical history
·Signs and symptoms
·Physical examination
·In some cases, removal of a small piece of affected tissue (biopsy) for examination under a microscope

Symptoms of Stevens-Johnson syndrome include:
·Fever.
·A general feeling of illness (malaise).
·Headache.
·Runny nose (rhinitis).
·Cough.
·Sore throat.
·Vomiting.
·Diarrhea.
·Skin rash, which may develop on any part of the body but often begins on the face, neck, chin, and trunk.
·Mucous membrane sores that may weep a thick gray-yellow fluid.
·Mouth sores make it difficult to eat or drink.
·Sores on the inside of the eyelids may weep a thick fluid that causes a crust on the eyelids.

Treatment for Stevens-Johnson syndrome begins by determining the cause of the condition. If a medication is the cause, it is stopped. Treatment includes a soft diet, oral and IV fluids to prevent dehydration. Frequent mouth washing and eye care are needed. Recovery may be slow, taking up to 6 weeks.

Treatment is directed at:

ØRemoving the underlying cause or illness, such as discontinuing medication, if this is the suspected cause
ØControlling signs and symptoms with pain relievers or topical anesthetics when needed
ØPreventing secondary infection
ØFluid and nutritional supplementation when needed

Treatment may require hospitalization, if involvement of the mouth is severe enough to prevent eating or drinking. When the condition is diagnosed within 24 to 48 hours of onset, treatment may include high doses of corticosteroids or other immune system modulating medications. These drugs can shorten the duration of the condition. Full recovery may take up to several weeks.

Dilantin (Generic Name: Phenytoin) is an antiepileptic drug prescribed to manage temporal lobe seizures and grand mal seizures. Stevens-Johnson syndrome (erythema multiforme major) is a rare but serious condition that causes boil-like sores on the mucous membranes of the mouth, nose, genitals, and eyelids. A widespread skin rash of irregularly shaped, flat, purplish red spots, also develops. This rash may be painful.
Stevens-Johnson syndrome is usually caused by a reaction to a medication, but it may also result from an infection, a vaccination, or graft-versus-host disease. Medications that can cause Stevens-Johnson syndrome include:
Phenytoin, such as Dilantin Infatabs, Dilantin Kapseals, or Dilantin-125.

Side effects of Dilantin may include: severe skin reaction, Stevens Johnson Syndrome (bleeding, crusting, dark spots), confusion, constipation, discolored urine (pink, red, or brown), fatigue, slurred speech, Agitation, anemia, bone marrow depression, chest discomfort, difficulty learning (children), dizziness, fever and chills, frequent bone fractures or breaks, headache, joint pain, light gray stools, low thyroid function, malformed bones, numbness or tingling in extremities (long-term use), restlessness, severe stomach pain, severe skin reaction, shallow or troubled breathing, uncontrolled jerking of limbs, uncontrolled facial movements, unusual bleeding or bruising, weight loss, yellow eyes or skin.

Stevens-Johnson syndrome is a threatening skin disease that causes rashes, skin peeling, and sores on the mucous membranes. In Stevens-Johnson syndrome, a person has blistering of mucous membranes, typically in the mouth, eyes, and vagina, and patchy areas of rash. Nearly all cases are caused by a reaction to a drug, most often sulfa antibiotics; barbiturates; anticonvulsants, such as Dilantin (Generic Name: Phenytoin). The disorder occurs in all age groups but is more common in older people, probably because older people tend to use more drugs.

Stevens-Johnson syndrome generally starts with fever, headache, cough, and body aches, which may last from 1 to 14 days. Then a flat red rash breaks out on the face and trunk, often spreading later to the rest of the body in an irregular pattern. The areas of rash enlarge and spread, often forming blisters in their center. The skin of the blisters is very loose and easy to rub off.

In addition, Stevens Johnson Syndrome causes blisters to break out on the mucous membranes lining the mouth, throat, anus, genitals, and eyes. The damage to the lining of the mouth makes eating difficult, and closing the mouth may be painful, so the person may drool. The eyes may become very painful, swell, and become so filled with pus that they seal shut. The corneas can become scarred. The opening through which urine passes (urethra) may also be affected, making urination difficult and painful. Sometimes the mucous membranes of the digestive and respiratory tracts are involved, resulting in diarrhea and difficulty breathing.


Subject: I'M HOME!!


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 22:36:20 07/17/05 Sun

I JUST WANTED TO LET YOU ALL KNOW I CAME HOME TODAY!! I'll write more later when I am up to it. Right now I am on a LOT of morphine so I'm not thinking real straight. BUT I'M HOME!!!!
[> Subject: WELCOME HOME


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Bonnie
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Date Posted: 07:55:53 07/16/05 Sat

WELCOME HOME STACY!!!! What good news to read this morning!!!! Love and prayers, Bonnie
[> [> Subject: Welcome Home!


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Mark
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Date Posted: 17:10:55 07/16/05 Sat

Stacy,I just got this email & pic from Steve.

Here you are Stacy welcome home!Hope it puts smile on your face hope your feeling better
Steve


[> Subject: WELCOME BACK


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Cliff
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Date Posted: 20:18:21 07/16/05 Sat

Glad to hear you're back! Hopefully you'll be feeling better soon, and you'll be out partying the night away...;)
[> Subject: Glad you're home!


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Donna
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Date Posted: 22:36:39 07/16/05 Sat

WELCOME HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Keeping you in my prayers, admiring your strength and courage, and CHEERING for you!!
Donna
[> Subject: thank god Your are home


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Jack
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Date Posted: 22:36:20 07/17/05 Sun

So glad you are finally home. Been watching to keep track of your progress. Will be in touch when you are feeling better

Subject: Stay strong Stacy


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Megan
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Date Posted: 10:58:37 07/15/05 Fri

Dear Stacy- Michael told me about your cancer return and I want you to know that you are in mine and Michael's prayers. I pray that you get home from the hospital soon and that the pain you feel subsides. Once you get home and you feel up to it we would like you to meet Murphy and Jacob! If you or your family need anything we are only a moment away! Take care,
Megan Powell

Subject: room number 4! can you believe it!


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Mark
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Date Posted: 07:16:32 07/15/05 Fri

Ok,Stacy has been moved to another private room. Doc says she could be home in 2-7 days,hopefully the earlier!
She has gotten better daily with her mouth & throat....but these are still only mild improvements. At any rate,she is feeling,looking & sounding much better.

room number 409
phone number 410-464-5195
[> Subject: home


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Mark
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Date Posted: 07:16:32 07/15/05 Fri

Stacy is doing much better.The doc says she be coming home in a day or two. Just waiting for her ears to heal a little more. They were burned pretty bad from the radiation.Doc is worried about infection.Tomorrow will be 2 weeks since she went in to the hospital....she's getting anxious to get back home!

Subject: Praying for you


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Joan Kinhart
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Date Posted: 20:59:12 07/12/05 Tue

Stacie,
I am praying for your recovery. You may not remember me but I am your Dad's first cousin. Our Mom's were sisters and I might add very close. They would talk every day on the telpephone for hours when I was growing up and Aunt Evelyn was so beautiful. I just loved her. When I was recovering from surgery in 1979, she stopped by my house one morning just to say hello and see how I was doing. Said she could only stay a minute but ended up staying all day. She had me laughing all day and it was the best therapy one could have asked for. My husband Phil, and your dad, were in the same graduating class at NHHS Class of 1957 and I remember when Buddy brought you as his date to one of the reunions. You were so beautiful. I have two sons, and the older one, Scott, just married his second wife last month and her name is Stacie. My younger son, Joe and his wife Krista, just had their first baby on Feb 3, 2005 after many years of waiting. I might add that she was born on her father's 35th birthday. I don't mean to bore you with my family stuff but I wanted you to know a little about me.....Will you be well enough to come to the Heaton Reunion? Would love to chat. In the meantime, I will keep in touch and pray for your recovery. All the best, Joan Herbert Kinhart

Subject: Stevens Johnson Snydrome


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Mark
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Date Posted: 19:26:46 07/11/05 Mon

Ok,here is another room number & phone number for Stacy.I think they are playing musical rooms with her.

room number 401A ,4th floor west
phone number 410-464-5181

The official medical term the doctors are calling Stacys condition,is know as Stevens Johnson Syndrome. Its a condition caused by drug interactions,wich cause rashes & blisters.


Click here for a link to Stevens Johnson Syndrome

click here too!
[> Subject: Stevens Johnson Syndrome


Author:
Mark
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Date Posted: 19:26:46 07/11/05 Mon

sorry duplicate link above

click this to visit another Stevens Johnson Syndrome site

Subject: Stacy


Author:
Mark
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Date Posted: 23:44:20 07/10/05 Sun

Stacy hasn't been on here for a few days because she's in Good Samaritan Hospital.She was feeling very bad on saturday,so my mom took her to the hospital.
She's having an alergic reaction her her medications & radiation.Her throat is swollen & very very sore.The inside of her mouth & her lips are raw! She is having trouble swallowing & eating & even speaking!
She has a rash on her face,chest & back,and her face is very swollen.She will probably be there for the rest of this week.Her original radiation treatment was schedualed for 20 treatments,but since this has happened,they are stopping with the 18 she's had so far.

Keep her in your prayers! This is the hardest part of her cancer she has had to face so far!
[> Subject: Thanks


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Bonnie
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Date Posted: 19:06:31 07/05/05 Tue

Hi Mark, Thanks so much for the update. I have been getting on the site several times a day looking for a post from Stacy. I was so afraid that something was wrong when there were no posts.

I am sorry that she is having a tough time. It is good that she is in the hospital. I pray she is able to get relief from all the pain. Please let her know that I am thinking of her and as always remembering her in prayer. Thanks. Bonnie
[> Subject: Prayers for Stacy


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Donna
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Date Posted: 19:08:18 07/05/05 Tue

Mark,
Thanks so much for keeping us informed. I thought it was too quiet in here... Please tell her hello, and that she's in my prayers.

Donna
[> [> Subject: phone number & room number


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Mark
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Date Posted: 20:45:25 07/05/05 Tue

If anyone would like to call her or stop in & visit,heres her room number & phone number. She would love to hear from you guys!

room# 426A, 4th floor

phone# 410-464-5155
[> Subject: Stacy - Thinking of you


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Connie
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Date Posted: 19:34:39 07/10/05 Sun

As I was trying to get caught up with what is happening in your life, I was saddened to hear that you are in the hospital. Sorry to hear that you are in so much pain. Hope as you read this, things have come out better. I am thinking of you.
Connie (Honig)
[> Subject: Keeping Stacy in our prayers


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Pam Lowe
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Date Posted: 21:09:55 07/10/05 Sun

Mark, Please tell Stacy we are thinking about her and tell her we said hi. She is in our prayers. Keep us updated as much as you can. Take care, Pam, Owen, and kids Remember if there is anything you need we are only 5 houses up.
[> [> Subject: new room number & phone number


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Mark
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Date Posted: 23:44:20 07/10/05 Sun

Stacy got a private room last night. She is finally doing better. Every day she improves! Today her throat & mouth felt so much better,she was able to eat her entire lunch!Her hives are clearing up,but the red from the radiation is still there & starting to peel.Not sure when she's coming home,they are still keeping her till her throat & mouth improve even more.If you like,give her a call,she is able to talk without pain.

room number 432
phone number 410-464-5164

Subject: PRAYERS NEEDED


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 07:56:43 07/05/05 Tue

I'm not sure how closely everyone follows what's going on in other people's lives on this web site, but in case you've seen "Cliff" on here, his father is battling cancer as well.

Cliff left me an email this morning about his Dad. Please add Cliff, his Dad, and the rest of his family to your prayer list.

This is a copy of what he said in the email:

I hate to be impersonal with a group message like this, but I don't have time this morning to write to everyone individually. My dad went into the hospital on Wednesday; the doctors said they thought it was some sort of infection, though they were unable to find the cause or location. My mom called last night to say that he was feeling better, and she hoped he'd come home today. However, he took a turn for the worse during the night, and the doctors suggested calling family members this morning. I'm leaving for NY shortly. I hope I can return this evening, or tomorrow, with good news, but that may not be the case. I may be unavailable this weekend. I'm not sure when I'll be back, but I'll let you know the outcome at that time.

Cliff

[> Subject: CLIFF'S DAD UPDATE


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 23:52:49 07/01/05 Fri

Got an update from my friend Cliff about his Dad.

It reads as follows:

I'm at my parents' house, on their computer. I'll be going back to the hospital in a while. My brothers are great--they decided that, since our 4th of July cookout had to be canceled, they'd make me a birthday dinner here tonight. They made a roast, and brought me some Grolsch beer.

My dad has a very bad case of pneumonia, and we now know, from the results of an enzyme test, that he's had a heart attack, too. He's on a respirator, and is getting various medicines via I.V. The plan is to wait a day or two to see if he shows any improvement; if not, my mom will have to decide when to take him off the respirator. There is the possibility that he'll have another heart attack, from which he would probably not recover. At the moment, he seems stable. So we're just waiting.

I appreciate everyone's support. Hopefully I'll be home in a day or two--I'll have to be, or Patrick will run out of food and money! This is the first time he's stayed home alone.

Cliff

[> [> Subject: Thanks, Stacy!!!!!!


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Cliff
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Date Posted: 21:22:25 07/03/05 Sun

Thanks for posting that! I'm home now. Maybe the prayers helped, because it looks like my dad is going to pull through. Yesterday, his chest x-ray suggested that the antibiotics were starting to have an effect on the pneumonia. His blood oxygen level was back up to normal, even though the oxygen content of the respirator air had been decreased from 100% to 50% and they to 40%. He had a couple episodes last night during which his heart rate climbed very high, but the blood pressure remained stable. He had another x-ray this morning, and it showed improvement over yesterday's. The medical staff at the hospital is very pleased with his progress. I talked to my mother this evening, and she said that they're reducing the sedative, trying to see if they can make him responsive to voices. He'll probably remain in the respirator for a few more days, and he'll probably be in the CCU at least until next weekend. But we're all feeling better now that it appears he'll be able to overcome the pneumonia. The cardiologist is hoping to check on the condition of his heart as early as Tuesday (he didn't want to do that until the pneumonia looked better, as that was the immediate threat). Of course, after all that, the cancer will still require treatment. But for someone who was given Last Rites on Friday morning (he doesn't go to church, but my mother is a good Catholic!), he's come a long way.
[> Subject: 1 to go


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Bonnie
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Date Posted: 07:56:43 07/05/05 Tue

Hi Stacy, I think that after today you only have one more treatment. I hope that is correct. I have been thinking of you, and I have been missing your posts. However, I am sure that you have not been thinking of the computer. I hope too, that you have had some relief from all of the discomforts from the steroids and radiation.

I just wanted you to know that we have been thinking of you. Love and prayers, Bonnie & Jack

Subject: MISERABLE DAY


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 08:31:46 07/02/05 Sat

From a physical point of view, today is absolutely the worst day so far. I am having A LOT of pain in my mouth and throat. The steroids cause dry mouth but mine has decided to take it to the extreme. My throat is incredibly sore, including the "jaw hinges". Swallowing, talking, eating, drinking is downright torture. My entire mouth is swollen and raw. Including my lips. It's not unusual to develop a yeast infection in the mouth from the steroid so that's what we thought I had. Well today has tripled in severity so the doctor took a peak. He said he can see the swelling but there is no indication of a yeast infection. He called my oncologist and they discussed how bad I was today. Dr. Hahn recommended this prescription for a lydocaine product that numbs the mouth. It only works for a very short time and it does not help the throat and "hinge" pain at all.

Both doctors are stumped as to why I am having so much pain in my mouth. I had a thought this evening. Full brain radiation can cause jaw joint pain and I definitely have that. I'm am thinking that since I am so sensitive to burning, the actual radiation could possibly be causing all the pain. I'll have to say something to him about it. Thank GOD it's only two more treatments.

My forehead and ears are quite a deep red also from the radiation. I burn so easily. This has been a miserable day.

[> Subject: TWO


Author:
Bonnie
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Date Posted: 08:31:46 07/02/05 Sat

Hi Stacy, Please know that as I read your eamil my heart is aching for you. I am praying that you are getting relief with the lydocaine. Jack and I will be happy to know that the last two treatments are over. Does that mean Tuesday is the last? Or would it be Wed. since Monday is a holiday? Either way it will be good when they are over.

Yes, I did know that Cliff's father had cancer and I do keep up with his condition. We will remember Cliff and his family in pray also.

Please know Stacy that we think and pray for you constantly. We are awaiting the day to hear that your good health has returned. I was just reading an article about Lance Armstrong, and his battle with cancer. Like you, he suffered so with his cancer treatments. That was in 1996 and 6 Tour de France's ago. Today he is beginning his 7th Tour! I know it must sound trite for me to say hang in there when you are so miserable, but I do not mean it that way. Love and prayers, Bonnie

Subject: BELIEVE IT OR NOT....


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 10:04:07 07/01/05 Fri

This may actually make for some interesting reading for all of you. I had about an hour today that I got mad. I got downright ticked off. I said to myself "to heck with this positive attitufe for a few minutes!" I got mad because it seems like everytime I get a leg up (or even a toe up), something comes flying around the corner and whacks me right in the head!

I was listing all the things in my head that makes me mad.... Okay, I thought it was four masses... NO, it's five! You get it in your head that okay I can deal with four and you move forward. Then suddenly you find out it's FIVE. CRAP!! Re-adjust. Can I get anymore bloated and puffy???? My legs, feet, ankles, gut, back, face, neck, arms, and eyes are so puffy it's miserable!! Can't wait to get off the steroids! I'm sick of not being able to go outside in my garden or anywhere for that matter because I can't take the heat and/or humidity. I miss going outside. I can't drive for SIX MONTHS!! I've been patiently waiting for warm weather to ride my scooter and now I have to wait til next year. BUMMER!! Okay, three times losing your hair SUCKS!! As much as I can deal with it and not be affected as badly as other people, it still sucks!! AND I don't know how long I'll be hairless because I'll be going back on chemo and I don't know if it will be a drug that your hair can't grow. Although I've lost a ton of hair, there are still some stubborn follicles that haven't dropped the hair yet. So... GEE... don't I look lovely. Twenty pounds gained in less than a month from bloating!! All this weight gain is hard on the knees too. My feet hurt too. Probably from dragging my feet trying to walk stable. My forehead is getting more and more burned everyday so it is sore and it itches similar to sunburn. Now it's getting the same way behind my ears too. I have constant dry mouth. I cannot quench my thirst. Daggone steroids. Night time insomnia is for the birds!! It would be so nice to get a full nights sleep. Okay I'm done griping. I just wanted to make sure you all knew that I am actually human and I can get mad at this. An hour in the course of one day of anger ain't bad though!

[> Subject: ENTITLED


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Bonnie
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Date Posted: 07:52:10 06/29/05 Wed

You go Stacy!! You are entitled to more than one hour of anger! You have been battered from all sides, and I pray that it ends soon and that you will feel better. There is an Intalin proverb that says "Any plan is bad which is not susceptible to change"--so the way I see it for an hour last night you just changed your plan of attack!!

I know that you have only a few more treatments. Will you be taken off the steroids then? I have friends that have told me the weight gain from them just makes one feel sluggish and tired. It will be so much better when you be off of the steroids, and I hope that will be soon.

The insomnia is another culprit for wearing one down. Are you able to sleep and rest during the day? I hope that you rest whenever you can---day or night.

Thought for the day---you weren't griping you were attacking!!! Love and prayers, Bonnie
[> [> Subject: Asleep


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Bonnie
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Date Posted: 20:36:56 06/29/05 Wed

Hi Stacy, I just signed on to your site this evening, and I read my email that I sent this morning. I do know how to spell Italian, and I should have typed are instead of be!! I am sure that you knew what I meant though. I think it was too early, and I was still asleep!!! How was your day----good I hope. Love and prayers, Bonnie
[> [> Subject: Good thinking


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 22:55:34 06/29/05 Wed

I like your perspective! That's right, I wasn't griping... I was attacking.

I only have 4 treatments left. Once they are over my doctor will wean me off the steroids all together. Believe it or not I'm only taking the equivalent of one pill a day right now and I'm STILL so sensitive to it. Maybe the will help wean me off quicker since I'm only taking one a day. They are definitely causing the insomnia. I get maybe an hour or two of rest during the day then at night I'm lucky if I get two hours straight of sleep. Last night I had the equivalent to 3 1/2 hours of sleep total for the night. I imagine that is wearing me down like you said.

My day was okay today but I was feeling really bloating and groggy. I did last longer today before I had to take a nap. My Mom and I had to go to the car dealership this afternoon because her "check engine" light wouldn't go off. It turns out all the car needed was upgraded computer information downloaded into the computer in her car. What a nuisance. Check engine scares you then all you need is computer downloads. They should have a light that says "computer" instead.

I figured you meant Italian. Trust me, I'm not much on proof-reading these days. As long as I understand the message, I'm happy.

Thanks for checking in! Tell Jack, Greg and Steph hello for me.

[> Subject: Anger is Good


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Peg
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Date Posted: 10:04:07 07/01/05 Fri

Stacy, a postive attitude or anger -- they're both signs of the fact that you are a fighter. You're entitled to either/or. I'm really sorry this has been such a bad time, and I hope when you're finished with the radiation, you will be feeling better.

Hang in there -- your friends are with you. Todd sends his best regards.
Love, Peg

Subject: MY GIVE A DAMN'S BUSTED!


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 06:59:25 07/01/05 Fri

I just discovered two new songs that are out that are awesome! Can't beat the tune and the words to "My Give A Damn's Busted". As for the second song, "I Wear My Life", I can highly relate!!

Enjoy!!




Lyrics for Song: My Give A Damn's Busted

Well, you filled up my head with so many lies.
You twisted my heart till somethin' snapped inside.
I'd like to give it one more try,
But my give-a-damn's busted.

You can crawl back home, say you were wrong;
Stand out in the yard and cry all night long.
Well, go ahead and water the lawn:
My give-a-damn's busted.

I really wanna care.
I wanna feel somethin'.
Let me dig a little deeper:.
No, sorry: nothin'.

You can say you've got issues, you can say you're a victim.
It's all your parents fault, after all you didn't pick 'em.
Maybe somebody else has got time to listen:
My give-a-damn's busted.

Well, your therapist says it was all a mistake:
A product of the Prozac an' your co-dependent ways.
So who's your neighbor these days?
My give-a-damn's busted.

I really wanna care.
I wanna feel somethin'.
Let me dig a little deeper:.
No, still nothin'.

It's a desperate situation, no tellin' what you'll do.
If I don't forgive you, you say your life is through.
C'mon, gimme somethin' I can use:
My give-a-damn's busted.

Well, I really wanna care.
I wanna feel somethin'.
Let me dig a little deeper:
No, I'm sorry.
Just nothin', you know.
You've really done it this time, ha, ha.
My give-a-damn's busted.




Lyrics for Song: I Wear My Life

Come close, just look at me, can you see
That new England breeze blowin' through my hair
Stare into my eyes, can't you see the endless sky
Peakin' through the cracks of that abandoned barn
Got my first kiss there

My victories, my broken dreams, you don't have to look too far
Like an old pair of shoes, like a tattoo, sometimes like a scar

Chorus:
I wear my life, right on my sleeve
Who I am ain't no mystery
Where I've been has left a mark on me
No, I'm not one to try and hide
Or keep it all locked up inside
I wear my life

I'm like an old scrapbook, not afraid to let you look
Every day's a brand new page I can't wait to cut and paste
This picture that I see, right now of you and me
Two people so in love even time can't make it fade

My smiling face, gives me away, yeah everybody knows
When you feel something this real, boy, it's bound to show

Repeat chorus

You can see right through me. I'm transparent
I don't just live it


Subject: HI BONNIE


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 22:21:42 06/28/05 Tue

Great to hear from you. How is Jack doing these days? Had any tests lately?

I am so happy that you talk out loud to God about me. Even quietly is wonderful. I have a lot of conversations with Him daily. I thank Him all the time for His MANY MANY blessings. I tell Him that I wish I could bless him like He blesses me.

Today is a wonderful day and tomorrow will be an exceptionally wonderful day just because I say it will be. Being here and adoring my life makes me just want to be here all that much more. My motto is "something exceptionally wonderful is going to happen to me today" and something always does. You tell yourself that everyday and your brain subconsciously expects good things to happen. So when they do, it's no surprise, it's just wonderful!

[> Subject: Jack


Author:
Bonnie
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Date Posted: 21:06:30 06/28/05 Tue

Hi Stacy, I know that your flowers are enjoying this rain!! We had a terrible storm here this evening. I don't know if your area had it or not. It is good for the flowers though.

Jack is feeling well. However, his eyes are giving him some trouble. He just called the doctor today to see if he could go off of his Vitorin for a month to see if that helps the eyes. The problem started when he started the Vitorin. The doctor doesn't think that it is the meds, but said that he could try if for a month. His eyes don't seem to work together sometimes. This happens sometimes when he is driving or when he is in a different kind of lighting. Are you having any vision problems with your treatments? I hope not. Goodness!---those photos of your treatments are something. That mask looks so uncomfortable. I know that you are not going to miss the mask!

How are your flower gardens? Are you able to spend anytime in them with this heat? I think that it is to cool down some for the weekend.

I am going to have to shut down the computer as we are having thunder and lightning again---it is pouring again too!! Love and prayers! Bonnie
[> [> Subject: VISION


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 22:21:42 06/28/05 Tue

Hi Bonnie!! No, I can't say that I've had any problems with my vision from chemo. I hate to hear that he is having problems with that. At least the prostate cancer is staying away though.

We had a storm here but nothing like I've seen on the news in other areas. I'm glad we got what we did though because the rain was probably more beneficial than if it was a real heavy downpour. I water my flowers daily but it's nice to have nature do it once in a while. I can't spend any time out in my garden since I can't take the heat. Plus the doctor doesn't want me out in the sun. I'll just have to wait a while longer before I can get back out there. Sure do miss it though.

I REALLY hope it cools down for the 4th of July. I'll be going up to my Dad's and I'd like to be able to be outside to watch the fireworks!


Subject: MY TUMORS


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Date Posted: 11:41:59 06/28/05 Tue

I asked my doctor to "show" where the masses are in my brain. Well it appears there are 5 and not 4. I just wanted to be able to show everyone for perspective.



Subject: DOCTOR UPDATE


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 20:25:37 06/27/05 Mon

I went for my 14th radiation today. Only six more to go!! Can't believe it.

I saw the doctor today also, just like I do every Monday. It was quite obvious to him how much I am swelling and bloating from the steroid. He decided to reduce the dosage to a half pill twice a day instead of a whole pill twice per day. He said I'm obviously very sensitive to the steroid. Hopefully the reduction will alleviate some of the swelling but I'm also hoping it helps with some of the insomnia at night.

I do have a little "burn" on my forehead. Very similar to a mild sunburn. He gave me a cream to use three times a day for that. It's funny, it's called Proctocort, but he made sure to tell me to use it on my head and not my butt. I laughed at him.

My blood pressure was great! It was 106/68. Haven't seen it look that good in a while.

Although most of the hair is gone, I do still have some strands. The tech's there are saying it's because my follicles are being stubborn since I've lost my hair twice before. Wouldn't it have been nice for ALL the follicles to have been stubborn? Oh well.

I get my blood levels checked again this Wednesday. They will check on the Dilantin (anti-seizure) levels and also my CBC's. The CBC's are to make sure that I'm not getting anemic from the radiation. Sure hope my port-a-cath works properly, I'm getting tired of getting stuck in the arm.

The doctor and I did confirm that Wednesday, July 6th is my last treatment day.

[> Subject: almost done!


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Mark
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Date Posted: 20:07:13 06/27/05 Mon

you mean since I saw you last week,your hair is almost gone now?I saw the pics down the page from the radiation treatments..that mask must be tough to deal with!
[> [> Subject: HAIR UPDATE


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 20:25:37 06/27/05 Mon

What you saw last week was A LOT of hair compared to what I have now. You can definitely see the scalp all over but amazingly enough it's still trying to come out evenly.

I guess it's a good thing I'm on these drugs because normally I would say the mask would make me claustrophobic. But it's not. It's get's a little tougher each day because as my face gets puffier, the mask get's tighter. But I'm in and out of there so quick, it's not too bad. Dad couldn't handle it.... period. When I had them simulate me with the mask, I made sure I closed my eyes so each time they put it on me my eyes are closed. That probably helps some. Plus I made sure my mouth was open so I could breath through the mouth instead of the nose. That helps too.


Subject: BOO!!!!!!!!!


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Ron
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Date Posted: 16:36:33 06/27/05 Mon

hey girl!
just thought i would drop by and say hi, from the shadows. :) glad to see your staying strong and up beat!
cute scooter by the way. lol
c ya!
[> Subject: HOLY COW


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 09:29:11 06/26/05 Sun

Blast from the past! How are you doing these days? Still on the road a lot?

I'm glad you stopped in to say hello. Nice surprise!

[> [> Subject: staying put


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Ron
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Date Posted: 16:36:33 06/27/05 Mon

im not on the road anymore. i stopped driving back in November last year. still have the newer rig tho, just in case i get an itch to go back out again. been working on restoring my old lincoln. everything else is pretty much the same! woo hoo! lol
glad to see your spirits are still up :) think about ya all the time.

Subject: DOCTORED X-TERRA


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 00:30:41 06/27/05 Mon

A friend "doctored" some shots of my X-Terra to give it a new look. Cool, huh?!?





Subject: RADIATION PICTURES


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 19:08:01 06/26/05 Sun

GETTING SIMULATED FOR 1ST TREATMENT



THE MASK



DR. PAUL FOWLER



NURSE ROBBIE



LINDA AND BERT - MY TECH'S SETTING ME UP ON A NORMAL DAY



BERT SETTING UP THE MACHINE



BERT SETTING UP THE MACHINE - STARTING ON THE RIGHT AS USUAL



THUMBS UP - ZAP ON



DONE FOR THE DAY



THE BEGINNING OF BLOATING!! IT'S WORSE NOW!!



Subject: YOU TELL 'EM MAXINE


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 01:56:42 06/26/05 Sun



Subject: I LIKE THIS


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 06:48:41 06/24/05 Fri



Remember This... God won't ask what kind of car you drove, but He'll ask how many people you helped get where they needed to go.

God won't ask the square footage of your house, but He'll ask how many people you welcomed into your home.

God won't ask about the clothes you had in your closet, but He'll ask how many you helped to clothe.

God won't ask how many friends you had, but He'll ask how many people to whom you were a friend.

God won't ask in what neighborhood you lived, but He'll ask how you treated your neighbors.

God won't ask about the color of your skin, but He'll ask about the content of your character.

God won't ask why it took you so long to seek Salvation, but He'll lovingly take you to your mansion in Heaven, and not to the gates of hell.




Subject: BRAIN


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 04:24:02 06/24/05 Fri

Just an FYI for better understanding for everyone.....

I have 2 masses in the cerebellum, 1 in the parietal lobe, and 1 in the frontal lobe.




Subject: I GET IT HONESTLY


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 04:18:57 06/24/05 Fri

DAD WORKING WITH HIS GARDEN












Subject: Hi Stacy!


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Jenn
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Date Posted: 01:09:57 06/24/05 Fri

Hi There!! How ya doin these days? I see further down that you were cleaning from 1-3am!!!! WOW!!!! I wish I could get my cleaning done from 1-3pm but there's no chance with that happening. Maybe I should try the night cleanings I betcha I could get alot more done with everyone & the doggies sleeping. Looks like the HOT weather is coming back. I have enjoyed the weather for the past few days. Just wanted to drop in and say "Hello" & let you know that we are thinking & praying for you. Glad to see you will be coming to "BSR" day, we will see you there! Take Care
[> Subject: THANKS


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Date Posted: 01:09:57 06/24/05 Fri

Thanks for stopping by, Jenn!! I'm doing okay these days but I sure have been druggy. I can't wait to get off the drugs that keep me in a fog. It will be refreshing to feel like my old self again.

I'm not looking forward to the heat coming back. It actually may interfere with me going to BSR day. I'm not allowed to be out in the sun and by the time BSR day gets here, I will be bald. Naturally I couldn't take the sun and I'm sure July 23rd will be pretty hot. I'm not saying for sure that I won't go but at this point I'm expecting to have to cancel.

Thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers. Can't let the MAN forget about me down here.


Subject: SLEEP


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 21:36:39 06/23/05 Thu



I got a little more sleep last night. I went to bed and then unfortunately woke up in about an hour. My neighbors were probably ready to shoot me, when I got up I decided to clean and vaccuum my upstairs. Boy it really needed it so I felt like it was a good time to do it.

At about 3:00am, I laid back down and didn't wake back up until now. I was surprised to see the sun coming up. I'm usually already awake for that.

[> Subject: Late-night Hooverism


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Cliff
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Date Posted: 20:02:39 06/22/05 Wed

So exactly what time was it when you started vacuuming??? Personally, I sleep rather soundly. If you'd like to stop by and vacuum MY house in the middle of the night, feel free! In fact, I'll even leave my carpet cleaner out for you.
[> [> Subject: Smiles


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 21:55:11 06/22/05 Wed

I guess it was probably about 1:00am. I got finished cleaning around 3:00 and went back to bed.
[> [> [> Subject: Cleaning job for yo!


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Cliff
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Date Posted: 21:36:39 06/23/05 Thu

At that time of night, I think I could sleep thought the noise of a vacuum cleaner. So come on over! I'll leave the light on for you!

Subject: HAIR UPDATE


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 18:27:17 06/21/05 Tue

The doctor says I'll lose my hair from this radiation. Today will make my 10th treatment and so far I still have it. I don't expect to keep it, I won't get that lucky. But I'm surprised I still have it.

My scalp is pretty sensitive... itching and tender. So is my forehead. That is definitely from the radiation. I won't get a bad burn but it still feels like a slight sunburn.

As I said, today will be my 10th treatment. I'm halfway through as of today. I can't believe how fast it's going by.

I asked my doctor yesterday if after these 20 treatments, if there's any cancer left in the brain, will he continue treatments to the full brain or even to specific areas. He said no. I get what I get. But he did say that he treats people based on how long he thinks they are going to live. I was ecstatic to hear that he expects me to live a long time so that's why he is choosing to treat me slower and gentler without causing damage to the brain. I have no doubt in my mind that I'm going to be here a very long time but it's always nice to hear your doctor say it.

[> Subject: Great News


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Date Posted: 13:59:07 06/21/05 Tue

That is great news, I know that God is with you... Keep it up... Casey Jones
[> Subject: Good to hear it!


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Date Posted: 18:27:17 06/21/05 Tue

I'm glad to hear that the doc said he expects you to be around for a long time. I certainly want you to be! You better stick around--you still owe me a date! (No hurry--wouldn't want to take you out if you weren't ready to enjoy it!)

Subject: BUMMER


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 23:27:38 06/20/05 Mon

I finally get to sleep at a decent hour and I was sleepy then I have to be woken up from a scarey dream. I was in the coldest part of New York inside of a freezing cold house inside of another 6 inch haunted house. I kept trying to clean the lint out of this small house but it was haunted. Scaring the crap out of me. I'd get out of the six inch house only to still be in the other house freezing. There was only one airport anywhere and it wasn't close so I was stuck there. Ironically I was there with someone that was trying to paint the insides of both houses so we couldn't leave. Very very strange. But it was real enough it woke me up.

Subject: YEEHAH!!!!


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Date Posted: 19:52:45 06/20/05 Mon

YEEHAH!!!! I ACTUALLY GOT SIGNIFICANT SLEEP LAST NIGHT!!!!!!! I got 3 hours straight, woke up, then got 4 hours straight!! That is quite an accomplishment. I have been up hourly for two weeks at night time. And when I did sleep, it wasn't sound. Last night, I GOT SLEEP!!!!
[> Subject: thats great!


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Mark
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Date Posted: 07:08:09 06/19/05 Sun

I saw you were on my website right before 6AM this morning!
I guess all those meds have your body clock all out of sinc!
Good sleep is hard to come by for me too!
[> [> Subject: Smiles


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Date Posted: 09:08:52 06/19/05 Sun

Yea, I was up and taking my pills... the right ones LOL. And was checking out the web sites. I was so excited that I got sleep last night that I stayed up for a couple hours then laid back down. I just woke up again. I got another two hours of sleep!! How refreshing.

I wasn't as bloated and puffy last night as I have been. I was still very bloated but not as bad. I think it helped me sleep better. It's actually hard to breath when your neck, face, and trunk feels like it could pop at any second. I think I know how ticks feel. I wake up a lot in the middle of the night with my neck just covered in sweat because it get's so thick and sweaty. I hate that. But my neck wasn't as puffy. If probably helped.

I'm getting to experience all kinds of crap that I've never had to even think about now. Not that I like having to go through it through experience but it sure does make for interesting living these days. It'll just make me a better educator for other people going through similar experiences.

[> [> [> Subject: SLEEP


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Date Posted: 18:55:13 06/19/05 Sun

Geez, Stacy, if you keep sleeping like that, pretty soon you'll be like my teenage son--sleeping until 2:00 p.m. He suffers from a medical condition known as LAZINESS.
[> Subject: Almost forgot...


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Date Posted: 19:07:26 06/19/05 Sun

Since today is Father's Day, I'll share a little good news about my father.

He started chemo with Navalbine last month. I read that, typically, a patient's white blood cell count will drop initially, hitting its low point 10-14 days after treatment begins; then it will climb again, getting back to normal about 21 days after treatment begins. This happened to my dad. He had two treatments; when he went for the third, his white count was TOO low, and the doctor decided not to treat him that week. He later developed a fever; he still had it the following week, when treatment was scheduled. The doctor again decided not to treat him, and ordered a chest x-ray, concerned that Dad might have pneumonia. The x-ray showed no pneumonia. Since the x-ray also showed the tumor, the doc compared it to the pictures from before the beginning of the Navalbine treatment--and it seems the tumor had shrunk a little! Not too much, but the doctor was pleased at the response after only two treatments. Dad did get his treatment this past week. We're all feeling a bit more optimistic now.
[> [> Subject: NEWS!


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 22:15:13 06/19/05 Sun

That's wonderful news Cliff! I don't like hearing about his white blood counts but I do know that is typical with Navelbine. But it's great that it's working so quickly for him.

By the way, Happy Father's Day to you!

[> [> [> Subject: Thanks


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Cliff
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Date Posted: 19:52:45 06/20/05 Mon

Thanks for the Fathers Day wishes! Patrick managed to force out a "Happy Fathers Day" yesterday afternoon--sounded like it caused intense pain!

My dad's white count is ok again, and he had his regular treatment last week. Hopefully the tumor will continue to shrink.

Subject: HAPPY FATHER'S DAY


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Date Posted: 01:53:46 06/19/05 Sun






[> Subject: HAPPY FATHERS DAY DAD!


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Mark
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Date Posted: 22:56:53 06/18/05 Sat

think I'll keep him another 66 years!
[> [> Subject: COOL


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Lil Sis
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Date Posted: 01:53:46 06/19/05 Sun

ME TOO!!

Subject: Hello!


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 07:46:22 06/18/05 Sat

Sure is getting lonely in here without more people checking in....

Subject: GOOD MORNING


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 02:17:56 06/17/05 Fri

DRUG INDUCED INSOMNIA = PAIN IN THE BUTT!!

Subject: UPDATE


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 22:08:23 06/16/05 Thu

Just keeping you all informed....

Yesterday was a REAL bad day. I had a major reaction to my drugs and was pretty much to the point I couldn't function. My blood pressure went up to 170/99. Fortunately I was at the doctors office when all this happened. Well it turns out that I took 2 of one medication that I only should have taken one of. I had to see both of my doctors, get radiation, and then have bloodwork. As the day went on there was some improvement but even today I still feel pretty groggy from it all.

I do feel a lot better though. I can function a bit. Imagine trying to function coming out of anesthesia. It's very similar to that. The foggy-ness, unstability, and short term memory loss. It's all there but probably the best day so far.

[> Subject: becarefull!


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Date Posted: 19:02:51 06/16/05 Thu

becarefull with your meds.write down your dosages & how often to take them.then write down that you did take them.
then you can double check yourself.

how was lunch with Sharon?
[> [> Subject: DRUGS


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Date Posted: 22:01:24 06/16/05 Thu

I have a chart that I created for the drugs. Plus I wrote on each bottle what each drug is for. I don't think I'll make that mistake again. It was too rough of a ride!!

Lunch with Sharon was great. We went to Ruby Tuesday's down here. I got my usual ribs and creamy mashed cauliflower. God I love that cauliflower!! She wants to try to get together for lunch once a week now. That would be really nice. She was good to me today watching out for me making sure I didn't walk out into traffic. LOL!!

[> Subject: Be careful!


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Date Posted: 19:47:33 06/16/05 Thu

Watch those meds!

How is the radiation going so far? Have you put your hair brush in storage yet?
[> [> Subject: RADIATION


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Date Posted: 22:08:23 06/16/05 Thu

You know, I've been so wrapped up in how I've been feeling from the drugs that I don't really know how I'm doing from the radiation. I just go everyday and get it. I get zapped twice, once on each side of the head for nine seconds each. Then I get off the table and leave. It's a lot easier than when I had radiation in 2000. They put a mask over my face to keep my head in place and they make all the markings on the mask. In 2000 I literally had "tatoo's" on my body. I don't have to change into a gown and they don't expect me to burn like before. So I think this will be easier.

Still got the hair. They are saying it could be next week before it falls out. I guess I'm ready for that. I WILL NOT shave my head in preparation though. When it falls out is when it falls out.

One REALLY hard about this whole process is, they have me on a real strong anti-inflammatory that is a steroid. I am so bloated and puffy. I've gained 10 pounds in two weeks from it. I'm retaining fluid like crazy. That can make you feel miserable even without other problems. It will be nice when I can go off of it. I'll probably feel like they popped me like a balloon.


Subject: how are you doing after day 5??


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Mark
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Date Posted: 00:31:28 06/15/05 Wed

how are you feeling? are the meds hard to deal with?
has the radiation had any affect on you or your hair?
sorry about the 30 questions,just curious.
[> Subject: Hello BIG BRO!


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Lil Sis
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Date Posted: 21:23:09 06/14/05 Tue

Thanks for calling to check on me today!

The radiation seems to be going to okay. The first couple days I felt a little confusion as I got off the table abut this week has been better. Five days down, that's a quarter of the way through ALREADY!

The meds are the toughest part. Trying to remember what to take when. Plus I am SOOOO stoned over I take the anti-inflammatory. Dr. Fowler reduced it to three per day instead of four, thank Goodness. But about an hour after I take it, I pretty much have a hard time functioning then I have to lay down. I feel the best when I wake up, less groggy. I am flying pretty high RIGHT NOW! So I hope this sounds okay.

Ask all the questions you want, I don't mind at all. I don't feel like it's 30 questions.

My head has been itching LIKE CRAZY so I know it's coming to lose the hair. They told me yesterday that it won't be a gradual week long process like with chemo. Once it starts, it should be out in like two days. Hope I remember to have a bag handy to put it all in since I've been saving it everytime.

The doctor saw me itching like crazy today so he put me on an anti-allergy pill today. It's working already. All the itching is quite a nuisance so it's refreshing to feel better from that perspective.

I love you so much and I thank you so much for checking in on me. I can't even begin to tell you the gratitude I have. Remember I want a ride in RATTRAP!!

[> [> Subject: Stacy the Stoner!


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Date Posted: 22:13:54 06/14/05 Tue

Hi Stacy!

You know, you could probably sell those anti-inflammatories on the street if you wanted...

Are you going to sport the cue-ball look, or buy yourself some temporary hair? I know of someone who runs a shop at (or near) North Arundel Hospital in Glen Burnie, catering to cancer patients who want to maintain their appearance. I know she carries wigs, among other things. She told me that insurance usually pays, and if it doesn't, she gets various grants that usually cover the cost. Just thought I'd let you know.

So I guess you won't want to go to dinner and a car cruise while you're stoned and bald, huh?
[> [> [> Subject: CUE BALL


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Date Posted: 23:32:06 06/14/05 Tue

I could probably get some serious cash for what these pills do for you. Man!!

I always choose the cue ball look. It's too hot for temporary hair. I have a couple really nice wigs that my insurance paid for that I keep for occassions that it would just be nice to have hair but generally I'll sport the cue ball look. I'll be sure to get a picture on here of myself after I lose it so there's no shock value for everyone.

Once things get a little more under control I'll be up for dinner and a car cruise but right now things are just too crazy for me. I never know how I'm going to be feeling from one minute to the next. I don't think you'd want to be responsible for me when I can't function. Plus, unfortunately this anti-inflammatory causes A LOT of belching. Uncontrollable belching. Loud belching. I could possibly embarrace you. These drugs also cause yeast infections in the mouth which I unfortunately have developed so I'm on another drug for that. It's helping but I think it's in my esophagus also. That causes hiccupping. I make all kinds of noises these days. Sometimes it's funny and sometimes it's a nuisance.

One of the weirdest things so far has been that "trigger" that you have to tell you not to do something, it is not working properly. I have had to tell everyone to make sure I don't walk out into traffic and I am DEAD SERIOUS. I know I shouldn't and I know the result of what could happen if I do but once I get out of the car I'm just ready to start walking. That trigger doesn't go off to tell me not to go. I am so glad I told my brother to watch me last night because I was ready to just keep walking when he had to grab my hand to stop me because a truck was coming. It's not joke, it's real. I told the doctor about it today. He didn't have a response. And I don't have to feel stoned to be that way. I'm wondering if it's because the cancer is in the cerebellum, the place where it affects your balance. I just get going and act like I'm on a mission then when I try to stop walking I feel like my body is going to keep going. Very weird.

Well, I've laid down for about an hour so I feel a little more coherent right now. The anti-inflammatory causes insomnia so I wake up a lot in the night. I'm glad I keep a journal. I've been writing like crazy. Especially at night.

[> [> Subject: Thinking of you


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Date Posted: 00:31:28 06/15/05 Wed

Thinking of you Stacy
I had been taking a "vacation" from the word cancer after my last check up in May; my last "regular" check up after the surgery and radiation. The oncologist said I would not need to see her until August. Then on Monday went in for my monthly flush of my port and ended up with another ultra-sound and an aspiration of my left breast again. They are hoping that it is just an infection, but this is how it all started last August. The pain has come back and the redness like in August. Once again I am back on pills. So crossing my fingers.
Monday had been the first time I had gone with out a wig or scarf. You may like the cue-ball look, but my head looks like a wooden block. All square !!!! haaa haa
So sorry to here that you can't even ride your scooter. That must be a real bummer. Glad to hear that you have help , however. Keep us posted.
Connie

Subject: NEWS I THINK YOU ALL SHOULD KNOW


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 18:29:29 06/14/05 Tue

Are you sitting down? Of course you are, you're in front of the computer.

As of this passed Sunday I have taken a turn for the worse. I started feeling funny last Tuesday then this passed Sunday I had a seizure. Thank GOD my friend, Bonnie, was here at home with me. She was absolutely incredible getting my family and the ambulance here for me.

I went to Good Samaritan Hospital where they admitted me and sent me for a CT scan of my brain. I stayed all night and had an MRI on Monday. Both the CT scan and the MRI confirmed that the cancer has spread to my brain. I have a total of four masses in my brain. Three are in the back of the brain (the cerebellum) and one (the largest) is right in my forehead. Think of the Indian women that put that red dot on their foreheads. That's where it is and it's 3 centimeters large. Although the doctors are saying that the cancer is small.

The doctors put my on Dilantin, an anti-seizure drug and another drug that is a very potent anti-inflamatory. All the pressure and "straining" feeling I've been feeling since Tuesday is from the brain swelling from the cancer. I don't feel that way anymore, thank GOODNESS!! But the anti-seizure drug makes me very "lupey". In other words... stoned. I will say it is a good stoned though. At least it makes me feel happy and giddy. I will have those drug levels checked on Thursday to see if they need to reduce the amounts but I will be on that drug for the rest of my life.

THANK GOD the cancer in my brain is in places that will NOT affect motor skills, speech, eyesight, hearing, or anything major!!!!!!! I may have balance issues but I'm not sure if that's from the drugs or the cancer. The doctor said my emotions and feelings may be affected from the mass in my forehead but I'm not sure how. I'm feeling pretty happy right now. You can't beat that, huh?!?!?

My short-term memory has been really bad since the seizure but I think that's from all the drugs. Hopefully that will improve.

I will receive radiation treatments to my brain for 20 working days starting today. I will get weekends off. I will NOT be on any chemotherapy during the radiation treatments. Dr. Hahn will start me on a new chemotherapy protocol immediately following the end of radiation. I will have another MRI after the radiation to see if it got it all.

Legally, I cannot drive for 6 months because of the seizure. THAT INCLUDES MY SCOOTER!!! BIG TIME BUMMER!! Thank God my aunt moved up here from North Carolina. She will be my transportation to my doctors appointments.

Please keep me in your prayers, I could really use them right now.

Oh yea, the doctor did say that he expects to get the cancer with the radiation and I should be able to go back to living the good quality life that I've been living.

[> Subject: Thinking of you


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Jenn
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Date Posted: 14:40:54 06/08/05 Wed

Hey there Stacy. So sorry to hear about what happened. Sounds like you are feeling a little better though! Stay Strong & I know you know you can kick this things butt!! Listen I know you have lots of friends & family that will help you but please remember that your friend here in Cecil County is here if you ever need ANYTHING including a ride to the drs please do not hesitate to call me 410-658-0409 I would be more than happy to help you any way I can. Take Care & our prayers are with you!! Sending "HUGS" your way hope they reach you!!!
[> Subject: Sorry


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Ray Snyder
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Date Posted: 12:04:14 06/09/05 Thu

I am very sorry to hear the bad news. I'll always be praying for you. God bless you and good luck.

Love Ray
[> [> Subject: MORE UPDATES


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 12:33:42 06/09/05 Thu

I had my second radiation today. Everything went well. I will be losing my hair again and it should come out next week.

I asked my doctor about the balance and emotional problems I could have. He said the balance is definitely from the swelling around the cancer. But the anti-inflammatory drug should help that. Also as the cancer reduces in size it should help. My emotional/feelings are affected the most right now from the cancer. That should improve. It sounds as though the only side effects from the drugs are fatigue and lupiness. Everything else is from either the cancer and/or the swelling.

Due to being on the anti-seizure medication, I cannot ever have alcohol again. I usually only have one drink a week if that, but now I can't have any.

I will have my blood levels checked weekly since radiation can lower your blood counts. I will have the anti-seizure levels checked once every two weeks. I actually SEE the radiation doctor every Monday unless I need to see him more than that to answer questions. He showed me my MRI today. The largest tumor is about the size of a golf ball and it's towards the back of my head. Kind of behind my right ear. The second largest is in the middle of my forehead. The other two are real small and they are in the back of my head. He still says he expects to get it and I should be able to go back to living a good quality of life.

I don't care WHAT anyone says, I have every intention of beating this and living a long, quality life. I love my life and plan on living it!!

[> Subject: My old Friend...


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Mike
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Date Posted: 15:57:05 06/09/05 Thu

Darn Stac... Really sorry to hear the latest. You are such a strong girl. You are in my prayers. Hope you're back on the scooter soon!
[> Subject: i sure hope and pray everything works out for you stacy you can still beat this stuff don't give up and keep your faith just remember a quitter can never win so if you don't quit you can beat this


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Curtis_Racing
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Date Posted: 17:23:22 06/09/05 Thu

[> Subject: Stacy- I must confess, I have been a bad man.


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danersmiff and Suzy too!
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Date Posted: 20:51:32 06/09/05 Thu

I haven't visited for a while in fear that too much good happening to one or 2 people,(me and Suzy) can somehow produce a negative effect on some one else who may be struggling/? as bizzar as this sounds, i really did not want to be overbearing on your site, out of respect. That being said, We still pray for you. Now, to learn of this recent turn of events, I have to speak.
Have you tried walking around your chair? My mother does this when she is losing at cards, and it works 50% of the time...
Have you tried blowing your nose and farting at the same time? be careful, this may soil yer britches!
Have you tried lying on a bed of nails? I have no EARTHLY idea...?
Have you tried sniffing snuff? YYAAAACCHHHOOOOO! (me neither)....
Green Tea perhaps? (if nuthing else-you may learn chinese..)
Spending the night at Marks'- ( i read you did !) --not smart, as he has a BAD reputation, especially in Texas, what with parking his truck with the left rear wheel hiked up an Oak Tree and all...
HORSE FEATHERS? (again I am LoST?)
IF you soak yer feet in HOT WATER, it won't do much, yer feet will feel good, and you will probly have to pee...

Hang in there Kid ! the Tough Bastards Just left Town!-? that just leaves you! the Meanest Bitch on Broadway!!! love d---
[> [> Subject: AUNT NANCY, FAMILY, and FRIENDS


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 05:09:31 06/10/05 Fri

I just want to send a VERY SPECIAL thank you out to my Aunt Nancy. She will be my transportation to my doctor's appointments everyday. I REALLY appreciate everything she is doing for me.

I hate putting people out and asking them to do things for me but it seems as though I am going to be needy for a while.

THANK YOU SO MUCH to my neighbors Bonnie, Deana, Frank, Vicki, Carrie, Karen, Gail, and Norma for all you've done and your care and concern. I couldn't ask for a better group of people around me. Boy, if you ever need anything in a pinch in this neighborhood, they are RIGHT there!!

Also thanks to the paramedics for being so wonderful and compassionate with me. I've never had to have an ambulance crew come to my house. It's quite amazing when they do and the compassion they have for the patient. I found out they didn't run the sirens or the lights on the way to the hospital but that's okay.

THANK YOU SO MUCH to my family and friends for spending all that time in the hospital with me. It is truly humbling when people are there for you like that. I know my short-term memory isn't good right now so I appreciate everyone answering my questions over and over again.

I've gotten a little emotional over finding out about the cancer spreading to the brain but most of my tears have been for all the ABSOLUTE and OVERWHELMING gratitude I feel for everyone. It is so amazing what everyone is doing for me. I promise I will not take it for granted. God has blessed me in so many ways, especially with the people I have in my life.

[> [> [> Subject: Thinking positive thoughts


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Cliff
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Date Posted: 22:23:14 06/10/05 Fri

Hey Stacy

I'm glad you still have your usual Stacy attitude! You certainly know how to inspire confidence. It sounds like those little f***ers in your brain are treatable--so they're just a temporary detour from your other treatment. Hang in there! Your invitation for dinner and a car cruise still stands! I suspect it will have to wait a while, but the offer will not be revoked!
[> [> [> Subject: We love you


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Nancy Buscarino
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Date Posted: 08:29:39 06/11/05 Sat

You are wonderful Stacy. We are all here for you because you are always here for us. You have a way of making us feel at ease and letting us say to you anything about your cancer. You always worry about others. You are always in my prayers. Love Aunt Nancy
[> Subject: Hangin in!


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Bev
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Date Posted: 18:29:29 06/14/05 Tue

Hi Stacy! I was soooo glad you all stopped in to see me the other day...You look wonderful...I think you're faking....u dont look sick at all!! Just wanted to let u know that Mom went back to the doctor today....her bone marrow came back negative, so we are all relieved. She still has to finish out what they originally have planned for her, but now that she knows what to expect each time, its made her feel better about the whole thing. She'll probably be having some questions for you! She had to have that red blood injection today because the count was low (her white ones were up though which was good). Anyway, she took it in the arm and said to tell you to stop being a wimp, it didnt hurt at all!!! HA....I told her some of the things u said and for her to just know more about the process is really a big help. Thanks for sharing the knowledge... you're a walking encyclopedia of info on this stuff! How are you feeling by the way....still lupy?? :) I know you're going to come thru this whole thing with flying colors....I have no doubt....Keep hangin.......Talk to ya soon......

Subject: Lil' Sister!


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Mark
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Date Posted: 00:28:54 06/05/05 Sun

Haven't seen ya or called lately!

But have no fear,Your Fat Big Brother loves you very very much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[> Subject: Smiles


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Lil Sis
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Date Posted: 00:28:54 06/05/05 Sun

Your fat lil sister loves you very very much too!! I've been up there a couple times but you haven't been there except for today. You were sleeping. You been having fun on the bike?

Subject: HELLO?


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 18:21:06 06/03/05 Fri

HELLO, HELLO, HELLO, ANYONE OUT THERE?
[> Subject: HI STACY!


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Cliff
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Date Posted: 23:15:42 06/02/05 Thu

How have you been? How was your holiday weekend, and how about the trip to Ocean City? Found any good car cruises yet?

Not much going on here lately. The way life has been going, that's probably a GOOD thing!
[> [> Subject: Somebody IS out there!


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 23:42:56 06/02/05 Thu

Hi Cliff! My holiday weekend was fine. I was supposed to go to a party with an old boyfriend but he ended up being sick so he cancelled. Instead I hung out with a friend named Bonnie. We basically went flower shopping then ate then watched movies. Sunday my Mom, aunt, and I went to Crownsville to visit an uncle and his wife. It was a nice day. Monday, Bonnie and I hung out again.

Dad and I never went to Ocean City because it was SUPPOSED to rain. We decided at 5:30 the evening before that were weren't going to go because the weather was still calling for rain. Gee whiz, lo and behold, the next day was gorgeous. I ended up driving up to my Dads anyway and spent the day with him at his house.

I personally have not seen any car cruises. Supposedly they are hanging out in Churchville just like last year but I've been so busy I haven't had a chance to get up there. I haven't seen any cars by my house.

I have been INCREDIBLY fatigued the last couple weeks. The doctor increased my dosage by one pill and it's making a huge difference in my fatigue level. It's amazing. It gives me trouble with my feet also. Kinda feels like a bad rug burn on the heels. Aveeno cream helps for a little while.

How is your dad doing on the Navelbine?

[> [> [> Subject: What do you get when you breed a bulldog with a shi-tzu?


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Cliff
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Date Posted: 18:21:06 06/03/05 Fri

My dad is doing pretty well with his Navel Beans. Mom says he's not having any significant side effects so far. Of course, we don't know if it's actually WORKING yet, but we're hoping. So you've been having to rest more than usual? Just let me know when you feel up to it, and we'll find a car cruise somewhere!

I went to a dinner last night for a VP in my department, who is leaving after 33 years due to multiple sclerosis. Jeff is very well liked and very well respected in the company. He was the top guy for loan approvals--the last appeal, so to speak. And his decisions were rarely questioned. We had 50-some people at dinner at Gibby's in Timonium last night, and Jeff got several standing ovations. He's been working despite his MS for several years; up until a couple months ago, he was walking with canes, but now he's in a wheelchair, and he has trouble speaking. Up until a couple months ago, he was usually the first one in each day, often starting at 6:00 a.m. It was quite an emotional evening--a lot of the women were crying. It was $50 per person (to cover dinner and a gift), but I didn't want to miss it.


By the way, when you breed a bulldog with a shi-tzu, you get a BULLSHIT.
[> Subject: HELLO


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Tony
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Date Posted: 04:38:33 06/03/05 Fri

Yes I am here Casey Jones... I sent you an email just a moment ago, I hop it is useful to you... Love Ya Kid... bye for now...(n/a)

Subject: Protandim revives your defenses and returns your oxidative stress to the levels of a 20 year old


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Tony
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Date Posted: 04:35:54 06/03/05 Fri

Protandim revives your defenses and returns your oxidative stress to the levels of a 20 year old, I have looked at this and found it to be a aid in comfort for health. I know you have looked at a lot of things, but this won't hurt you and it just may drive the doctors crazy trying to figure out why you are doing better. Can't hurt but may help... Well I love Casey Jones... (n/a) and you have a great weekend...

Subject: Protandim revives your defenses and returns your oxidative stress to the levels of a 20 year old


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Tony
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Date Posted: 04:34:26 06/03/05 Fri

Protandim revives your defenses and returns your oxidative stress to the levels of a 20 year old, I have looked at this and found it to be a aid in comfort for health. I know you have looked at a lot of things, but this won't hurt you and it just may drive the doctors crazy trying to figure out why you are doing better. Can't hurt but may help... Well I loe Casey Jones... (n/a) and you have a great weekend...

Subject: GO BO BICE on American Idol


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 18:15:55 05/29/05 Sun






[> Subject: could that be the future Mrs.Preston?


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Stud Muffin
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Date Posted: 07:37:17 05/27/05 Fri

[> [> Subject: meant to say Mr.& Mrs.Preston


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Studlier Now
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Date Posted: 07:38:36 05/27/05 Fri

[> [> [> Subject: YUMMY


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STUD-ETTE
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Date Posted: 10:25:21 05/27/05 Fri

Can't say I want a husband but he sure could come to my house and perform anytime he wanted to!
[> [> [> [> Subject: BO BICE


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 10:53:42 05/27/05 Fri

IT DON'T GET MUCH BETTER THAN THIS!!




[> [> [> [> [> Subject: I partied with that lead guitarist back in the 70's


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Rock-On
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Date Posted: 07:47:04 05/29/05 Sun

[> [> [> [> [> Subject: OH MY MY MY!!!!!!


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Jenn
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Date Posted: 18:15:55 05/29/05 Sun

You are so right there Stacy it doesn't get much better than that!!!!!!!!!!!!! I may be happily married but he is still just as fine as can be & Dave laughs at me everytime I watch him. He is going to be on "Regis & Kelly" Wednesday morning so I'm going to be watching his sexy butt! He is suppose to perform one of his songs!! I think I'm moving to Alabama!!!!!!!

Subject: PROUD LIL SISTER!!


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 00:27:01 05/21/05 Sat

Video's of MY BROTHER'S car made it to CAR CRAFT magazine on-line!! His car even made the home page of the magazine. CHECK IT OUT!!!

When you see his car on the front page, click on it. It will take you to a page where you can choose which video you want to watch.

The link is http://carcraft.com/






Subject: Have a good weekend!


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Cliff
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Date Posted: 14:00:56 05/20/05 Fri

Hey Stacy

Have a good weekend in OC. The weather is supposed to get better--let's hope the forecast is correct!

I'm sitting home, waiting on a rental car. The clutch on my truck wore out, 600 miles after the warranty expired. Nice, huh? New clutch won't be available until Monday or Tuesday. Oh well, could be worse....

Subject: ONCOLOGIST VISIT


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 21:47:36 05/18/05 Wed

I went to the oncologist today. I told him that I went to another oncologist last week for a second opinion. The other doctor feels very similar to Dr. Hahn and agrees that the treatment therapy that I have received as far back as 1999 was and is a good choice. This made me feel much more comfortable with the care I have received.

Dr. Hahn's game plan:

Continue me on the Xeloda pills for another round however we are increasing the dose another 500 mg's. I will take 5 pills in the morning and 4 pills in the evening. I will be taking a total of 4,500 mg's per day for 14 days. Then I have a 7-day break.


As long as the pain in my side does not worsen and I don't become symptomatic in other areas, he will probably continue me on the Xeloda.

There has been evidence that some cholesterol medicines help with those with cancer. I'm already on Zocor for my cholesterol and Dr. Hahn is okay with that.

Dr. Hahn started me on Celebrex today also. It is one of the drugs that you've heard about on the news however the problems come when the dosage is 800mg's. I will start at 200 mg's and if I can tolerate it, I will increase it to 400 mg's.


The reasoning behind the Celebrex is because it is an anti-inflammatory drug that should help the pain in my side. But more importantly, there have been studies showing that Celebrex can aide in the shrinking of tumors because of how the enzymes affect the actual cancer cells. Anything is worth a try, huh.

If my pain gets bad, there is the option of radiation to help shrink the tumor.


All in all it was a good visit. He did say that he feels the cancer is progressing however he feels that it is a slow, manageable rate. In my case, since the cancer is relatively small, CT scans can give false-positive results. Due to how the scans take pictures in "slices" and you're never in exactly the same spot on the table it can show differences in sizes of the masses. It can make it look like the masses have shrunk in one scan and yet look like it has grown in another when it possibly hasn't done either.

Dr. Hahn said my tumor would have to grow another 25% to show true readings. Of course we don't want that happen so we'll just keep doing what we are doing.

There are also "tumor markers" that doctors look for in blood results to help aide in the determination of how aggressive the cancer is. In my case, I'm in the 10% of people that my cancer markers don't show anything. This makes tracking my cancer even harder.

I guess to summarize.... I have cancer, it's small in comparison to what it could be, the cancer is difficult to measure accurately, I'm staying on the same drug but at a higher dose, I'm taking Celebrex now, I still have many chemotherapy options, I have radiation as an option if it grows large, and my life is in no imminent danger at this point.


IT'S A GREAT DAY TO BE ALIVE!!

----- Travis Tritt

[> Subject: Cool!


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Cliff
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Date Posted: 21:39:02 05/16/05 Mon

Glad to see you've been given permission to stay on this side of the grass! I think we all like having you here. So when's there gonna be a good car cruise? We have a dinner date!

By the way--you're making me feel OLD here! Mark turned 43 today? Geez, I'll be 44 in a month and a half!
[> [> Subject: Not sure...


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 23:19:50 05/16/05 Mon

I'm not sure about when we can go to a car cruise. I know I have plans this weekend and next weekend so both of them are out. I'll have to let you know. This Saturday I'm going to Ocean City with my Dad for a huge car show. I think it's from Friday until Sunday. Should be a good time.

As per your email - no wet ones needed.

My nurse always says "anytime you wake up on this side of the dirt, it's a good day". VERY TRUE!! Although I sure would hate to wake up and be on the other side of the dirt......

[> [> [> Subject: Cruisin'


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Cliff
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Date Posted: 23:46:56 05/16/05 Mon

Memorial Day weekend would probably be bad for me, too--I have a friend from out of town coming for the weekend. But let me know when--I wouldn't mind hearing some engines rumble!
[> Subject: Great Day


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Date Posted: 21:47:36 05/18/05 Wed

Hi Stacy, I was happy to read Monday that your visit was a good one with the doctor. Good for you--- getting a second opinion. We continue to remember you in prayer and thank God for your strength and determination. Enjoy the weekend in Ocean City--sounds like a great time! Bonnie

Subject: Your update


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Donna
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Date Posted: 23:11:39 05/16/05 Mon

Hey Stacy -- just read your update -- am praying for you as always, and cheering very loudly. I watched you grow up, and always ALWAYS saw your determination.
Thinking of you often,
Donna
[> Subject: THANKS DONNA


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 23:11:39 05/16/05 Mon

I always appreciate your words of encouragement! That determination is a strong part of me and will NEVER go away!!

I haven't heard from Pam in quite some time. I hope she's doing okay. Tell her hello for me.


Subject: HAPPY BIRTHDAY


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Lil Sis
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Date Posted: 23:04:20 05/16/05 Mon


[> Subject: BIRTHDAY!!


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 00:06:28 05/15/05 Sun

IT'S MY BIG BROTHER'S BIRTHDAY!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MARK!!



[> [> Subject: Thank you Lil Sister!


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Mark
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Date Posted: 21:26:42 05/16/05 Mon

Was out on the motorcycle yesterday afternoon & evening.
Had a good day! Got a bunch of hugs & kisses from the gals at a couple places I ride to...and even a couple free beers!
43 feels just like 42 so far,maybe 44 will feel like 41...LOL!
[> [> [> Subject: And 45 feel like 40...


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Lil Sis
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Date Posted: 23:04:20 05/16/05 Mon

I figured once the sun came out you'd be out on the bike. I'm really glad you had a good day. The hugs and kisses had to make it that much better! Hope they were good lookin'!!

Hope you enjoyed the steamed crabs the other night too!! They were YUMMY!!

[> Subject: May 16th


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Bonnie
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Date Posted: 08:06:28 05/15/05 Sun

Hi Stacy, We are thinking of you as you see the doctor tomorrow. We know that you will feel better after talking with him and knowing where he is going with the treatment.

One thing for sure---your creativity has not diminished! Please don't tell Mark, but we like your bike picture better---you can do wheelies!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARK! Love and prayers, Bonnie & Jack

Subject: NOTHING!


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 17:01:25 05/12/05 Thu

Ain't NOTHING gonna get me down!

I got the love and support of friends and family. It's spring time and the flowers are blooming and I'm still here to see it and enjoy it! And I STILL plan on being here a VERY long time to see many more springs! It's getting warmer out and I CAN ride my scooter! And I got loads of faith in the MAN UPSTAIRS!!

I can't go wrong!!

AIN'T NUTHIN' GONNA GET ME DOWN!

Thank you all for your support and encouragement! It's means MORE THAN YOU COULD EVER IMAGINE!!

[> Subject: Mother's Day Art


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Bonnie
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Date Posted: 07:59:04 05/08/05 Sun

Good Morning Stacy! I signed on the site this morning to let you know that I was thinking of you, and to tell you that I miss your creative holiday art. Then there it was, and it was a great to see!! I knew that you would not be down for long. However, it is ok to take time to regroup. I don't want to minimize the impact of the news--Jack and I know that it was hard, but we know that you have a great support system--one of the best--and that you are strong. You will get over this mountain too!! Seeing your Mother's Day message made my day!! Enjoy the sunshine and warmth of your family and the day, and remember God does hear our prayers!!! More later. Bonnie
[> [> Subject: HI BONNIE


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 09:48:40 05/08/05 Sun

Good Morning to you too! HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!

Thank you so much for your prayers and letting me know how much you're thinking of me. That is more precious than I think most people realize.

I never "got down" after learning about the CT results but it was quite a bit to process. My doctor seemed hesitant to give me the copy of the report because he said that he thought once I read it... I would think I am significantly worse. He doesn't think I am. I don't agree with him.

The hardest part has been trying to figure out his reasoning. He STILL wants to keep me on the same drug even though the last three CT scans have shown growth while I've been on this drug. When we initially were talking a year and a half ago, he said he was going to try to put me in a remission. When I saw him a week ago, his comment was "you're paying me for a quality of life". I definitely want quality of life but I also want to continue working towards "quantity" of life. I see him again on May 16th. I really need to figure out where he's coming from.

Thank you so much for keeping up with my progress. I love hearing from you. I continue to keep you and your family in my prayers. Please tell Greg hello for me.

[> [> [> Subject: Monday


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Bonnie
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Date Posted: 15:30:49 05/09/05 Mon

Hi Stacy, How was your day? I have been busy running around all day. I just arrived home and turned on Oprah, and she has a dog trainer on to help socialize her dog. You probably don't watch Oprah, and I am sure that your dogs are already socialized, but I did find it interesting.

I saw Greg yesterday and gave him your hello. He sends one back to you. He and Stephanie are getting ready to spend a week at the beach. Did you know that they have 3 dogs? We all love dogs. I have seen some cute pictures of yours on this site!

I hope that this has been a good day for you. It has really been a pretty one. Jack and I send our love and prayers! Bonnie
[> [> [> [> Subject: LOVELY DAY!


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 23:20:44 05/09/05 Mon

It was a beautiful day! I spent it at Goodyear getting my brake pads replaced and getting an oil change.

But then when I got home, I dug out my vegetable garden to put in soil that is specifically for vegetable plants. Then I mulched the area. Tomorrow I will plant my tomato and cucumber plants. Hopefully we are safe from anymore more frost.

I had heard about Greg's rottweiler. That was so sad. I knew Steph had a dog but I didn't know they now have three dogs!!! They are getting as bad as me!!

No, I don't usually watch Oprah. If I'm in the house at that time I usually have on the news. My dogs are VERY social with other people. They aren't fond of children though. But they LOVE adults.

It sounds like we are going to have gorgeous weather this week!! Maybe I'll get the chance to ride my scoot-ster!

[> [> [> [> [> Subject: Busy


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Bonnie
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Date Posted: 21:16:22 05/10/05 Tue

Hi Stacy, Goodness, you were busy yesterday! I think that the frost is over. I think the general rule is no frost after the 15th, and we are close to that date. Jack planted more in the garden yesterday.

I agree with you about the doctor. I would find out what he is thinking, and let him know that you both need to be on the same page.

I think that you met Greg's dog Hammer---he had him when he lived in Reisterstown. When Greg got him, he was living alone in Reisterstown and I would go in everyday around lunch time to let Hammer out. Greg and Stephanie have a new rottweiler--Ice, and she is a sweet dog. She will not be as big as Hydro which is a good thing. Hydro was too big for me as I was a little afraid of her. She was never nasty, but her size frightened me. We were all so upset when she was killed. Hammer is my favorite. He is a small black and white dog. Do you remember him?

I have had a busy day. Casey and Ryan had only a half day of school. So I picked them up at noon plus two of their friends, and the four of us played all afternoon! Then this evening I took Casey to gymnastics. So I am going to close and watch some TV!! More later. Bonnie
[> [> [> [> [> [> Subject: GOOD EVENING


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Stacy
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Date Posted: 22:41:13 05/10/05 Tue

Hi Bonnie! Yes, I remember Hammer. Michael and I babysat him while Greg was away one time. That's been quite a while ago. He was a sweet dog.

I didn't get to plant my vegetables today. I just felt like "taking the day off" today. I did do a little weed whacking but that's was the extent of my gardening.

Sunday is my brother's birthday, so the family took him out for crabs tonight. It's tradition for our family to take each other out for steamed crabs on our birthdays. I love it!! They were really good. We go to Bill's Terrace Inn in Essex.

Sure sounds like your grand-kids keep you busy!!! How is Jack doing these days?

I missed American Idol tonight. BUMMER!!!

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> Subject: Dogs


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Bonnie
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Date Posted: 06:17:34 05/11/05 Wed

Good Morning Stacy, I thought that you would remember Hammer. Stephanie has Bailey, a beagle, and the newest addition is Ice, a rottweiler. All dogs should live with you or Greg and Stephanie---what a life!!!

The scooter picture is a stitch!! You have a talented friend.

I would choose crabs over any TV program anytime!! Sounds as though you had a good evening. I am happy that you took the day off. I couldn't believe all that you had done the day before!!

I have been taking too many days off! Have a good day---it is to be beautiful again. I am going to get to work so that I can be outside later today!

Oh, I forgot to answer your question about Jack. He is doing well. I don't remember if I told you he had been diagnosised with Graves Disease before we left for FL in January. He had been having double vision and a lot of testing to find out what the problem was. Long story short--one of the causes could have been cancer of the rectus eye muscle, that was a scare because of his cancer history, but after every scan available and other testing it was Graves---God is good! He had a check up in April, and the doctor was pleased as the eye is better. It seems that 2 out of 3 will have the Graves disappear after a year. Jack's has not completely disappeared, but it is getting better. Graves is a thyroid problem, and all of Jack's blood work shows that the thyroid is now normal. Love and Prayers, Bonnie
[> Subject: Hey Stacy


Author:
Cliff
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Date Posted: 20:43:01 05/10/05 Tue

Glad to see you're in good spirits! I know the car cruise season has already started, but now we're starting to get the right weather for it! Have you been to any yet? They've started on Friday nights at the Ritchie Highway Shopping Center here in Break-in Park....I mean Brooklyn Puke....I mean Brooklyn Park. But it's not a real big one. Maybe I'll wander through it this Friday, if I remember. By the way, I think you should grow me some hot peppers in that vegetable garden of yours!

My dad got the results of his 3-month scan yesterday. Unfortunately, the drug he was taking, Tarceva, was not effective; the tumor in his lung grew about 30%. I don't think it's very big, but we want shrinkage, not growth! So he'll be starting a new drug. My mom couldn't remember the name for certain; she thinks it's something like "navelbene." Navel Bean???? But my dad is feeling fine.
[> [> Subject: NAVELBINE


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 22:33:09 05/10/05 Tue

Sorry to hear about your Dad's news. I've heard of Navelbine, in fact it's the drug I would like to try next. Here's some info about it:

• Do not use vinorelbine without first talking to your doctor if you have
· liver disease;
· lung problems;
· nerve problems;
· any type of infection; or
· blood or bone marrow problems.

Vinorelbine can lower the activity of your immune system making you susceptible to infections. Avoid contact with people who have colds, the flu, or other contagious illnesses and do not receive vaccines that contain live strains of a virus (e.g., live oral polio vaccine) during treatment with vinorelbine. In addition, avoid contact with individuals who have recently been vaccinated with a live vaccine. There is a chance that the virus can be passed on to you.

What are the possible side effects of vinorelbine?
• If you experience any of the following serious side effects from vinorelbine, contact your doctor immediately:
· an allergic reaction (including difficulty breathing; closing of the throat; swelling of the lips, tongue, or face; or hives);
· decreased bone marrow function and blood problems (extreme fatigue; easy bruising or bleeding; black, bloody or tarry stools; or fever, chills, or signs of infection);
· redness, pain, or swelling at the injection site;
· abdominal pain or constipation;
· shortness of breath or cough;
· numbness, tingling, or weakness; or
· chest pain.
• Other, less serious side effects may be more likely to occur. Continue taking vinorelbine and talk to your doctor if you experience:
· hair loss;
· fatigue or tiredness;
· nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, or loss of appetite; or
· soreness or inflammation or the mouth or sores on the lips or inside the mouth.
• Other side effects have also been reported. Discuss with your doctor any side effect that occurs during treatment with vinorelbine.

All the above information was obtained from http://www.drugs.com/MTM/vinorelbine.html.


I haven't been to any car cruises yet but I plan to go when I find out for sure where they are in my area. North Plaza Mall (by Jerry's Chevrolet) may be on again this year. They were chased out late last year but I heard that it's under new management there so we'll see what happens.

No HOT PEPPERS in my garden. Sorry. I only have a small area for a vegetable garden and it will be filled with tomato and cucumber plants. And I don't always have good luck. I can grow a heck of a vine but my plants don't usually yield much. That's why I plant so many.

[> [> [> Subject: Thanks for the info


Author:
Cliff
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Date Posted: 19:14:43 05/11/05 Wed

Thanks for the info. I didn't find too much on line about that drug. I did read that it can lower the blood counts temporarily, but that they usually return to normal after about 3 weeks. My dad will be back on the 4-week cycle (3 weeks of treatment, 1 week off).

By the way, I'm hereby giving you a standing invitation: I'll buy you dinner if you can stand my ugly self at a car cruise some evening....
[> [> [> [> Subject: Standing invitation


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 21:19:28 05/11/05 Wed

I ACCEPT.
[> [> [> [> [> Subject: OK!


Author:
Cliff
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Date Posted: 17:01:25 05/12/05 Thu

Just tell me when and where!

Subject: FUN


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 23:07:40 05/10/05 Tue

A friend modified pictures of me on my scooter. I LOVE IT!!





Subject: Mother's Day


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 11:57:07 05/09/05 Mon




[> Subject: Mother's Day


Author:
Mom
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Date Posted: 11:57:07 05/09/05 Mon

Hey Kid...you sure made it a great one. The collage you made me is GREAT!! I love it!! My steak was great...everything!! And it was so sweet of you to buy Aunt Nancy's lunch too. She said you and Mark really made her day. The flowers he gave her, and me, are so pretty. You Kids are incredible. Love you both more than you can possibly know.

Belated Happy Mother's Day to you too. Look at all of your very spoiled babies. You are a great Mommy...they have your card at my house just waiting for you to pick it up since I forget to bring it yesterday.

I love you Kiddo,
Mother

Subject: Welcome back Stacy :)


Author:
Donna
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Date Posted: 01:25:17 05/08/05 Sun

ATTA GIRL!!!!
:D

Donna

Subject: ACTUAL RESULTS


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 18:52:01 05/07/05 Sat



I got the official results from the report from my CT scan. Once again, I had an ominous feeling for good reason. According to the results, I no longer have one mass in my right lung. I now have 4 masses. One is 18 millimeters in size, the second one is 6 millimeters in size, and the other two are 2 millimeters each. There may also be disease in the lymph nodes again including the nodes in the aortic arch.

The below ruler is metric. Each line represents a millimeter. The numbers represent centimeters.





PLEASE remember me in your prayers.

[> Subject: Loudly


Author:
Bonnie Day
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Date Posted: 07:05:43 05/06/05 Fri

Dear Stacy, Jack and I are devasted for you because of the news, and we know that it is a huge disappointment for you and your family and us too. However, we have seen you receive bad news before, and you bounced back with good treatment stronger than ever. We are praying loudly that the same will be true this time----we believe that it will. Do you remember the note I sent before about God wanting to know what we want and to pray loudly for it? Please know that we are doing that! We know from experience that it will take a little time to get a handle on this news, during that time gather your strength from your family and friends, and then begin battling the cancer with what your doctor prescribes. Our hearts ache for you, but we know that you will get over this mountain too! More later. Bonnie
[> Subject: Hi Honey


Author:
Malinda
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Date Posted: 10:15:10 05/06/05 Fri

Hi Stacy, I'm sorry to hear the news, you are in my prayers always. Love you!
[> Subject: Stay Strong


Author:
Jenn
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Date Posted: 10:16:14 05/06/05 Fri

Hi Stacy. Sorry to hear about your results but we all know that you are strong & can pull through this. We are praying for you & remember that you have lots of people that care & love you & that are going to help you through this. You will overcome this obstacle just like you always do. You are the strongest person I know & I will be praying for you. Keep your head up girl you can beat this!
[> Subject: Warm and Sunny


Author:
Bonnie
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Date Posted: 19:48:44 05/06/05 Fri

Hi Stacy, Well it has been a full day since I emailed you this morning. I have thought of you all day, and Jack and I have talked about you all day---that is why your ears are ringing!! We have been remembering your strong spirit and positive attitude----good, very good!!

Thought for tonight---it is to be warmer and sunny tomorrow. All of us feel better if we can be outside, especially if the sun is bright and warm! I hope that you will be outside tomorrow enjoying your beautiful flower gardens.

Have you had to cover your flowers since you put them in? We have some ready to plant that we keep inside during the night, and put outside during the day. We still are having very cold nights. Yours are beautiful!

We attended our grandson's baseball game last evening. It was so cold that Casey ( our granddaughter) and I went and sat in the car after the 3rd inning. The game is only 6 innings, but we just couldn't make it!! Jack sat through all of the game. Ryan has another game in the morning---that is why I know what the weather is for tomorrow!! I don't want to freeze again. Our love and prayers. Bonnie
[> Subject: Reply to your news


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Jack
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Date Posted: 21:32:21 05/06/05 Fri

I follow your posts regularly. I am also am disturbed by your latest news. I give you credit, when you get those funny feelings,your feelings a surprisingly accurate. You are definitely in my prayers and thoughts. Will chat with you soon.

Jack and Betty
[> Subject: Thinking of you


Author:
Cliff
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Date Posted: 11:57:56 05/07/05 Sat

Stacy:
I'm sorry to hear that your feelings were right after all. But I know you've been through tough times before, and I believe you'll do it again. You know I'll be thinking of you.
[> Subject: Lives touched


Author:
Gene
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Date Posted: 18:52:01 05/07/05 Sat

My dear Stacy, In our last conversation you spoke of prayer, The need to pray for yourself. Well as it happens I took your advice and thinhg have begun to happen in my life. So I ask you to also take your own advice. And just to let You know You have touched my life more than You will ever know. God Bless!!!

Subject: Cheering for you


Author:
Donna
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Date Posted: 09:02:53 05/07/05 Sat

Hey Stacy... praying for you and your family... you have to stay strong, 'get big'... you can rise above this again. Thinking of you.
Donna

Subject: CT SCAN RESULTS


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 23:27:06 05/04/05 Wed

I dropped off my CT scan films today. My oncologist called a little while ago and gave me the great news. The cancer has STOPPED growing!! So it's stable again.

THANK YOU LORD FOR THIS WONDERFUL BLESSING!! Thank you all for your prayers!

[> Subject: AAAAAAA-IGHT!!!!!


Author:
Cliff
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Date Posted: 21:11:47 04/19/05 Tue

I'm going to pay the Parkville High cheerleading squad to put on their uniforms and do a cheer in front of your house!

"Way to go, Stacy, way to go!"

You know, you usually seem to have a sense of what's happening with all this. A couple days ago, you said you had an ominous feeling. It's nice to WRONG sometimes, isn't it?

"Way to go, Stacy, way to go!"
[> [> Subject: ACTUAL RESULTS


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 23:27:06 05/04/05 Wed

I got the official results back from my CT scan. I have a copy of the radiologists report.

I had an ominous feeling for good reason. According to the results, I no longer have one mass in my right lung. I now have 4 masses. One is 18 millimeters in size, the second one is 6 millimeters in size, and the other two are 2 millimeters each. There may also be disease in the lymph nodes again including the nodes in the aortic arch.


The below ruler is metric. Each line represents a millimeter. The numbers represent centimeters.


Subject: Hi Stacy!


Author:
Cliff
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Date Posted: 19:12:26 05/01/05 Sun

Just thought I'd stop in and say hello. Hope you had a good weekend!

Subject: MY GARDEN


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 15:07:39 04/30/05 Sat

I've been enjoying working on my garden this spring. Here are some shots of what I've done so far...






[> Subject: LOOKS BEAUTIFUL!!!


Author:
Mark
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Date Posted: 11:53:00 04/29/05 Fri

I was there last sunday & saw her garden.She certainly has worked very hard on clearing out all of the brush,then planting all the beautiful flowers & bushes!
She has lengthened it all the way behind her house up to next door neighbors yard.This property borders a fence where another neighbor keeps his horses.All of her neighbors love her work & want her to landscape for then too!She could have a full time job making the neighborhood beautiful!
[> Subject: So Pretty!!!


Author:
Jenn
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Date Posted: 21:40:20 04/29/05 Fri

Hi Stacy!
Your flowers look wonderful! You have been hard at work. Now I know you have my address & what is a good day to start on my house??? LOL!!!
You are inspiring me to get going on my flowers! I hope my turn out as well as yours did! You did a wonderful job!
[> Subject: Nice!


Author:
Cliff
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Date Posted: 15:07:39 04/30/05 Sat

Nice flowers! How about growing some hot peppers for me?

Subject: SCOOT-STER


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 23:00:33 04/27/05 Wed

LOVIN' MY SCOOT-STER




Subject: question


Author:
Connie aka Honig
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Date Posted: 22:57:59 04/27/05 Wed

Stacy
I am back, just like I promised.
Forgot to ask you something the other night.
How many sessions of radiation did you have?
Connie
[> Subject: RADIATION


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 00:18:21 04/13/05 Wed

Welcome back, Connie. Off the top of my head I think it was 33 days in a row minus weekends. Each day I was "zapped" three times for 20 some seconds each. How many days will you have to go?
[> [> Subject: reply


Author:
Connie
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Date Posted: 22:16:26 04/13/05 Wed

I have seven zaps left. Or should I say, "seven BBQ times left." ??? I will have 30 total treatments, with the last five being called booster. They are starting that next Monday. Going to direct the "beam" more at the orginal cancer site area.
I have another question, Stacy. How did they find out that your cancer had come back? I am really frightened by this idea, especially since I can't take the tamoxifen. You have been really an inspiration to me. I just had to let you know.
Connie
[> [> [> Subject: AWWW THANKS


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 00:22:05 04/14/05 Thu

Hi Connie! Good luck with the last five treatments.


I had seven "booster" treatments. By then I was burnt to a crisp. If you're not burned bad by now you will be fine. That area may get redder though. My booster treatments were done along the length of the mastectomy scar. I finished all treatments on May 17th, 2000. Ironically a friend of mine was at the same hospital at the same time being induced for labor. I went up to her room to visit. Her labor went so fast that I ended up being in the room to watch the incredible birth of her baby!! What a memorable day! I finished radiation and got to see a brand new baby be born all in the same day!

In January of 2003 I started coughing up blood. I went to see three of my doctors for opinions. All three thought I may have burst a blood vessel from laughing so hard earlier that day. I insisted on at least a chest x-ray. Supposedly they didn't see anything so what choice did I have but to believe them.


Then in July of 2003 I started coughing up blood again. My doctor immediately sent me for a CT scan. That time they saw the cancer in my lung. He sent me for two tests. One was a "bronchoscopy" and the other was a "mediastenoscopy". Both were done the same day and they were surgical procedures. During the mediastenoscopy the surgeon biopsied eleven lymph nodes in my chest. During the bronchoscopy the surgeon attempted to biopsy the masses in my lung. They were so deep he wasn't successful. They determined that the lymph node biopsies showed that it was the breast cancer spreading. Although they couldn't reach the ones in the lung they assumed they were the same thing.


The surgeon that read the CT scan also read my chest x-ray from January as well as the one from the November before I coughed up blood. Even though the radiologist did NOT see the cancer in the lung or lymph nodes, the surgeon was able to clearly see it.


My suggestion to you is to make sure you get CT scans at least once a year. They are so much more detailed and the radiologist will most likely not miss anything like they could with just chest x-rays.


Other than coughing up blood and being exceptionally tired, I really didn't have symptoms. After I found out I had the cancer again certain things were making sense. Like when I tried to sleep on my back, I felt like there was a weight on my chest. Also when I knelt down then stood up, I would get a little light headed. All that makes sense now that I know it was from the cancer.


Breast cancer can spread anywhere in the body but the most common areas are the lungs and the bones. If you have pains that don't go away within a reasonable amount of time make sure you see the doctor. NEVER settle for them just "brushing" you off. You know your body better than the doctors do. You know when something is different. Just follow-up on your instincts.

Don't be afraid to live your life. Don't sit around just waiting for the cancer to come back, it may not! Live and love your life more than you ever have. If it does come back it makes your motivation and determination to fight the battle even stronger.


I couldn't take the Tamoxifin either but only because my cancer is HER negative. What that means is... estrogen was not the reason behind getting my cancer. The Tamoxifin reduces the amount of estrogen in your body. Since estrogen wasn't the cause of mine, it wouldn't make a difference as to whether or not the cancer returned. Is that the reason you can't take it either?

I sure help all this helps. Please feel free to ask ANYTHING, I enjoy trying to help others from my experiences and what I've been exposed to from other patients.

[> [> [> [> Subject: Congratulations


Author:
Connie
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Date Posted: 20:49:33 04/27/05 Wed

Congratulations on your cat scan. You must be so happy. I read the information that you sent me about the radiation and your followups. When ever we, Rich and I, go to the doctors, we always have pen and paper. We have prepared questions to ask. I see three doctors on May 11th as follow-up and then every 70-90 days. Your history has raised some questions that I would not have thought about. Thank you so much. You say it the way it is, not glossed over to seem so fine and dandy. Some people will do that when talking. I am also known as Curious Connie, and your information is worth so much. You have been thru so much and can share so much. I sure do think of you alot and admire your courage and willingness to share.
Thank you........... :-)
[> [> [> [> [> Subject: Forgot something


Author:
Connie
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Date Posted: 20:52:03 04/27/05 Wed

Stacy
I even forgot to tell you..... My gift to myself for my 50th birthday was to have no more radiation. And to think that last fall, I didn't even think I would be here to celebrate. (We are going out on Friday) Today was my birthday. haaahaaahaaa
Connie
[> [> [> [> [> [> Subject: HI CONNIE


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 22:57:59 04/27/05 Wed

Well HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! That's the best birthday present you could have received, huh!


I am so glad that I can help you with your questions. Maybe that's one of the reasons I've been given this disease. I enjoy trying to help others understand what they are going through and maybe even lift their spirits.


Subject: HI, STACY


Author:
Cliff
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Date Posted: 20:56:19 04/23/05 Sat

Just thought I'd drop by and say hello! Seems like you had a pretty good week! Hope the weekend is going well. Did you get hit with that thunderstorm up your way this evening? It hit here just as I was going out to pick up a pizza!

Subject: Upcoming tests...


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 09:35:02 04/21/05 Thu

I have a couple follow-up tests scheduled. They are:

Mammogram = Monday, April 18th

CT scan = Tuesday, April 19th

Could use some prayers...

[> Subject: Good luck!


Author:
Cliff
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Date Posted: 23:08:21 04/17/05 Sun

Monday the 18th? Hey, that's tomorrow! Good luck with both the tests!

My dad has his 3-month scan (since he started on the new drug) on May 5th, and he'll get the results May 9th. Hope you'll keep some good thoughts in mind for him.

I hope you enjoyed your weekend. Weather was great today, wasn't it?
[> [> Subject: Hey Lil Sis!


Author:
Mark
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Date Posted: 09:30:06 04/18/05 Mon

Good luck today with the test!
[> [> [> Subject: TESTS


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 23:35:44 04/18/05 Mon

I went for my mammogram today and while I was there I asked them if they could possibly "squeeze" in my CT scan today also. Fortunately they were able to!! YEA!! So I don't have to go back tomorrow.

I don't have the results of the CT scan yet alhtough I can say with delight that my mammogram was perfectly fine.

[> [> [> [> Subject: Hi Stacy!


Author:
Jenn
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Date Posted: 10:03:18 04/19/05 Tue

Glad to hear that your mammogram came back good! I'm sure the results of your Ct Scan will be good too! Are you enjoying this WARM weather? The dogs are loving life of laying on the deck all stretched out in the sun!! Wish I could lay there all day & snooze.. Dogs sure do have the life! How's your "babies" doing? Hope all is well with you & keep up the GREAT work!!
See you at the track real soon!
[> [> [> [> [> Subject: HI JENN!


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 16:57:31 04/19/05 Tue

I AM LOVING THIS WEATHER! I can't seem to get anything done indoors since I've been spending all my time outside. In the last couple days I've planted around 30 bushes. My flower garden is getting so colorful and pretty! I love it.

My dogs are loving my deck also. Tyler sits by the sliding glass door just waiting for me to let him out there. My neighbor outback has horses and they walk down the hill to graze. My babies have fun "chatting" with them.

I'm looking forward to the track AND the car cruises this year.

How was your vacation?

[> [> [> [> [> [> Subject: Wonderful!!!!!!


Author:
Jenn
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Date Posted: 09:35:02 04/21/05 Thu

WOW!!! Everything seems to be great!!! Your great results & great weather what else could we ask for!!!
Wish I had all that stuff planted!! I haven't got started yet but I need to get my butt in gear & get my flowers planted out front.
Looks like we will be heading to the track on the 30th are you & Mark going up? I hope you guys can make it.
Our vacation was great! Did you get the pictures I sent? We had such a blast & as usual Sea World was my favorite along with the Magic Kingdom! Dana was in such amazement over all the characters!We had a great time & can't wait to go back!

Subject: CONGRATULATIONS


Author:
Mark
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Date Posted: 20:25:39 04/19/05 Tue

That was great news today!Glad to hear things are on a positive note for you!Your tough,you can beat this!

Subject: UPDATE!


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 00:36:51 04/15/05 Fri

I had my white blood cell count checked today. I am very happy to say that my counts are back to normal!!!
[> Subject: CONGRATULATIONS


Author:
Cliff
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Date Posted: 00:36:51 04/15/05 Fri

Hey, I'm glad to hear any about any good news you get! Keep it up!

So when did you say you'd be taking me to dinner and a car cruise? Or was I supposed to buy dinner? ;)

Subject: A Prayer For Stacy From Mel @ cancercarenetwork.com


Author:
Melody
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Date Posted: 22:52:06 04/12/05 Tue

This is for Stacy......With love

Dear Lord......

Tonight I pray that you watch over Stacy and her Family. I pray that you hold her tonight and every night. Lord she is your faithful servant and you wish good things for her. We know this.......you made her live strong and free. Lord.....she is an adventurous soul with much ambition. We thank you for creating such a wonderful person and giving her unto us and others in this world! She has helped many along her path........her journey may very well include others for her to touch. Lord I am one individual touched by Stacy. I am grateful that she found us all online in CancerCareNetwork! She is such a source of inspiration........she is beauty unspoken! Lord.....I ask that you send sunbeams to shine on her brow........send Moonbeams to kiss her forehead at night........send the stars to guide her......and send your loving angels to protect her. You gave her the ambitions of her heart and so shall she seek them. My humble prayer at thsi time for Stacy.....is not so much for Stacy herself.....but rather those who see her......who hear her......who breathe her name.......that they know they have been in contact with one of your most special creations ever! May Stacy continue in her pilgrimage to fight and to shed light and dew drops as rain drops on all those that meet her. Again I ask....please hold her tight! In your precious name Dear Lord.....I pray.....AMEN!

Much Love to You Stacy......as always it was a pleasure to see you in chat. May God Bless your precious Heart....may you find many reasons to smile! Much Love my Pretty friend!~~~~~~ Mel
melody@cancercarenetwork.com
[> Subject: LOVELY!


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 22:52:06 04/12/05 Tue

Mel, thank you SO MUCH for that lovely prayer! It is so touching and I appreciate it so much. Wow, I can't go wrong with a prayer like that! You never cease to amaze me! Thank you so much again.

Subject: Saying Hi


Author:
Connie
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Date Posted: 22:46:06 04/12/05 Tue

Stacy
Sure was great to see you in the CCn chat room again. Sure have missed you. I have been keeping track of you in hyour site, but have been bad about posting. Sorry, but like I promised, here I am.
Hope your WBC goes down so you can get back on the chemo.
Thinking of you
Connie
[> Subject: 44HONIG


Author:
Stacy
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Date Posted: 22:46:06 04/12/05 Tue

Hi Connie! Thanks for stopping in and posting! It was great chatting with you also last night. It's been a while. I pray that your remaining radiation treatments go well for you. What's the plan for after radiation?

Although my WBC's are up, I'm still on chemo. The doctor didn't take me off of it because he was basing it on how I felt. Since I feel fine and never got sick, he decided to keep me on it. I think I'm going to stop in his office some time this week and have them checked again just for grins and giggles.

Don't be a stranger! Come back soon!


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